Sun

 Sun 

Peeking through 

The puffy clouds

Has me giddy

Like a little girl

Twirling 

In a pink tutu

Simplicity 

Has its joy

On this 

Last day

Of November 

Allow

 This morning

Everywhere I look

I see God 

telling me

To slow down

I've always

been told slow 

is not ideal

but slow

I must go

My limitations

don't define me

But my body

doesn't do fast

When it does

I pay

and now

When the physical

is to expensive

Mentally

I suffer

and I'm 

worth more

Here's to slow

Relish it

you're allowed

❤️

 In this space 

I get to be

One with feelings 

That have been 

Suppressed too long

Care

 Fragile 

Handle with care

The state

Of my mind

These days 

dewy

 Dewy and fresh

like each new morning

abounding with hope

And joyful praise

Sing

its a new day

The Lord has made

giving up

 A friend reminded me

in my fragility

in my brokenness

I am what 

God wants

For the first time

I'm so tired

that surrender

is the only option

That comes to mind

The tears come

not wiping them

being one 

He's waited

for me

to be fully ensconced 

in torment

that the only recourse

I'm seeking

is one 

man cannot give

I was told

I'd come to this point

didn't know when

God always wins

He just gives enough

So wayward children

like me

find the light

Once they've

Had enough

of trying

to do it all

their way

embrace weakness

where strength is found

and bolstered 

for a lifetime

work

 The Lord says

enjoy your work

so let my imagination

go wild

the beaches

of St.Barth's

await me

basking in glamour

glitz and leisure

Falling asleep

as calm waves

bring my toes

peace and hope

turn off

the thinking cap

and let dreams

become memories

less

 broken

addicted to fear

haven't been able

to say these words

but i need to release it

and share this 

painful period

it's held me

in a predicament

I've not been

able to shake

Sharing here

is a first step

in locking eyes

not backing down

from what

leaves me

motionless

heart

 you will be free

when you stop

trying to fix

follow and comply

Stop

it's your mandate

for your sanity

and health

I plead with you

Give it up

Your soul needs 

True rest

it hasn't known it

In years

because your obedience

isn't all there

You follow

but don't surrender

la vida

 English

not my favorite 

or first language

My roots

are vast

the strength 

I have is

from a people

who knew

suffering

and determination

Who knew

how to flow

fight and rest

The former

and latter

and linked

for successful

perseverance 

into a life

worth millions

Melody

 Rocking on the porch

letting the sun

melt away 

my fears

as i rest

listening

to my favorite 

Beethoven melody

Apology

 Confession

I apologize for everything

Whether I'm wrong or not

And every part of me

Needs to be set free

from my own expectation

or desire for perfection

God break me

from this addiction

It's making me sick

Make me

What you wish

So I may dwell

in that special space

Arroz con pollo

 Warm heart

Cold bones

Remembering 

The arroz con pollo

Made with love

Cuba brought 

To the kitchen

The smell 

Of a tropical paradise 

I could only imagine 

Food that fed me

Now nourishes my soul

Forevermore 

I miss the place

That made 

The person 

Receiving

 In your faithfulness

you have afflicted me

Lord

I flipped 

to the right page

today and forevermore

My mindset has 

Been wrong

For a long time

I kept asking

And I found

it in Your Word

Where I should have

Been all this time

Let this sink in

You will receive

When He deems

it time

affliction

is not negative

in these years

nobody could make me

Believe this

But I'm rejoicing

in the revelation

Thank you

Farm

 You want to grow

Some manual labor

Will do the trick

Smell the dirt

Be fulfill

Get dirty

be relieved

find faith

While getting

ready to sow again

Farmwork

Will give you

a new lease

on what it is

to be God's creation

try it

be amazed

Sunlight

 Sunlight 

Coming through 

The window

Is my elixir 

balm

 The balm

of Your word

means peace

is mine

if I ask

Hug

 Guard my lips

from the pain

words can cause

stay silent

God do your thing

the blood is boiling

the disdain stirring

keep me from

My own thoughts

Focus on the goodness

That is with me

There isn't a problem

you don't know

So i bask

in your answer

May Your Grace 

be my gratitude

Winter white snow

 Whipping wind

Chilly frost

Winter 

approaching

To cleanse

Earthly realms

and wipe 

with wet 

white ice

a note

to step back

handle

with a delicate finger

and let nature

take the lead

Then the powder

comes as 

a calming reminder

of living

in the moment

kiss my lips

caress my skin

and leave me

Not as you

found me

offer

 fire in the heart

icy veins

hoping

the former

returns

to the latter

May the bright

flicker 

return 

to a soul

burdened

by a 

world

needing

reconciliation

God touch

it all

make our souls

reach consensus

to be a people

free to do right

Seek justice

and love humbly

Forgiveness

 Write

let it out

your bitterness

must leave

and only

you can

send it

out the door

The dirty work

happens now

before it

swallows 

me whole

i let others

marginalize me

and it still 

eats at me

I have to forgive

them 

so that 

I can 

live a life

full of the

potential

I have

I've denied its

existence

but not now

With each word

God provides manna

As provision

to continue

The work 

before me

Nips

Nips

were your favorite 

or so you made

me believe

I'd always

Swipe the 

last one

you had to

tell me

more than once

don't chew them

I can buy more

I didn't know

Now all

this time

I would 

cry

at the thought

Of a piece

of candy

Everytime

i looked

in that ornate mirror

i knew love

but couldn't

Accept it 

And now

I'm thinking

that if sobbing

burned calories

I'd be five pounds

lighter

after today's session

 Lord

You've done it

Redeeming pain

And making

it useful

and worthwhile

the more

I've doubted

The more

you blast

the barriers

I made

The more 

tears fall

the more 

I've made

your past

Redemptive

and necessary

for a hurting world

to read

Cerebral Palsy

has given you

too much

not to pay

it back

you share now

not because you want to

I've always made

you dissatisfied

so you can do 

the one thing

that makes 

life worth living

I will never forget

A pastor disappointing me

for telling me

What I needed 

to hear

not what I wanted

And right now

The biggest blessing

is being told no

Do you need 

To be told no

today

Never forgotten

 As I write

And reminisce

I remember

Her words

And with 

Each day

I become her

My smile

is hers

My love

of trinkets

Mirrors 

her own

Every piece 

has a memory

Her collection

of elephants

adorn the 

desk

Where I sit

in this moment

I use her dishes

Daily

It's my act

of love

and desire

to keep

her alive

Even if

She is

no longer

With me

Coppertone

 Sweating 

on the treadmill

Brings me back

to riding up 

the top floor

To work out

and look out

at the ocean

At the same time

The things

I despised the most

Are now what 

I treasure

Never take

Ocean views

for granted

And the 

people who 

made them worthwhile

I miss

the scent

of saltwater

and sunscreen

Childhood

brought

to you

by the makers

of Coppertone

Rejoice

 Resist

Persist

The fire resides

it mustn't be

extinguished

by doubt

self-sabotage

and the indifference

plaguing

that soul

of yours

that says

Your efforts

are meaningless

suffering from

imposter syndrome

right now

my destiny

is held

by the 

One and Only

Not you Satan

Reclaiming

my title

As a worthy

And loved

Daughter 

of the King

purpose

 i write daily

with doubt

questions

and every emotion

i know 

write for yourself

but what if 

I want the words

i type

to mean something

matter

make smiles

tears

or a light bulb

go off

I'm human

needing affirmation 

that this 

endeavor 

has purpose

and deep resonance

 Feel the fear

Taste the tears

And rise again

Knowing 

How far

You’ve come

Latin

 Sitting on the balcony

Remembering your throaty laugh

Trying to recreate it

While not sobbing

is a hard task

I miss looking down

at the pool

and having 

talks in broken Spanish

to every neighbor

Who already knew 

I was one of your

grandchildren

The way you 

were loved

is something today

that I aspire

to be known for

That says

She is mine

Latin roots

you leave them

but they don't 

leave you

They reappear

never to be

shunned again

Abuelita

 i miss my grandmother

regaling me

With stories

of her time in

Odessa and Havana

In her tales

I took a trip

to exotic places

or so it seemed

her story

is my history

and I'm proud

my lineage

the one 

I laid 

no claim to

is the one

I'm desperately

trying to recapture

Sabado

 Dios

Calmate mi alma

Necesito descansar

Cuando era nina

Mi abuelita

me daba

una galletica

y el televisor

estaba mi compañero

Don Francisco

y después

continuaron

Con las telenovelas

En su honor

Voy a mirar 

Univision hoy

Mi español 

no es tan bueno

pero voy a escribir mas

En mi primera lengua

Si quieres corrector me

haslo por favor

step up

 Good sleep

hot chocolate

great music

Starting my day

in gratitude

Lord,

Guide your dominion

With truth

Followers of Christ

I've spoken with nonbelievers

Or disaffected Christians

We better start acting right

Our witness is whittling away

With each day that goes by

thinking

 i looked

at scars

i've had 

for two decades

the marks

don't fade

the memories do

As exhausted

As I am

I have waited

for them

to depart

Accepting

that my 

legs

and heel

and now

abdomen

will permanent

reminders

of fiery resilience

see me

 Forgive yourself

Your sins

Are forgiven

I love you 

Too much

For you 

Not to 

love what 

I created

I seek your 

Face

because

I need

reassurance

Of who

I am in you

Mine

 When I learn

to stop being perfect

Shed the curated facade

Wholly open

Not fearing reprisal

Will I 

know peace

for freedom

Has become mine

Purposeful

 Created with reason

Designed for purpose

I'm here

Use me

I'm a pearl

a bright diamond

not meant 

To be hidden

To make

Others

feel better

Pride

 Swell of pride

wave of relief

A joy

My face

hasn't stopped

Smiling

For on

A throne

Resides

a King

Named Jesus

What are you feeling today?

hope

 Thank you

Lord

For being

What we 

Are not

Take me away

 take me

island hopping

in the Caribbean

Steel drums

clear waters

and great rhythms

Do it

 Jesus

Here's goes nothing

Healing the nation

the long slog

Anyone willing

to mend fences

Show up

Be human

Civil

Decent

Worthy

Of

The riches

Christ

has given 

You

We know

What Jesus did

What will you do

I'm tired

I march forward

summoning 

the strength 

of John and Elijah

Better angels

Present yourselves

Ready for the call

of Jesus urging

Us to be the church

And to do it 

With love everlasting

Call

I'm asking every person

of faith especially

After yesterday

No matter what

We are split

Start a conversation

With someone

Who doesn't

Agree with you

The Great Commission

starts here

I need to do better

We all do

God is making

me uncomfortable

He doesn't care

about what i want

right now

Radical love

what I'm called

to right now

There is some deep seated

Resentment now

and changing seats

is a must for me

if you met me

i want you

to say

We've seen Jesus

faith and hope

 i grieve 

because

You wouldn't

Want me

to blame

myself

for

mistakes

I've tried

so hard

and faith

isn't about

trying

it's about believing

Thank you

for a day

you have made

my heart broken

my soul restless

but i retain hope

for if that goes

its all over

Fight

for it

Child

it's renewable

every day

hope

 Two days

Without hope

is like

Two days 

without water

Grateful

for the 

ability

to read

and not watch

To eat 

plenty

and not 

Want for anything

Privilege

Use it 

For good

Don't abuse

What power

you have

 In this day

of uncertainty

i hold out hope

in gratitude

That as much

As i doubt

You continually

Exceed expectations

Every obstacle

man lays

at my feet

You are there

to see me through

What you see 

in me

i will never understand 

I'm glad you do

Friends

i don't know

your struggle

Here's

to the knowledge

In faith

He will meet you

Led

 Vote

Pray

Release

Every

Fear

God 

Is 

Good

You 

Hold

My 

Hope

My 

Dreams

Everything

Is 

The 

Hand

Of 

The

Father

Pray

That

I

Be 

Led

Instead 

Of

Bearing

Something

Not 

For 

Me

help me

 Where you sit determines

What you see

What you see

Determines what you do

Dr. Dharius Daniels

I heard him preach yesterday

and it changed my perspective 

I'm following my own advice

The best lessons I've received 

Have come from those

I didn't like at first

I would be ashamed

To admit this

But it's the truth

If I truly want change

I'm going to have

To sit and be

Uncomfortable

With my thoughts

i didn't want to write

This post

God is having

His say

So today

i want to try

and understand

What I'm not seeing

Help me

Seven

 Thank you

for your love

and dedication

to uplift

my spirits

and teach me

kindness

for seven years

you humble me

when i come here

i see the good

in the world

Thank you

you do more

for my health

than i could ever

express 

Thank you

for loving

someone

Who didn't feel

they had much

to offer the world

Care

 This is not political

When did we lose

Our humanity

the capacity

to empathize 

the will

to meet 

each other

Where they are

not where

you think

they should be

I'm anxious

about the election

I may not watch

because my 

mental health

can't take it

And that's privilege

Right there

Will America

Survive the strife

No matter who wins

Bigger question

Can we make our 

Own conclusions

By reading

We lost our way

When we weaponized faith

Stopped caring

and looked

to talking heads

to do our homework

For us

I was advised

to say

The Serenity Prayer

everyday

because my 

joy depends

on it

Thank you

for seven years

Here's to another

Seven