Tuesday, February 28, 2017


Iced Tea

Free to find

The truth does set you free. It's painful. It's a bit of letting go. I haven't fully done so, and I feel ashamed. To admit you have trouble trusting Christ is embarrassing and shames me. I have fear.
Faith.  I'm seeking the Only One who completes me.
God Bless

Monday, February 27, 2017


Last week, I had a post discussing my grievances, and I got a response I didn't take well at all. Then I looked at it differently. The comment was probably meant for good. We can't interpret words, when we don't know the intent. I don't know how many of you are new readers, so I will give a reintroduction. I've avoided doing this because I realized I would open up the one wound I never really like to discuss. I'm ripping off the band-aid. I'm Regine. I'm 33. And I have Cerebral Palsy. I typed that without tears. I was told it doesn't get worse as I get older, with age though comes inconvenience. And most humans hate that word. Inconvenience brings a necessity of waiting, something I may be used to, but don't like much. You don't fix CP. The only thing you control is your mind's decision to redirect your thoughts, actions and reactions. And it requires those traits of which are lacking.   I say this in truthful acceptance. I have to make a choice to look at things in another way.
Thank you for reading, and giving feedback. It's the way we learn.


Praying for Manda's family and friends. Praying for all who need them.

Friday, February 24, 2017


I realize I'm afraid. I'm afraid of the unknown. Afraid of what I can't fix. I want to fix myself. Knowing I can't is something I have to accept. My problem with acceptance.


Having to have faith to live everyday, and keep positive.

Monday, February 20, 2017

Friday, February 17, 2017


My heart is all over the place. Here are my thoughts.
I don't think I've ever prayed this much for God to lead me. I don't think to think I ever wanted acceptance so badly. And I've just lost my train of thought.


Having faith right now is hard.

Wednesday, February 15, 2017




My faith is having to stretch. Waiting is painful. I know He desires the best for me, but lately I think I know what's best, and I know that's not true. I'm tired of waiting, but know I must.

Thursday, February 9, 2017


Getting back to Jesus. I realize how I fail Him, and He still is merciful.  I realize things about myself, and I can't hate myself. God wouldn't like it. My heart breakers for how much He loves me, and how much I don't. If truth sets free, Truth is needed. Truth is absence of indecision.


Milky Way
3 Musketeers

Tuesday, February 7, 2017


Honesty, truth, love and life. Can we handle?


With disappointment comes revelation. I can't tire of doing good, believing the best. God is revealing Himself if I am willing. I spent enough time of not willing. I'm coming around. Learn from me.

Monday, February 6, 2017


I'm realizing CP is kicking my butt.
I realize I'm tired mentally and physically.
I realize I need to stop thinking.
I realizing Paleo suits my body best.
Jesus, I need you

Thank God

Sometimes, you just thank God for the good days.

Thursday, February 2, 2017

Wednesday, February 1, 2017


I am on a news detox. I don't know when I will return. I listen to Christian music all day. I am in constant need to pray. I can't deal. My heart hurts. My soul cries. I no longer speak.  I love God, therefore I am to love people, but I struggle.  We no loner can have conversation, and so I cease. It's His job. I'm having to lean on who Jesus is. What would Jesus do?  Jesus is no illusion for which I give thanks.