Overthinking

 Overthinking 

The crux

Of the problem 

That crosses 

My mind

Each and every day 

So today 

I need

Nature

To be my focus 

Or means

Of redirection 

Yes

 Fighting the rage

Coursing through 

My veins 

Anger doesn’t serve 

My soul anyway 

Channel the fear

If only to

Bring the challenge 

To eye level 

Making what

Is bothering you 

A goal to master

Instead of it 

Becoming your

Master

Farm days

 It’s a good day 

When the sun

Makes an appearance 

And the

John Deere

Ballcap

Fits perfectly 

Three things

 Three things

Practicing gratitude in even the smallest measures is good for the soul. 

Waking up and good coffee is on my list today. 

Been feeling anxious lately. Can’t pinpoint the reason. It’s there. If you would pray please. 

I’m smiling because you my friends are great. 

Love yourself and one another

Libation

 Floating

On the high seas

Of love

Where hope

Is a constant

And joy

Is my ever faithful 

Companion

Find me dreaming

Of pink sands

Cerulean waters

And a fruity libation

Where reality

Is the figment

Of my imagination

Inescapabable truth

 When my mind 

Wanders

Into the depths

Let me be

Reminded

You follow 

Me there

Ice

 The blades

Of the skate

Spray ice

Like flying 

Fairy dust

The punches

Black eyes

And melees

Pitting brawny men

Fighting over

A puck

Make hockey

So fun to see

Right now

Fervor

 The chilly winds

Chaffing my skin

And right now

I’m chasing it

With fervor

Because with 

Cool and collected breaths

Bring serenity

To a soul

In need

Of the stillness

Only He

Can grant me

Tell me something making you smile today?

Still using the gifts given to me by the sweetest blog friend. Every time I use them, I smile. Unexpected gifts pay dividends even months later. Thank you friend. 

Place of worship

 A crisp 

Morning walk

With my old 

Furry and fuzzy friend

Put a pep 

My step

A song in my heart

A peace to my soul

And a dream

I need to 

Continue to chase

God 

And my daily constitution

What a combination

A wise lady

Told me recently

That where

My head and heart

Meet 

Is exactly

The place 

He is

I wasn’t in

A place of worship

But in nature

Was the place

I chose to worship

Faith

 Finding faith

In the silence

I seek

And the noise

I desire

Is to worship

Your face

Sunday

 Sunday fun

Some of my favorite treats

Ginger chews

Gummy bears

Looking forward to the NHL playoffs

And some baseball

Any book or podcast recommendations?

What does your Sunday look like?

His plan

 I forgive you

For expecting

You to fulfill

My every desire

I’m sorry for asking

For more

Than you 

Could give

I took offense

When your words

Harmed my 

Fragile ego

And wounded soul

Now knowing

What wasn’t given

Was not yours

To supply

Forgiveness granted

Because to receive it

I must give it

It is such a gift

To be known

By You

And yet 

So unknown

By the populace

I enjoy it now

Because that may 

Not always the plan

His plan

Love yourself and one another

Northern Star

 Being on the island

Alone

Is better

Than following

A crowd

Where

I may lose

The most precious commodity

Am I willing

To let it slip

To be loved

For all the

Wrong reasons

Lonely

I used to loathe

The feeling

But now

What I 

Couldn’t understand

Has become

The Northern Star

Love yourself and one another

Mundane privilege

 Every experience

A lesson

In perseverance 

And a need

To be in deep

Gratitude

For He is

With me

In the dental chair

The grocery store

And in my

Periphery

When my 

Free will

Runs like a cheetah

With afterburners

Because I’m 

Too stubborn

Or impatient

To enjoy 

The mundane

That the 

World over

Would consider

A privilege

Mind

 When one is still

Listening becomes vital

What I get out

Is what 

Is put in

Being selective

As what deserves 

My attention

No need

To be jealous

Anxious

Or envious

Letting the Creator

Gut me

To rebuild

A person

I can recognize 

With pride

And admiration

Seeking popularity

And notoriety

For human appreciation

About destroyed

My soul

The more one

Doesn’t know

Is winning

These days

It’s not hollow

But an affirmation

That who I am

Is a blessing

One I’ve so 

Deceptively dismissed

At the peril

Of my own 

Mind

Love yourself and one another

Change

 Lessons learned from yesterday

Not every question will have an answer. The secret is how one adapts to change. You didn’t ask me to figure it out, you just ask for trust. 

Do I trust

You enough

To cease fighting

The change that

Will come

Even if 

I’m not ready

Love

 Keep your eyes

On the prize

Christ has 

Set before you

Eyes to see

Hope

The soul

To welcome

The flares

Of fire

My heart

To seek

Love

The body

To find

Effusive joy

Because 

I’m armed

By the King

Of Heaven

Who came 

To Earth

Living fearlessly

Without doubt

Of tomorrow’s outcome

The Son

In me

Within me

To rise

On the wings

Of angels

To lead me

In my efforts

Now and forever

My desire

Is that 

God is present

Ridding myself

Of my own fleshly ambitions

Has been a battle

Not without sin

Here in these parts

I don’t deny it

The fact is 

I need forgiveness

For my wayward thoughts

Stripping my worldly wants

For a faith

Tested and redeemed 

Is taking on

A new level

Of patience

Don’t ask me

To pray for it

I haven’t

And He is 

Still having me 

Seek what

I don’t want

Don’t question

If God 

Won’t do it

It happens every day

Every time

Why 

Is uttered by

My lips

I get

Taught

Another lesson

In what 

It means to wait

Admit defeat

Yet say thank you

Anyway

Procedure

 Lord

Today

I will have 

To confront

The limitations

Of my health

Procedure day

Never gets easier

Peace cover me

As I step

Into unknown places

Me

 Love me

As you do

Even if

No one knows

You are my audience

If anybody knows me

Let it be

Because of

My proximity

To you

The lover

Of my soul

We look

To fame

And wealth

To define

Our worth

And we fail

Every time 

Because our hearts

Need new focus

Not a judgement

Or indictment

Of others

Just a necessary reminder

Of what

You desire

Of me

Praise

 I don’t understand

The why

Beyond your motives

But I trust

Because 

You’ve proven

To be worthy

Of all my praise

Please pray for someone near and dear to my heart. May He provide healing and His providential Power. 

Sunday love and blessings

Protect

 Protect Your people

Lord

Your will

Not mine

Be done

On Earth

As it is

In Heaven

Trois

 Friday

Three things I’m grateful for

Being honest and not lying to myself. If you’ve been in denial for any length of time, I don’t need to explain this. 

The grace and mercy of God are allowing me to be honest. There is nothing perfect in my life, but Him. I’ve struggled mentally for years, and couldn’t get out of my own head. I finally got so physically tired, I surrendered without knowing that’s what I was doing. 

I’m grateful to wake up without pain most days. I’m grateful medical advancements allow me to stretch and exercise. You don’t get to choose much in this life, but you choose how to modify to your ability. 

Second

Any prayer requests?  It doesn’t matter if you believe or not, I will still intercede. I believe enough for you and me. I plant seeds, he waters them. 

Third

Anything that made you smile

Thank you CC at Couture Carrie for a wonderful book that arrived in my mailbox. If you know anything about me is that I love unexpected gifts. Love you friend. 

Cause

 I’ve come

To terms

That my worth

Doesn’t come

From what

Is thought of me

I’m not a star

No athletic talent

Not loud 

Introverted

A little stoic

I have masks

For each emotion 

I’ve hidden

Everything

But my heart 

Knows the lie

Must end

I have Cerebral Palsy 

I’m just learning

How to not

Let the truth

Of my condition

Determine the health

Of my happiness

Late blooming

Takes on different meanings

And I’m finally

Surfacing for air

Clawing from 

Obscurity

To proudly declare

I don’t know

Who I am yet

But I know 

Who I’m not

I’d given up 

Hope when 

My hopes

Seemed

To become

Old wineskins

And then 

I realized 

I was trying

To pour new

Experiences

Into old vessels

It doesn’t work

It’s taken

40 years

To want 

To get acquainted

With myself

It’s only

Because

What I wanted

Needed most

Was healing

It wasn’t going

To happen

Until I gave

Forgiveness

To self

For something

I didn’t cause

H2O

 When your being 

Is fully aligned

To who you’re 

Meant to be

Your soul

Will feel

Like 

The heavens

Have opened up

Ready to douse 

You in a rush

Of refreshing

H2O

Finally delivered

 Rainy day here

For the first

The desire

To flee

My current location

Isn’t as rampant

Because for me

To appreciate

What I have now

Will increase

His confidence

In me

That my 

Dreams 

Will elevate me

Instead of causing 

Inner warfare

I’ve been told

This for years

I’ve had to

Experience this

With great delicacy

And be attuned

To how this lesson

Would finally hit

My stream of consciousness 

Eclipse greatness

 To the 

Ends of 

The earth

I encounter

The I AM

In contrast

To the who

I am

It’s a 

Most humbling

Experience

To be a speck

A mustard seed

Among the galaxies

Looking up yesterday

I wasn’t able

To see the eclipse

But I reveled

In the knowledge

Of how

He made

Darkness descend

Upon daylight

For millions

To see

Erasing doubt

For throngs

Of cynical

Humans

Solar eclipse

 Lord

I was wrong

Not in

The path

Of totality

But in totality

Watching 

You work

Your magic

With the evidence

Of your Hands

Leaves me

Going back

To the days

Searching 

For you

To save me

From myself

I no longer

Look on 

The past

With bitterness

But with appreciation 

For what you’ve

Forced me 

To conquer

In my loneliness

Thank you

Solar eclipse

For the light

To look back

Without shallow indifference

But absolute awe

And what 

You do

When my 

Attention

Is elsewhere

Years ago

The mention

Of God

Would leave

Leave me

Running

For the hills

And right now

God and

His grace

Is the only reason

I rise

To fight

Another day

Even when

My understanding

Of the why

Is mired

In the knowledge 

That what 

I’d like to know

Most

May never

Be answered

Learning

To be okay

With that reality

Is what

I try not

To ponder much

Living in the present

And not the 

Presence 

Of what

I don’t know

Is the biggest obstacle

To my happiness

Or sanity

Or both

Keeping it 

Honest

No perfect lives

Here

Just hard knocks

Disability

Will shove 

Perfect 

Down the 

Drain

Faster

Than I can utter

Coherent thoughts

Today

 Giving it all away

The fear

The pain

The uncertainty

Is allowing me

To sleep

In peace

Without waking

At midnight

In a cold sweat

I don’t know 

If you want

To be able

To visualize

This one

The solar eclipse

Might be 

The star today

But a happy soul

Is mine today

Baseball

 Ball caps

And baseballs

Dirt and grass stains

On those pants 

Of spring

That send 

My heart a flutter 

White shorts

 White shorts

Tees

And a

Lot of green

To get

My eyes

Seeing

That

Spring is here

Redirection

 A smile

And a walk

Seem to give

My anxious thoughts

A pause

One I’ve never

Been more grateful for

Simple steps

In redirection

Finally seeing

The fruits

Of gentle instruction

Love yourself and one another

Finish

Finish what you start

It’s what was said

No lie detected

Truth hit the target

Now to do

What is instructed

The battle commences

Between the talent

And the doubt

Rise up faith

Topple the fear

The insecurity

That lies within

And show the strength

That is known

To every soul

But your own

Dreaming

 Dreaming of

A vacation

In a place

New to me

Where my soul

Feels like

It’s been cleansed

By living water

Where thirst

Doesn’t exist

Any longer

Cede

 Lord

You never fail

To put me

In the places

Where 

I am meant

To be

And not

In spaces

That lead

To dismay

Remind me

Of your

Power

So I may cede

My own

Let me 

Love you

As you

Have loved me

Not that 

It can be matched

Anyway

Green

Grounded

Into the blades

Yoga mat

Used as 

A beach towel

As Vitamin D

Beckons me

Before

Yellow 

And filmy

Pollen

Takes over

Questions

 Some fun Monday questions

Where is your next vacation going to be?

Last song you listened to?

Best book you read last week?

Best meal you made last week?

Best meal someone made you last week?