Monday, August 31, 2020

Dogs and daydreams

 Sweet summertime 

Dipping toes

In the pond

As I sip

Cherry cola

And eat on

Some gooey

Nougat

Only to be

Taken out

My dream

By a pack

Of barking

Dogs

Named

Tebow 

And Bruiser

Sunday, August 30, 2020

Will go

 Return to me

Mustard seed 

Faith 

Of a child

Where you are

I will go

Saturday, August 29, 2020

Silent peace

 Windy

Sunny

And radiating hope 

Because 

It’s a choice 

And no matter

What

The noise

Around me

The sound

Within me

Will be

A silent peace

Friday, August 28, 2020

Alone

 You make

Me feel

Not so 

Lonely and alone

I open 

You up

And take

A ride

So melodic

And harmonious 

I leave 

My issues

And drift

With each 

New page

The companion

Whose devotion

Leaves me

Spellbound 

The power

To transport

Without leaving

Home

Summer night

 Guitar strumming 

Bonfire crackling

S’mores making

Ale sipping 

Ocean swimming 

Frolicking in

Late summer’s

Night bliss

Drunk on

Happiness

And moonlight 

Thursday, August 27, 2020

Mind

 God

It’s me

Or is it

My anxiety 

That has 

Me on speed dial

Pandemic paranoia

Here again 

When will

I inhabit 

My own

Mind again

Cake

 Woke up 

Thinking cake

Is perfectly acceptable 

For breakfast 

It’s where

I’m at 

Right now

Wednesday, August 26, 2020

Pray

 They’re are

Some special people 

Who could 

Use prayers

Would you oblige

This honest request

Tuesday, August 25, 2020

Sweet treat

 Rainy day

Sweet treats 

Shopping

And staying dry 

And warm

In a cozy blanket 

Monday, August 24, 2020

🎉

 Grateful for breath

A voice

That speaks 

Because 

Others 

Can not

When God calls

You obey 

Even if

You’re uncomfortable 

With each word

Comes insecurities 

Mixed with

Perseverance 

Those you know

 Love your enemies

So clear

So difficult 

It is

So easy

To love

The stranger 

And despise

Those you know

Sunday, August 23, 2020

Capital

 The biggest question 

I’ve had

Is God really 

Making a difference 

Through me

Does my openness 

Help anyone 

I need the

Pain 

To be worthwhile 

It’s almost 

Like 

Am I 

A good 

Return on investment 

Lord

Society 

Has made

Question 

How much 

Is a

Life worth

I don’t know

But I don’t 

If we

Wish

To make

Jesus 

A capitalist 

Character

 God

You know

Me so well 

That I retreat 

To books 

To escape 

And probably 

To remind 

Me of 

Your faithfulness 

As I’m reminded 

Of past words

My own

My fears

Haven’t changed 

And it’s annoying

Then I remember 

You’ve stayed 

True to Your name

And Your character 

Saturday, August 22, 2020

Can

 New day 

New words

I can

I will

Because 

That’s the voice

My Father 

Demands

After

Too much 

Of a defeatist attitude 

Friday, August 21, 2020

Myself

 I don’t forgive 

Myself easily 

I don’t let people 

In often

I don’t want 

You to see

The mess

I’ve become 

Pray

 Three AM

Tired but can’t sleep

Right now

I’m in 

A holding pattern

Don’t know 

What I want 

Or need

Feel the need

To explain 

But don’t have 

The energy


Thursday, August 20, 2020

Nice

 Sometimes 

The greatest grace 

I give you

Is when I 

Remain silent 

Because 

I’ve lost

The ability 

To say

Anything nice

Wednesday, August 19, 2020

Story

 It took strangers

Who turned 

Into friends

To unlock

A soul

Soften 

A heart

And tell

A story 

Worthy of telling

My own

Tuesday, August 18, 2020

Write

 I write 

Because I 

Have something 

To say

I won’t diminish 

My value

To inflate yours 

Disability is 

A pain 

You don’t want

To hear or see me

I’m relegated 

To being 

A warm body 

In a cold world

Monday, August 17, 2020

Joy

 I’m taking up

A role

I never thought 

I would 

You surprise me

At every turn

With every breath

You make me 

Uncomfortable 

And that’s when

I do 

My best work

For you 

Shackled

 Shackled

Chained

Enslaved 

To a narrative 

I didn’t make

But allowed

Nonetheless 

Fly

 Fly

Soar

Never 

Apologize 

For

Who 

You

Are

Sunday, August 16, 2020

Acceptance

 When you give

Yourself to just be

You realize

You are healing

From a trauma

You always 

Denied existed

Tears fall

Not of sadness 

But of bittersweet 

Acceptance and relief

That you no longer 

Feel the need to pretend 

Harwell

 Blog followers

May you please

Pray for 

A precious family

The Harwells

Thank you 

Saturday, August 15, 2020

Fear

 Dressed in

The essence

Of the Spirit 

That doesn’t flee

In fear

But rises

In faith

Friday, August 14, 2020

Thank you

 Good morning 

  It’s Friday 

It clear

And calm

After a night

Of storms

Thank you

Lord

Wednesday, August 12, 2020

Trail mix

 Just me

And my trail mix

Music on

Just relishing 

Silence

On a plush couch

Tuesday, August 11, 2020

New England

Take me away to Martha's Lobster rolls A fruity drink Quaint New England i want to smell hydrangeas and have two scoops every day

Monday, August 10, 2020

Mademoiselle

i never thought i would enjoy my own company I've spent years Apologizing for What He made and I'm having to be okay with dancing for exercise singing off key and praying every muscle doesnt pop when doing yoga

Understand

I don't understand What you are Doing to me or through me if you can Heal the blind or the paralytic i want to trust this season is not fruitless Because there is a reason for it all i believe

Sunday, August 9, 2020

Snooze

My mind is swirling i need to sleep i'd like to enjoy my clean sheets Dog is Beside me Snoring imploring me to follow along

Saturday, August 8, 2020

Me

 Listening to

Fast Car

By Tracy Chapman

Has me remembering

A time

When all

I wanted 

Was to drive

Anywhere

Anytime 

And get away

From my reality

My perception 

Was I needed

To be free

Not considered abled

Or disabled 

And the 

Questions I 

Couldn’t escape 

I can’t now

I can’t be boxed

And I don’t know 

Who it annoys 

More

Me or

You

Friday, August 7, 2020

Pulitzer

 Writing in Lilly 

Preppy personified

Ladies who lunch

And are adorned

With pearls

A southern girl’s

Calling card

To a life

Of refined sophistication 

Riviera reverie

Hermès scarf
Bastide body mist
Coating my wrists
Sunning myself
At a private pool
Overlooking 
The Riviera
And all 
I can think
About is
What to 
Make for 
An aperitif 

Thursday, August 6, 2020

Perfect Peace

Right now
I’m having 
To be quiet
So I can hear
The waves crash
And white sand
Burn my toes
Nature 
Speak
So I can rest
In a peace 
That smells 
Of salty sunscreen 

Restored

The organs
Play my 
Favorite hymns
The olfactory 
Is alive
As I 
Sit in
An empty pew
Alone I 
Am not

Wednesday, August 5, 2020

Speak

When my mouth
Goes silent 
My writing 
Does not 
I don’t recognize 
Who I am
And that is frustrating 
I’m in a fog
Hoping for
Mental clarity 
An inner peace 
That does leave
Retreat 
Or into
Exile 

Tuesday, August 4, 2020

Ciao

Memories 
Take me
Back
To a freezing
February
Wine drinking
In a Venetian
Gondola
I complained
Of chattering lips
And goosebumps 
And now
I long
For Acqua Panna
Gelato and Gucci
I had a taste 
Of la
dolce vita
And I dream
Of a place
That awakened
A heart
To new possibilities 

Monday, August 3, 2020

Land

Taking a ride
Out in the
Great outdoors 
Weeds caught
My eye
And my
Gratitude 
For what
Is often detested 
It’s in 
The weeds
Where we 
Grow in 
Immeasurable grace 

Apple

Apple picking off the tree the joys off fresh fruit and seeing God's handiwork in action

Saturday, August 1, 2020

Lord

Thank you Lord for another birthday With each year i realize that your love for me isnt ending it's just beginning