Tuesday, June 30, 2015


 It has been a grueling day.  Sometimes you have to learn and sometimes teach.  While i don't want to have to explain my disability, sometimes I must be uncomfortable so others can learn.  If they don't know, it doesn't serve me.

Monday, June 29, 2015

Time flies

Almost July?  Wow!  It just reminds me how fast time goes, and to just enjoy it.  Every day is a gift.  I have to remind myself.  I tend to forget easily or take it for granted.  Coming into July, I just want to be more present.  I tend to be a projector and a have a negative attitude toward self.  This is what I'd like to work on.
What would you like to work on?

meaning filled monday

Have a blessed day!  Going to make this day wonderful.  Positive thinking!

Friday, June 26, 2015

The mystery

This week is coming to a close, but I'm proud of myself.
What I've learned this week:
It's okay to shed tears.
Not everyone will give you praise.
Not everyone will care.
The ones that do will give you love.
He came down to save us All.

Life is a mystery, I am experiencing for the first time, eyes open.  When your eyes are open, so too is your heart.  For an idealist, with the world, and a realist with self, I can't treat the world better than I do myself.  Thank you to a reader who pointed that out to me.  I still hope for the good.

Have a blessed day filled with love and joy.

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Thursday Confession Session

I'm tired. Rest is what I need.
Diet Pepsi. Major Yes
Blogging relationships:  what a blessing
South Carolina>Texas in heat.  Don't think I was ready
Dreaming of a pool and a cold beverage

What are yours?

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

the truth

I usually don't address this, but I will.  Disability.  That darn D word.

What has it cost me?
Independence-  Asking to be driven everywhere.  To the doctor, to the bank, etc.  I just can't decide, oh i'd like to get an ice cream today.

Privacy-  I need help with ordinary tasks like cutting my toenails, doing my hair or flossing my teeth.

My pride-It is extremely embarrassing to ask for help for some of the things I need help with sometimes.

Folks, on the outside, I look fine, and maybe I've helped emphasize this fact so fellow humans couldn't see reality.  For that, I'm sorry.

What I've gained

Christ-  I don't know if I weren't disabled, if I could embrace Christ and accept his gift of salvation.

Perception is not reality, it's all in perspective.
I'm doing now what I swore I'd never do.
A small glimpse into my life as a disabled individual.


Letting the light of Christ shine through me.
Forgiveness is a gift.
Smile folks.
As my dad said today
Life is too short.
The best revenge is a kind heart
Let the light of Christ shine through you
Kindness is everywhere if we let it bloom
It's a new season
Make it count


Wednesday thoughts

I don't know God's reasons, but I must trust.
I caved and had ice cream last night, and it didn't taste that great
I need to drink more water, even if I don't like the taste.
Love the idea of online shopping, but don't do it.
How are y'all doing?

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

A request

I am proud of who I am. I am proud of who God made me.  I used to hate me, and hate God. Who I am is a human being who deserves respect. I do not ask for much, I just ask for decency and compassion. I am realizing that may be too much. I have too many questions and no answers.
I'm tired.
Please pray for me.

Monday, June 22, 2015

the lessons learned painfully

This past week, I've had to confront that that confounds me.
For every person that upset me, there was another to reaffirm the best of humanity.
I am not God, but I am learning who He made me to be.
God tests us, when we don't want to be.
Relaxing now



Friday, June 19, 2015

'how you live'

In light of these week's events in Charleston and in my life, here are some thoughts:
Love reigns
My heart longs for peace
The Point of Grace is in my head. It's really How You Live.

Have a blessed day!

Texas Friday five

dallas or Austin
Cowboys or Texans
Tex-Mex or barbecue
Country or folk
Horses or cows


Pray for South Carolina!

Saturday, June 13, 2015

Prayer Warriors

Unspoken prayer request.  God knows the need.  When two or more are gathered.  Let's start a prayer movement. Share, yall.

Friday, June 12, 2015

Friday five

Five pieces of gratitude

Advil, Aleve- to helps with minor aches and pains
A smile- the upside down frown makes a big difference
Music- So I can worship and or be encouraged anytime
Diet coke- As someone blogged yesterday- so bad yet so good. i agree!
Jesus- Who makes everything work in unison.

do you have five or one one?
I'd love to hear!

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Summer survey

What says summer to you?
Road trip or day trip
sunscreen or tanning oil
pool or jacuzzi
bocce ball or paddleball
soda or beer


Summer dreams

Dreaming of a relaxing summer day.  Where is yours?

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Thank you

You know how to make this girl feel beyond special.  Thank you for giving and giving again.  You make a girl beyond humbled.  Thank you!  May God Bless you all.


The body is sore, the mind clear, the soul satisfied.   Have a great, blessed day!

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

proud moment

Today's been one of those days that leaves me awestruck.  All I can think is wow.  I've come so far, and yet I feel there is more to be done.  It leaves me speechless that this in South Carolina.  I've been so blessed.  As I was reading a devotional this afternoon, I couldn't help but be put in my place.
I've never thought that living my life would be my testimony, and that people would be watching how I live my life to see all the greatness of Christ.
I've not thought much of myself, but I have to think:  how many times has God allowed my life to be a light of what He can do.  I've been blessed with parents who knew how to love me, push me and nurture His greatness in me.  Do, I take it for granted?  Yes.  I am grateful for this gift to write.  It has helped my soul heal.  It has allowed me to meet and communicate with wonderful people.
When I look at my college degree from Lander University, I smile with pride.  Five years of hard work and more tears than I can count.  It was one of the most humbling times in my life.
I don't want to be ashamed of Cerebral Palsy or not being able to drive.  It makes life a pain in ass sometimes, i will never sugarcoat that.  Living for me now is a blessing i now can recognize with eyes anew.  He knows my dreams, and if you want to know ask me.  In that church in Assisi those years ago, my heart fluttered with wonder, and it flutters now.  I'm afraid for the world to see me, but here it is.

one with God

In the love of Christ, I bask.  It's in His love, we are set free. No more chains, no more sown seeds of self-doubt. We are made whole in Him. Today, seek Him. Today, let Him have the one thing He truly wants:  YOU!  I am utterly human, HE is utterly God.  I'm releasing all my pain, my plans, all of it. My whole being needs a holy cleanse.

Monday, June 8, 2015

Favorite blogs

i love blogs.  What are your favorites?

my monday thoughts

I am one with you
I'm tired
Weary bones
Weary heart
no more
i refuse
to feel powerless
in my own body
my own mind

i am yours
You are mine
God, Father, I surrender

My heart feels so much.  Sometimes, Lord, I want to give up. I know you made me for more, so I continue on.  Some battles, I won't fight, for it is unnecessary for me.  It is very clear that life is beautiful.  It's all in perspective.

Be blessed,

Friday, June 5, 2015

Friday five

mojito or martini
Tea or coffee
Yoga or running
Bike or walk
Summer or spring



Thursday, June 4, 2015

When I look at your creation
What do I see
the bluebird
the deer
the darkness
that is ever present
We all have a light
We need to show it
Make your voice heard
in the end
what will be said about you
I lived
I saw
I conquered
the fear that had no rhyme
i found peace
when I stopped looking
I have to trust God
That His will in perfect
I ceased fighting a battle
that couldn't be won
the pain I endured
is something i wish for no one
pain is a necessary evil
sometimes through pain
we find a reason
it molds us
Our character made whole
When pain is made purposeful
Making life matter with meaning

Happy Birthday Mom

It's my Mom's Birthday today!  If you'd like wish her a Happy Birthday in the comments.

Wednesday, June 3, 2015

What a gift

To think my ashes could be used for beauty
is something I never thought possible
to experience joy
rather than pain
is quite divine
the thing i consider my burden
is becoming something to embrace
to think I'd write again
be in a place to do so
is a blessing I can't take for granted
i really never or anytime soon
Think I'd come to a place
where I wouldn't be ashamed of how
He made me.
For once, I will not question
Sometimes the greatest gifts
require no explanation
Right now, my heart is filled with a joy
My eyes, tears
Knowing He is there

Thank you!

very happy

Very happy!
Thank you, Lord!

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Would you rather

a fun post today.

Would you rather?
Visit a winery or a brewery
visit a city or countryside
See a monument or lounge poolside
Read a book or watch Netflix
Climb a mountain or a spa day

two days city, then retreat


Monday, June 1, 2015

Summer plans

What are you looking forward to this summer?

Reading...any good recommendations?
Reveling in God's Goodness



Good morning!  I hope all is well.  It's been a great weekend.  It's June.  I've been reading some blogs this morning, and I realize there is so much loss, yet so much hope.  All I can say is that Life is short.  Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced.  Soren Kierkegaard
I hope you have Hope today!
God Bless,