Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Acceptance

Having a rough few weeks. Accepting who you are while others can't.  Trying to conform to a set of norms. Having to rely on the One who never fails, and Trusting His timing is testing every bit of faith I have.
God, lead to a place where Your Grace is sufficient.

Saturday, March 25, 2017

Sunday, March 19, 2017

Dwell

Christ loves me. I am not what others think of me. I have to dwell on His Goodness.

Saturday, March 18, 2017

Friday, March 17, 2017

Thursday, March 16, 2017

Pick

Corned beef
Cabbage
Soda bread

Blessings.

Worshipping with Jesus.
I am blessed with a family that loves me.
A warm, cozy home.
A pantry that is beyond full.
Dreams.
Being able to travel
Calloused feet that tell me I'm walking
Hope in Jesus. I hope You find Him too.

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

What I want.

Living with Christ is hard
for I am selfish
I want what I want
With Christ
You live for others
Deny self
Our desire is not His
To love Christ
I must love other.

Pick

Anguilla
Greece
Sochi, Russia

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

Suffering

I've read several blog posts discussing joy in suffering. I flatly said no, but I was thinking of happiness.  Happiness in suffering I haven't found. Joy, I will see. When I immerse myself in who He is, let myself worship, my heart can appreciate His Love and Sacrifice.  So I will honor His suffering by finding joy in mine.

Pick

Germany
France
India

Monday, March 13, 2017

i need You

Lord, I need you
For what I see
I do not like. 
When I see you
I must trust 
Even when the world 
Says not

Pick

Tim Tebow
Alex Rodriguez
Roger Federer

Sunday, March 12, 2017

Friday, March 10, 2017

Vulnerable

The vulnerability I feel right now is like an open wound that won't close.  Open to feel everything I once repressed. Wonder if what I want if not an option. Waiting on God is hard. Waiting is hard period. Trust is hard. Having faith is hard. Wonder if it's me. I'm trying to love self, and I wonder if it's me.

Pick

Shortbread
Pecan
Oatmeal

Thursday, March 9, 2017

Denial

I've been thinking which for me can be not good.  I once thought it was great that you couldn't see my disability.  I'm finding that thinking wrong. Denial has caused me more pain than I can say.   Truth is one hard cut, but denial is a festering sore. I have to forgive myself.  I realize I haven't. Writing this last sentence has me in tears thinking of what I've done to myself.   I can't undo the pain, but I can try not to repeat it. Right now, I have to let the anger go. Not all anger is bad, but this is right now.

Pick

Tulips
Roses
Daisy

Wednesday, March 8, 2017

Pick

Monaco
Spain
France

Faith

Let me have faith. Faith that demonstrates belief. A belief that doesn't waver.  That needs no proof.

Sunday, March 5, 2017

Grace

Finding you in that place. When I am face to face.  Knowing that my mistakes are not disgrace. I trust in the sovereignty of the One who took the blame. For life began when I called your Name. I come to You today seeking forgiveness for what I cannot change.

Friday, March 3, 2017

Cerebral Palsy

I'm realizing normal isn't possible. Peace, yes. I've dreaded dependency, giving it to negativity, but that may not be so. It takes strength, Grace and courage to admit you need help even when it bruises your ego.   I have an ego, and Cerebral Palsy breaks it.

Pick

Hermes
Chanel
Wal-Mart

Thursday, March 2, 2017

Cerebral Palsy

I didn't want to talk about Cerebral Palsy because I didn't want to deal with it. The pain, the agony, the shame over not having acceptance over what I have never been able to control. I didn't think people would love me because I couldn't love myself. I struggle with accepting love because I question its authenticity. I didn't want to accept the elephant in the room. As much as I said I did, I didn't. I wanted from people what I was unwilling to give myself. Truth, the one thing that doesn't lie. The scars one sees are not the bad ones. I want to trust, to love and let Truth guide me.

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a sale
Vintage
Consignment

Wednesday, March 1, 2017