Tuesday, July 7, 2020

my heart

I haven't slept
The what ifs
Are at it
Again
What if I
Feared God
More than Covid
I'm trying
To control everything
Avoiding a virus
I feel like I
Can't make mistakes
My soul
Is wrestling

Love

Lord
Guard this anxious heart
Lead me beside still waters
Where you await
My countenance

Monday, July 6, 2020

Saturday, July 4, 2020

America

Old Glory
You are good
Restore
The joy
Of salvation
And faith
In you
And the land
That gives hope

Thursday, July 2, 2020

Sittin

I used to hate
And sit with
My thoughts
I'm tortured
Wanting
To make
The world
A utopia
Because
What I want
Is something
Humans
Have yet to
Master
Lord
Take me
To a place
Where I can breathe
And not wonder
Who gets justice
Versus the cracks

😊

Ocean breeze
Book reading
Chips
And a drink

Wednesday, July 1, 2020

😘

Even when I struggle
To face the day
Or find beauty
Where I'm at
I find it
In nature's embrace

Wake up

Beautiful day
To have
A smile
That says
He woke me
Up today
Lord

Tuesday, June 30, 2020

πŸ˜ƒ

Lord
Speaking up
For myself
Is the hardest thing
I've done
Being treated
As a human being
Not a burden
Is a daily journey
One I face
With humility

Sunday, June 28, 2020

❤️

I'm exhausted Lord
I'm having to trust
You in every moment
I'm seeing that even if
You love people
You can't make them
Do what is necessary
Why is it so hard
I'm at my breaking point

Friday, June 26, 2020

Learning to say no
What a lesson
In independence
And freeing relief

Thursday, June 25, 2020

Given

Humble and grateful
For a grace
I don't deserve
A mercy
I'm given
Everyday

Wednesday, June 24, 2020

Tuesday, June 23, 2020

Friday, June 19, 2020

Thursday, June 18, 2020

Pray

I am trying
To realize
That controlling
My mind
Is the only
Battle
I can handle

Wednesday, June 17, 2020

Daily

Having to take
Each day
A moment
When it comes
I give forgiveness
But not to myself
And I’m in
A state
I vowed
To never visit
Ever again
Never is a long time
Eating words
Right now

Tuesday, June 16, 2020

πŸ˜€

In Your arms
I reside
My complaints
Matter not
You stay
Despite
What I say

Sunday, June 14, 2020

Thanks

Let me say
I've been
Given grace
And I'm grateful
If you would
Please pray
That I do what
Is vital

Saturday, June 13, 2020

My heart

If I'm honest
I talk a good game
But I'm petrified
Of this disease
Even with
All precautions
And I feel
Like I
Will be
To blame
If all
Doesn't go according
To plan

Friday, June 12, 2020

Righting

Righting the ship
That is my mind
An endeavor of massive
Proportions
Lead me
In your way
That whatever
May come
I shall not fear

Wednesday, June 10, 2020

❤️

Let me say
With all
I see
Jesus
I'm having
To trust
You know best
Even if
Your children
Don't get the message

Checkmate

Unpack
Stay
And sit
Just getting started
The pain
Didn't leave
You just hid
The fact
That you
Were done
With the baggage
Of your shame
Now it's not moving
And staring
Back at you
To make
The move
Before it
Says checkmate

Tuesday, June 9, 2020

☀️πŸŒŠπŸ‘

The sounds
Of Cuba
And Puerto Rico
Are streaming
From Pandora
Bobbing my head
As I picture myself
In Mallorca
Until a plane
Does
My mind
Is piling
Up the frequent
Flier miles

Sock

Walk
In shoes
Not your own
Your socks
Might be
Knocked off

Monday, June 8, 2020

Injustice

Sometimes loving myself
Is speaking up
For myself
Because
If I desire
To be treated
Like a human being
I’m going to
Have to
Do it myself
I’ve only started
To share
The hurt
That injustice brings

Yes

Suppressing anger
Leads to rage
A fire not quelled
Spirals
I think
I just
Described
The
Human condition
In a nutshell

Sunday, June 7, 2020

La luz

Porch light
Night light
Surreal
First night
I have
Let thoughts
Marinate
And what comes
Is delightfully unexpected

Never relent

At thirteen
My soul
Couldn’t fathom
That I
Would share
Pain
I fought
To keep hidden
Fighters
Never
Stop punching
The lies
We tell ourselves
Mask
A truth
That says
Never relent



quiet

Sometimes restraint
Is being quiet
When you
Want to scream

Saturday, June 6, 2020

What You do

This is
The gift
I didn’t want
To use
And You said
You will
My child
In you
I teach
Others
Respect
Understanding
And clarity

Friday, June 5, 2020

Thank you

This shouldn't
Be my job
But here
We go again
I have to
Think Jesus
Thought
This too

Thursday, June 4, 2020

Jug

The paddock
And stable
Off to you
I retreat
To feed
Apples
And carrots
To the mustang
Who I remember fondly
Jughead
Love you
My boy

Tuesday, June 2, 2020

Anew

Pacing down
The driveway
The wind stops me
I step into silence
Nature speaks
As I cease
My senses
Appreciate creation
Once again
Starting anew

Monday, June 1, 2020

Ya

Mi querida
Dejame
No se que mas
Puedo hacer
La lluvia
Me hace
Despertar
Con miedo
Dame
Fe
De viene
Del Senor

En Paz mi alma

With you
Being still
Being silent
To the
Only Voice
I want
To hear

La voz
De Dios
Entre mi corazon
Mi alma
En Paz
Porque tu
Tu paz
Me deje
Respirar

Sunday, May 31, 2020

Palabra

Una palabra
Me pongo nerviosa
Mi corazon
Calmate
Tengo que descansar
Una bebida
Y voy a dormir
Hasta la manana

Saturday, May 30, 2020

Martini

Magazine
And martini
Grey Goose
And olives
Distractions
From what
I cannot
Change alone

Friday, May 29, 2020

πŸ˜€

My head
And heart
Are not 
In sync 
Do we 
Speak
And don't 
Act
Silent
When 
It matters

Thursday, May 28, 2020

Jesus

Takes grace
To forgive
And go forward
Into a life
You never imagined
One better
Than you
Could have dreamed
Possible
For the girl
Who didn’t
Have faith
Until
She met
Jesus

Ray at night

I take for granted
Wet grass
Under my feet
The dog’s antics
And writing sessions
At night
With Ray LaMontagne
As my constant companion

Wednesday, May 27, 2020

Deny

Truth sets free
Lies bring denial
Study history
Or become it
Use gifts
Or lose them
Vote
Or deny
You were free
To begin with

Tuesday, May 26, 2020

Warning

I've hit it
I will not see
People unmasked
Check that privilege
At the door
I have needles
Put straight
Into my abdomen
To minimize my
Pain
So I'm
Not a thorn
In your side
And all
I ask is
For six feet
And a face covering
I wonder if therapy
Is just so
I can learn
To filter
Not
Crash and burn

Love letter

Newport
You stole
My heart
And captured
My soul
A love letter
To the Ocean State
Flying high
On salt
And sand
Daylight at
Five A.M.
I fell hard
For the place
That made
Me
Slow down
And
Enjoy the ride

Monday, May 25, 2020

Thank you

If you follow Jesus
Get ready
To be despised
He loved
The lame
And poor soul
Was CP
Meant to bless
Not curse me
I’ve never
Been understood
Being on
The outside looking in
Not too bad

Sunday, May 24, 2020

Francophile in the Netherlands

Amble into
The field
With Dutch flowers
And a bottle
Of Veuve
And a buttery croissant
Kissing my lips
To be savored
With reckless abandon
And ease

😍πŸ₯°

Lounging
Under the awnings
Surrounded by
Lemons
Learning that
Joy can be
Found anywhere
If if I have
To create it

muddy break

Getty muddy
With the earth
Mind is still
Hands are moving
All is well

Saturday, May 23, 2020

πŸ™

Traipsing down
The road
Taking
In the
Birds singing
Flowers blooming
And children playing
Brings peace
To a heart
Needing some
Now

Friday, May 22, 2020

Kindness

The greatest kindness
Is a friend
Who just
Listens
As you cry

Thursday, May 21, 2020

Dance

Dancing for joy
Knowing
Today
Is brand new
A new day
To start
With a grateful heart
And clear mind

Wednesday, May 20, 2020

Puddle

Jumping in
Puddles
In blue wellies
Remembering childhood
When the only concern
I had
Was not getting
Too wet
And catching a cold

Tuesday, May 19, 2020

Getting real

Getting real
Cerebral Palsy
You teach me
Every day
It does get easier
Yet frustration
Mounts
Because
You
Set boundaries
I can’t
Outrun
Maybe
That’s the
Point
After all

Monday, May 18, 2020

Smile

Simple
Slap
A smile
On your face
You woke up
You ate
And now
Are writing
Privilege
Use it well
Or not
At all

Sunday, May 17, 2020

Clothes on a line

Leggings and wellies
Clothes on a line
Soaking in the rays
On this beautiful Sunday
Known as the Lord’s day
Smile and rejoice
In simplicity

Friday, May 15, 2020

Thursday, May 14, 2020

Lord

Lord
I come today
To lay fear
At the feet
Am I using
My privilege
As your child
To speak
To spark
Change
To love
To give
And let
Praise
Rain down
From Heaven
I'm blessed
You fill
The gaping holes
Into springing
Gushing waterfalls
Of grace
And unending
Abundant
Mercies

Wednesday, May 13, 2020

Riviera rendering

Taking myself
To the Riviera
Sun and sand
Laissez faire attitude
Joy in culture
Architecture
And food
Want to join

Tuesday, May 12, 2020

Unraveling

Peeling
The layers back
Letting you in
My heart
Growing
In every way
A beautiful blessing
Thank you Lord

Monday, May 11, 2020

🌹

The rose petals
Brush my skin
Tickling my
Senses
Bringing up
Memories
Gone by
In an instant
But fondly
Remembered

Sunday, May 10, 2020

πŸ˜€

At night
The candle burns
The incense
Of sandalwood and
Bergamot
My heart
Races
With each
Thought of you
I'm entranced
By a feeling
Of longing
That has
Left me
Airy
And delighted

Saturday, May 9, 2020

Eyes

In the dark
Me and you
The soundtrack
Of silence
My heart beats
Sent aflutter
By the scent
Of aftershave
My smile
Met with
Reciprocal approval
And instantly
I get lost
In your eyes
That captivate
My every gaze
In your direction

Friday, May 8, 2020

Blessed and humble

Wrapped up
In early
Morning light
Blessed and humbled
To be
In His sight

Thursday, May 7, 2020

🌊

Headed to
The ocean
Clear my head
So the
Only thing
My heart
Hears
Are waves
Wading
Into
The depths
Open heart
Begins in
The deep
And comes
Ashore
When my
Toes shiver
With glee

Exhausted

Anxiety is high
Did I make a bad mistake
I've fought to live
Perishing now
Not what I want
I'm exhausted with worry
Trying to focus
On God's promise

Wednesday, May 6, 2020

Strawberry

Sweet strawberries
In springtime
Grateful today
For deliciousness
From this fruit
I love

Tuesday, May 5, 2020

breathe

Breathe in
Breathe out
Repeat
And say
After me
It will
Be okay

Monday, May 4, 2020

Relaxed

Going back
To the places
Where joy
Wasn't just
A feeling
An embodiment
Of relaxed exhalation
Was gained
Without frenzied
Searching

faith

Thank you 
For loving me
Praying 
And restoring 
My faith
In humanity

Sunday, May 3, 2020

Landing

I take for granted
That I can put
Pain on a page
Release it
And see
If and where
It happens
To land

πŸ™Œ

Turn that
Frown around
You are His
You are valuable
Loved and adored
A life was slain
So yours
Could thrive

Saturday, May 2, 2020

sipping

Strolling into Saturday
Up with the chicks
Sipping up smiles
And sunshine
And giving
God the
Reins

Friday, May 1, 2020

Freak

I'm a control freak
Pandemic has me paranoid
Being truthful
Because I'm miserable
Optimism is acceptance
In this moment
Acceptance
That freedom
Comes when
Expectations shatter
I want you
To know
That I've known
For seven weeks
That I had
To write this
Am I ready
To engage
With the public
I'm never ready
God is

Serene

The mind
Ceases to worry
As I'm lulled
To sleep
By nature's
Sweet sensation
That serenades
My senses
In a seductive
Sensitive sonnet
Leading to a
Serenity divined
By a Savior
Who suspects
Peaceful surrender
Comes with
Timely intercession

Thursday, April 30, 2020

Pondering pandemic

The mind
Rattle the cage
Wake the beast
It's there
Taming my thoughts
Is something
I need to do
It's unpleasant
But the soul
Needs pruning
To be whole again

Ice

I want
An iced coffee
And croissant
People watching
Then strolling down
The avenue

Wednesday, April 29, 2020

Woke up

Woke up
Thank you Jesus
As I start
Another day
At home
I have
To practice
Grace and gratitude
Because if you
Want for nothing
Complacent behavior
Shows up
With ferocity

Tuesday, April 28, 2020

Shower

Showering
In the
Joy of simplicity
Releasing the bitterness
I never fully unpacked
In pandemic
I'm having
To forgive myself
For lapses
In judgment and alacrity
Praying
It's not
My demise
I appreciate
The candor
Optimism rules
The fact is
It's not
Like a faucet
I can turn on
Or is it

keep

Every day
A struggle
Battling myself
Optimism is
Keep going
Anyway

Monday, April 27, 2020

sandy

The sand
And surf
Bring
A feisty
Flirty side
Kissed
By sunshine
And optimism

Sunday, April 26, 2020

calling Coligny

Back to
The coast
On Coligny
White
Buttery
Sand
Lathering
My toes
In nature
And its remedies
Followed by lunch
In a hidden treasure
Serving the best
Truffle fries

Understanding

What I wanted
Understanding
From others
God wants
From me
Truth and
Obedience
Do I believe
And put
Into action
What faith
Teaches me
Or is
My faith
A farce

Saturday, April 25, 2020

Praising

Unearthed memories
In photo albums
Bringing the past
Into present
Thank you Lord
For a gift
That turned malaise
Into praise

Friday, April 24, 2020

Prayer

Please Lord
May You
Guard my lips
Because
I'm ready
To explode

Thursday, April 23, 2020

France

Ordering books
That take me
To France
And Amalfi
My heart soars
And hopes
For better
Days

Wednesday, April 22, 2020

😍

Thank you
For a reminder
That You
See and know
It all
Before
My lips
Ask

Tuesday, April 21, 2020

Inside out

I am learning
That privilege
Is a gift
The scars
A gift
The best doctors
Are mine
The places
I go
A gift
In pandemic
I praise
For God
Still
Is constant
Despite
My own
Willful ignorance





☀️

Vitamin D
And Vitamin C
Are making me
Scream hallelujah

Monday, April 20, 2020

Everything

It’s one
Of those
Nights
Silence 
Is the answer
Because my heart
Aches in ways
I can’t explain 

pure

I'm having
To check
Myself
Every day
And see
That a
pure heart
Remains

Sunday, April 19, 2020

Offend

God’s teaching me
That I’m easily
Offended
And
I need
To understand
I’m not
The only one
And I’m
Only learning
This because
I’ve been offended

Permanent

Love me
Like I
Love you
I hear
God saying
I’m  falling
Because
I’ve fallen
For temporary gladness
Instead of
Eternal permanence

Saturday, April 18, 2020

God

God
Teach me
What to share
And what
To keep
Stowed away

Friday, April 17, 2020

Guard

You make me smile
Laugh
And yearn
To hear
The voice
That calms
My heart
And give
Thanks
For a joy
That’s long
Been guised
As a mask
I guarded
With my life

Thursday, April 16, 2020

Lost or found

Am I lost
Or found
In your
Strong embrace
Do you
Make me blush
A woman
Who is
Exactly
As He intended
Fully known
And seen
As she is
Without alteration

Wednesday, April 15, 2020

Splat

Writing
Is a crap shoot
Throwing words
Around
Some splat
Some fit
And at
The end
Of the day
Do these words
Tell a story
Or make the difference
Between a smile
Or a frown

Tuesday, April 14, 2020

A blessing

In the early morning
Still dark
The light
Has to awaken
My mind
Gives way
That to
Get up
Is to
Start again
A privilege
I never
Fully appreciated
Before
Current events
Made gratitude
A blessing

Monday, April 13, 2020

Thank you

Gospel music
My soul rejoices
In reverence
To the Risen Lord
Getting lost
With enthusiasm
In the love
That doesn't judge
And let's me
Exhale
And breathe
In a song
Of expectancy

Sunday, April 12, 2020

Open face open heart

Fighting everything
And everyone
To find peace
I’m afraid
I write happy things
To brighten my spirits
I’m learning suffering
Is not for weak
Or meek
Or maybe
I
Am that
I have  just hidden
Behind the covering
That shields
My heart
More
Than it
Does my face

Easter

Good Friday
Comes Alive
On Resurrection Sunday
Happy Easter
Readers
Blessings
Holy Day

Friday, April 10, 2020

Good Friday

Painful
For you
This day
But redemption
Is coming
For us
Who believe

Wednesday, April 8, 2020

Wheat fields

Wading in wheat fields
The only sounds
Are when my feet
Meet dirt
A feeling
So sweet
I feel
Anger lifting
As gratitude
Becomes
Paramount
For my own
Healing
I need
A minute of
Your attention
To redirect
Mine

Tuesday, April 7, 2020

Tired

My fuse it lit
Exhausted
From
Lack of empathy
Jesus
I wonder
How many
Times
You look
At your children
And say
Proclaiming my Name
Is worthless
Without action

Salty

The sun shines
On my pale skin
The bird chirps
I hear nothing
And soon enough
I taste
Salty sea spray
And the ocean
Waves
Are my radio
In nature
Dreams
Become
Reality
As I awaken
From
Peaceful sleep

Monday, April 6, 2020

Entering

The only
Safe place
To hide
Is in
Your prescence
I can no longer
Trust a world
In which
I feel lost
Your arms
Provide assurance
That government
Once held
Or so
I thought
I’m grateful
You continue
To welcome
My entrance

London

A novel
Set in London
Is my companion
For today
Finding joy
In authors' words
In distance
I find kinship
In the escape
Of hypothetical journeys
I've not taken

Thursday, April 2, 2020

King

Strolling on King
In a happy daze
Passing by Hampden
I’ve loved them
Ever since
I saw them
In Vogue
Thanks Anna
For an introduction
Into fabulous
Fantasy

french

Coffee
French toast
Tube
Dog
UPS
And repeat

Stay safe

Tuesday, March 31, 2020

Pray

How
May I pray
For you
Specially
I asking
That my
Inadvertent touches
Lead to no
Contamination
No request
Is too petty
If I can’t
Trust
In small
I can’t do
It in abundance

Whole in you

Christ the Redeemer
How I long
To see thee
This I know
Touch the world
In the way
Only you do
Lord
Speak
To the
Anxious
The defeated
And those
In need
Of
The only antidote
Most of us want
To be recognized
And whole

Monday, March 30, 2020

Rhode

Take me back
To the
Ocean State
Cool beach breezes
Lobster rolls
And sunshine
Overlooking Narragansett Bay
I fell in love
With a place
Where I felt
Whole
And joy
For no other
Reason that
I was alive
In the moment

Candy cane

Candy cane
Red and white
Sweetness 
In 
Every bite

Sunday, March 29, 2020

Honest

Jesus
I’m driving
Myself insane
Trying not
To touch
Me eyes
Wipe my nose
Not well enough
Afraid of contamination
I’m afraid
Of the virus
But the anxiety
Is doing work
On my
Head
Right now

Resurrection

I will keep writing
I will share my
Imperfection
I spent years hiding
What I already saw
My life matters
I just had
To believe
It
And
And I don’t have
The energy
Disputing my worth
I wanted
To be normal
God had
Other plans
The person
I get
To discover
Is me
Lord
Thank you
For validation
Through
A resurrection



Saturday, March 28, 2020

Amore

Watching
Jose Andres
Cook
Is a balm
To my spirit
Food
The language
That keeps
Loving us
When
Anxiety
Has
Me unable
To think
Rationally

Friday, March 27, 2020

breath

Sweet summertime
Red one piece
Feet in
Pink sand
Clear Caribbean waters
I await you
With baited breath

Thursday, March 26, 2020

Mademoiselle

Dreaming
Of snail mail
A package
With gummies
Licorice
And the
Best Belgian chocolate
A postcard from
Amalfi
That takes
Me to Le Sirenuse
A letter dipped
In lavender
That says
Provence
Is at hand
And No.5
That reminds
Me Of
Mademoiselle
Coco

Wednesday, March 25, 2020

dolce

Sleep right
Cozy
Comfy
And tight
Hit the cold floor
The knees bend
Head bowed
Thanking
God
For life
Family
And giving
Me
Peace
In this moment
To cry
Flush
The angst away
And let
My soul
Rest in the loving
Care of the Almighty
I'm tired
Restless
But taking solace
In eternal, merciful recompense

Coffee and cream

Coffee and cream
Milk and muffins
Rainy day here
So I'm here
Enjoy the
Goodness of
Simplicity

Tuesday, March 24, 2020

Peaceful

I have to say this
My anger and rage
Has to be replaced
It’s no good
I control not a thing
For this OCD soul
I was going crazy
And I have beautiful blessings
I can go outside
And not be found for days
The quiet to seek
What it is
I may find
Governments may quarrel
But my heart
Finds rest in
Mother Nature

Monday, March 23, 2020

Pink dogwood

Pink dogwoods
A pop of ambrosia
And purple wisteria
Greeted me
On a nice ride
This morning
Before I
Headed
Back home
To write
These words
You're reading
Right now

Sunday, March 22, 2020

Saturday, March 21, 2020

Norah Jones

Walk down
The gravel
Road
Singing
Norah Jones
As the cows
Moo me on
Clear mind
As sweat builds
And once
Again
I'm whole again
With glorious creation

Friday, March 20, 2020

Praise

Praising God
For a quiet morning
Filled with gratitude 
That as easy
As I can
Change 
The channel
My mind
Will have
A rougher time
I know
He
Can do
It if
I just 
Ask

Thursday, March 19, 2020

Wisteria

Right now
Purple wisteria
Have my attention
Eighty degrees
And perfect
Take me
Back
To the sweet
Low country

thought

Redirect
Reframe
The situation
So the brain
Stays sane

Wednesday, March 18, 2020

Loaf

Bright side
Looking
At old photos
Reminding me
Of good days
And those
I'd forgotten
My abuela's
Elephants
Greet me
The soap
Reminds
Me of honeysuckle
In the cul-de-sac
The red jeans
I almost didn't buy
Are now my favorite
I'm looking forward
To enjoy the last loaf
Of bread
At the
Grocery store
What they didn't like
I love
Some rye toast
Is now headed
To this sated belly

Tuesday, March 17, 2020

UPS

Never been
So happy
To see
The UPS man
A new book
To get lost in

Help

Cheer me up
I could use
It more than ever
Exhausted
Tired
Fried
Emotionally frayed
I've become
Like those I love
Fixing things
I can't
Caring more
For them than myself

Monday, March 16, 2020

Smile

Green grass
Sweet tea
And a cute poodle
On this day
The  Lord has made

Sunday, March 15, 2020

Thursday, March 12, 2020

Grateful

Give me
Good news
I'll start
It's sunny
And warm
And
I'm grateful
For all
Of you

Wednesday, March 11, 2020

Hi

Italy
Where my soul
Came alive
And my mind
Couldn't fathom
That dreams
Are worth having
The wait is
Justified
When
Your breath
Is taken
With every step
I keep
You
In my heart
because
Had it
Long before
I set foot
On special ground

Praying

Pray
Read
Purell
And
Pray some more

Tuesday, March 10, 2020

away

Thank you
Mercy and grace
Give it away
Today
Wait not
Before
You
No longer can

Sunday, March 8, 2020

Human

My anxiety
Rooted in uncertainty
Fear the unknown
Human

Jesus

Fireplace
Serves
As light
Dog
For company
Music
To bring
Smiles
And a Savior
Who
Sees
My worry
And screams
Hallelujah
My child
Has come
To me
Because
She can't
Do
What I do
I make water
Move
And mere mortals
Weep in disbelief

Friday, March 6, 2020

Chianti

Fire
Warm my bones
Soothe my soul
Melt my heart
Take me back
To Murano
Glass
Is art
And noses
Inhale a smell
One never forgets
Italy
Where dreams
Soared
On a diet
Of gnocchi
And Chianti

Thursday, March 5, 2020

Saint

I come
A saintly sinner
Cloaked in a veil
Hiding the shame
Of indiscretions before
My soul
Sought repentance
From a lowly
Nazarene

Grilled cheese

Reading a book
On this day
And all I want
Is some grilled cheese
And tomato soup
The steam
Comes up
Like an engine
To warm a soul
In need of repair

Wednesday, March 4, 2020

Bite

The daisies
And dahlias
Watered in
Morning dew
Waiting
For the sun
To shine
Over the hills
That beckon me
Because
God gives
Me peace
When my
Fingers
Pluck the earth
Searching for treasure
It's found off
The vine
Tomatoes
Mayonnaise
And sourdough
Summer of sweetness
Begins
With the first bite

Tuesday, March 3, 2020

Nashville

Super Tuesday 
Nashville 
The news today
Pray
And all
My heart
Wants is peace

Monday, March 2, 2020

Pizza

Pizza
On cauliflower crust
Root beer
In hand
A little happiness
From a little trip
To Wally World
Magazine on the
Desk
Ready
To be read
A delightful treat
Without the calories

Saturday, February 29, 2020

Dina

I'm having
To recognize
That growth
Is not
Always
Welcome
By self
Or others
I'm having
To trust
God
In spite
Of the
Doubt
That is within
My heart
I am
Reminded
Of my abuelita
And how
She rose
To every occasion
I dismissed your wisdom
You loved me
In a way
I couldn't understand
I put blinders up
I regret it now
I am you
I see
My soul rejoices
Because I got
To call you mine

Friday, February 28, 2020

Message

In my last post, someone asked if I was alright. I'm not. I'm writing to get it out. I'm refraining from making comment because none of it is kind, necessary and will hurt people. I don't have pure motives. Nothing about this is Christlike. It is not lost on me how much hope and affirmation, you all give me. I'm grateful and humbled by your love for me. I'm usually not at a loss for words, I am in this moment. So I will continue to write. Thank you for everything.  In six years, you have continued to be my cheerleaders, and I'm blessed. Thank you for caring enough to ask about me. If I honest, could you oblige me with your prayers.
Humbly,
Regine

Thursday, February 27, 2020

Hammer

I asked
You to
Save me
From the
Face staring
Back at me
It was
My own

Sunday, February 23, 2020

boom

the space
i leave
open for you
my heart
has expanded
kindness
a smile
changes mood
faster than
sonic boom

Saturday, February 22, 2020

Storm

Tell me
The stories
The storms
That makes you
Sit
Smile
And take
You back
To a time
When what is seen
Now
Wasn't possible before

Friday, February 21, 2020

Thoughts

I'm scared
Going to
A place
I've haven't
Been in
In over
A decade
I'm panicked
Shaky
And unsure
Thinking is
In overdrive
The what ifs
Are plaguing me

πŸ˜„

It’s Friday
Warming up
Greeting
The sunshine
With a smile
On my face

Thursday, February 20, 2020

❤️

Thank you for
Waking me up
Resting in who
You are
And not
In what
I've become

Wednesday, February 19, 2020

Sad

Having to be
The bigger person
Gets old
Revised history
Isn't
A rewritten rule
Can't fight anymore
Trust gone
I don't know
You anymore
Love you
I don't like you
Learning
To zone
You out
It's what you chose
When you picked
Them over me

Giggle

Children
Relish the time
You have
To tell
It like it is
As one ages
Truth
Is no
Longer
Met
With
A
Cute smirk

Foggy

Fog blocking mist
Trees stand
As the green grass
Grows
Wait on sun
To visit
Another day
Doesn't feel
Like February

Tuesday, February 18, 2020

Home Depot

Yesterday
When your sad
My happy
Is heading
To The
Home Depot
I treated it
As a disco
As Part Time Lover
Played
And I thought
Then and There
To enjoy
The simple
Moments
In each day

Monday, February 17, 2020

Rejection

Rejection
And strife
A part of life
I hope
It was worth
The cost
Conviction is not
Cheap
Having none
So expensive
My friend

Destroy

Struggling with forgiveness
I will get there
Not today
I want to
Make you
Feel like
You made
Me feel
A heaping pile
Of stinky, smelly poop
I played nice
Now I'm done
Love my enemies
So hard to do
Do I want to air
My grievance
But I won't
The untamed tongue
Destroys

Sunday, February 16, 2020

Sunny

In His House
All are welcome
Take a seat
Eat some meat
The cup is here
Sip some
And pass
It around
Be a blessing
To those
You meet

Saturday, February 15, 2020

Louis

One text
From your brother
And you remember
You are loved
Rejection
Teaches
That pain
Is temporary
And joy
Is eternal

Friday, February 14, 2020

Valentine

Today
It's jelly beans
And conversation hearts
Hugs and kisses
Love in any form
It's joy in progress
In peace
From hurt
And rejection
It's Jesus drawing
Near to this soul
And saying
I see you
When no one
Else does

Thursday, February 13, 2020

Naan

Melted ham
And cheese
On naan bread
Some Whisps crisps
And chocolate oat milk
A delicious lunch
As the dog
Naps on my lap
And a movie
Is on
While I
Pen this poem
And thank God
For unexpected rest

Wednesday, February 12, 2020

Pain

How are you
Friends
Praying
That pain
Educates
Then Dissipates

Tuesday, February 11, 2020

New Hampshire

Gloomy and gray
Waiting on the floods
Weather run amuck
Watching the
New Hampshire primary
Praying democracy
Is the winner

Monday, February 10, 2020

Mountain air

White
Dots the landscape
Of my soul
Bathing in
A hot tub
The Rockies
The backdrop
God dropping
Fresh powder
The dreams
Become real
In Park City
Utah
I miss thee
Mountain air
And a smile
No man erases

Trial

Ruby red nails
To match the ring
Bringing joy
For when
I catch a glimpse
Of its beauty
I remember
It wasn’t always
This way
The story
Is extraordinarily
Poignant
Because
It persists
In spite
Of
Harrowing trials

Sunday, February 9, 2020

πŸ‘’

White snowy glaze
Purity
Studded
In beautiful goodness
Cleansed
By nature
A splendor
That leaves
Man's mouth
Quenching thirst
That is met
When I become
A child
Who has
Tasted the
Snow
For the
First time
Sticking out
The tongue
The senses
Seeking wonder
And amazement in simplicity

Friday, February 7, 2020

Whipping wind

Starting the day
I'm exhausted
The swirling win
The thrashing rain
That kept me up
All night
Calm the storm
Within me
That is as
Determined
As the one outside

Thursday, February 6, 2020

Diamond

Light
Enter
Darkness
Exit
The diamond
Shrouded in dirt
Never loses its luster
Polished and refined
Its promise revealed
A carat of complete
Clarity in its cut
Colorless
Resplendent
In its transformation
To confidence
From confusion

🐊

Rain, rain
Means
Staying dry
And looking
Out the window
Watching sediment
Wash away
The garden
Looks good
This year

Wednesday, February 5, 2020

Sweet

Let my sweetness remain
The strength to keep focused
Steadfast and humble
In trial and tribulation
Conform
No ma'am
Jesus
You didn't die
For that
I will struggle
I will endure
I will embody
The character
Of the Savior
Regardless
Of the cost

Rejoice

Cerebral Palsy
Thank you
For teaching
Me truth
Fighting battles
Seeking justice
Never stop
Doing what's right
Even when wrong
Is celebrated
And appreciated
God
Bitterness
Must cease
So I can
Let my soul
Rejoice

Tuesday, February 4, 2020

Chocolat

The smell of
Rich chocolate
Wafting from
The oven
The comfy cozy
Sends me in
Gratitude
To appreciate
What my mouth
Will soon sample

Monday, February 3, 2020

Thursday, January 30, 2020

πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™

Defying the odds
My middle name
A miracle
Why you choose
To use me
What do you see
See in me?
A question
I don't have
An answer for

😘

I don't understand much
But I know this
The body wins
Most days
And finally
Maybe putting
This out
I will accept
What I've been
In denial about
My body needs sleep
More than I'd like
My body has been pushed
I'm used to it
But I need to take rest
I'm not like everyone else
I'm different
And it's okay
I have to follow
Doctors orders
I can't balk
Anymore
Thanks to Medtronic

Wednesday, January 29, 2020

Deserve

My neck
Adorned
With a cross
I will never
Be worthy of
I sit here
With callouses
On my toes
And I'm grateful
It's means
I'm walking
A medical miracle
Each step
Is a reminder
Of blessings
I didn't earn
And don't deserve

Twitter

Twitter
Opened
My eyes
My disability
I've successfully hidden
Reading so many
Struggles
Has been
A learning experience
I couldn't any longer
Be blissfully ignorant
To suffering
That is inexcusable
Step into shoes
Not on them
You might bawl
Just thinking
God spared me
From hardships
I couldn't fully grasp
Between apathy
And empathy
Is where
I stand

Tuesday, January 28, 2020

Trader

Walking alone
In the aisles
Of Trader Joe's
The flowers
Are my favorite
I spot
Sunflowers
And my giddiness
Erupts
Like the kid
Awaiting the swat
Of a piΓ±ata
Awaiting candy
Falling like
A plunge
Into an infinity pool
In the Aegean
The happiness
Of an leisurely stroll
In a grocery store

Yesteryear

Late afternoon
Take off braces
Let legs be free
Bare feet
Dance on
The cold floor
Soon I reach
For faux fur slippers
A cold drink
Some trail mix
Prop myself
In my chair
Of choice
And unwind
The only way
I know how
Pen in hair
Music flowing
As I let the
Day and my perception
Go as I meditate
With the legends
Of yesteryear.

Monday, January 27, 2020

❤️

In the stillness
I hear you whisper
I am here
Don’t fret
As I speak
Listen
The fear
Teaches
That pain
Is just
A symptom
Of deeper needs

Lord

Lord
Today
Thank you
For
A new day
To wake up
And praise
If I can
Pray
For you
Let me know
I am useless
When I do that

Saturday, January 25, 2020

I’m sorry

I’m seeking
A few words
I may not
Ever hear
I’m sorry
And someone wise
Said
Stop seeking it
It’s toxic
Your smile
Is worth
More
And right
Now
You don’t
Smile
You’re losing
Yourself
By wanting
One thing
From others
Give up
Find others
Who know
Your worth
Now
Not later
Let them
Have regrets
You can’t afford them

Friday, January 24, 2020

Lukewarm

Cold feet
Lukewarm
Faith
Mustard seed
Redeem me
Living imperfectly
In this broken world

Thursday, January 23, 2020

Fluffy

Jeans
And a tunic
Drinking a cup
Of warm tea
As I await
A cold rain
And all
I can picture
Is a fall day
In the Cotswolds
The fire logs
Sizzle
As I get
Ready
To read
Something light
And funny
Like Becky
My favorite protagonist

Coiffure

Miami Dolphin mania
How you hated Saban
Trips to Flanigan's
The crossword
Over coffee
And orange juice
Rides in
The passenger seat
Holding on
For dear life
And you changed lanes
Like Andretti 
One day
It was just 
Me and you
And the words
You said
You didn't worry
About Heaven
God knew
Your heart
I'm glad
I did too
Because now
It lives in me

Coffee and rice roll

Coffee and rice roll
Ready and willing
To meet this day
Full of hope
And promise
Speaking vibrancy
And positivity
When you
Can't verbalize
What hearts seek
Amongst chaotic clutter
Flowers bloom
When rooted
In compost
And a damp richness
Winter
Not desirable
But necessary
And sometimes
God
Your brethren
Mirror
That description
Honesty
Not pretty
But no less vital

Wednesday, January 22, 2020

Hard

So many
Years of
Misery
All I
Could see
Was
What I
Didn't have
Could I
Erase
The pain
I have
To embrace
What I
Can't stand
To be
A human
That can
Say that
Without hardship
I would
Not worship

Tuesday, January 21, 2020

Cross legged

Sitting on
Cross-legged
The cold
Hardwood floors
Peering out
Of the
Window through
Dusty blinds
Trying to
Pray that
My mind
Pauses
Hits the
Restart button
Rage is
Running wild
If only
My pen
Could keep
Up with
The speed
One one
In relation
To the
Other

Words

Branches dressed in ice
The dawn
Of the new
Day where
Hope flies
Peace
Of majestic birds
Greet me
From the
Bird feeder
And even
In arctic chill
I lift up
My countenance
In gladness
For life
And endless possibilities
Even in disability
I have a privilege
Most of world
May not
Blessed
Am I
By the King
Of Kings

Monday, January 20, 2020

Cower

I started writing
When I felt
Unheard and unwanted
I only speak
Now for a
Reason
I refuse
To believe
You will be
Discarded
If you
Don’t
I wanted
To have faith
In man
Until He said
Child
I didn’t make
You to
Comply and cower
To a version
Of you
I don’t recognize

Folly

On the way
To Folly
Early morn
Awaiting
The sand
And surf
The one time
I was allowed
To go without
A cane
Without braces
My feet
Could breathe
Toes in sand
Wind in hair
Sun in face
Relish those days
I got to be
Free
I soon
Traded in
The cane
For a pump
That made
External marks
But internally
Let me live
Not exist

Sunday, January 19, 2020

Let me

Let me
Look at
Each scar
As triumph
They have
Formed a
Selfish soul
Into one
With a compassion
I didn't own
Loving people
Who can't
Do the same
Cerebral Palsy
Thank you for
Allowing me
To be a
Decent human being
Truth
Set free
The sinner
In me

Saturday, January 18, 2020

Stories

My heart
Is in
The stories
Of historic civilizations
But my soul
Has been enriched
By the cotton picker
The butcher
Meat hanging
The shoe cobbler
Great attention
To the details
Blue collar
Red blooded
Green they loved
Was when
Their feet
Met the
Earth
Below
Them
Label
Simple
I say
Extraordinary

Meyer lemons

The desire
To flee
Yet I know
I must remain
Face the fear
Look out
The window
Winter gloom
Turns to
Spring rain
And what
Confounds
Will be
As beautiful
As summer sun
Shining on
Meyer lemons
And juicy tangerines

Friday, January 17, 2020

Holiness in three

Lord
Tears
The streams
Of a decision
That is a bedrock
For the life
I live

You rule
A kingdom
So fortified
Nothing leads
To its demise

Gold and silver
Are no match
For You
For ownership
Is Your dominion

Christ
The Son
Rises
To Ascension

John Deere

John Deere green
The farmer in Carhartt
The sweaty
Furrowed brow
Calloused hands
Praying for rain
A year in the black
Or at best
Break even
Do your job
Yet know
You never
Have control
Waiting on
First light
To mend fences
Fill up tubs
And feed
Impatient livestock
A life's work
Tending
To a plot
Of land
With a history
As deep and rich
As red clay

Thursday, January 16, 2020

Simmer then siir

In the kitchen
Making peach cobbler
Waiting on peaches to simmer
I'm reminded
That Jesus
Waits
And waits
For us
To ignite
A passion
For Him
So that
When we suffer
We don't wallow
In a despair
That is unbecoming
Of a child
Whose identity
Is made clear
By the
Lamb's blood

❤️

Writing in my journal
Dreaming of a winter's day
Snow falling
Hope is rising
Joy in childhood
Coming back
Catching snowflakes
On my tongue
The cold
Taking it in
Laughing because
In simplicity
Pleasure is there
To relish
All but naught
On a seventy degree day
In mid January

Wednesday, January 15, 2020

wide

A smile
Will adorn
My face
Today
Not where I want
To be
But I'm here
Ready
To begin the journey
To a place
Where peace
Is constant
Despite
The prevailing winds
Where my thinking
Are violent gales
Slapping the waves
In Wild swells
With no care
For ebbs
And lulls
One speed
Until
The weather
Dispels current forecast

Tuesday, January 14, 2020

Read

Depression and Disability
I've refrained from this
I can no longer
My health is at stake
I thought writing
It out would help
It has
But it's not enough
So when people say
You seem fine
Please don't say it
I haven't been fine
In awhile
I know what I
Must do
If you don't
Put on my shoes
Don't opine
The mind
Can free
Or enslave
I am in chains
Free me
Before I break

Confession

I'm coming today
Lord to confess
That I trust
Too much
In my own strength
I live in fear daily
Of sickness
Of every malady
And on this day
I come seeking
The face
Of the
Only One
Who saves

Monday, January 13, 2020

Texas

Road tripping
Across Texas
Looking out
The window
Counting my blessings
Every mile
A treasured souvenir
I didn't buy
Highways end
Leading to
Dusty country roads
The mooing cows
Are my musical accompaniment
The goats soon follow suit
And now I feel at home
Even when I'm not
From Dallas
To Austin
And back
The privilege
Of having a home
Leaves
Me
Crying
Tears of joy

Saturday, January 11, 2020

Baby's bum

The shout
No longer
A grimace
Is an operatic aria
Of a balletic soprano
Who gives soul
To the words being sung
Rising from a fog
To see the clouds
That hug
Your neck
And brush
Your cheeks
With a delicate
Deliciousness
Of a baby's bum
Resilience
Often
Breeds
Redemption
And hope
That dances
When all
One knows
Is paralysis

Green and red

Picking collards
Selling them
For two dollars
A bushel
For Christmas money
The Dollar General
Would be the recipient
Of my hard earned greenbacks
My own lemonade stand
Experience
But again
Hard work
Meets red clay
Adolescence
was spent
Mired in mud
That found its way
Caked on
In places
Dirt should not
Be found
One with the land
I know it
All too well

Keep

Written word
The release
Of decades
Resentment
Headed off
With a pen stroke
What I thought 
Would be agony
Unshackled me
From the burden
Of self loathing 
And unending disdain
When Jesus
Says what 
Was meant for 
Your harm
I will use for good 
He means it
And my body
Rejoices
In every way

Friday, January 10, 2020

Country living

Drift away
In the sunshine 
On the back porch
Snapping some peas
Remembering 
A simple time
When rocking away
Deep in chatter
Dirt in my nails
Red clay
Hardens the body
Softens the soul
When memories 
Aren't painful aches
But sweet reminders
Of a country upbringing 
In the Deep South

Praying

Any prayer requests
My friends
So much suffering
So much pain
Seeking peace
In these days
Where hardship
Is a daily occurrence

Thursday, January 9, 2020

Gain

The breath
What a blessing
When I see you
Scars
I refuse
To see pain
It's healing
In my veins
They're earned
Not free
Expensive
But worth
Every cent
Scars
The lessons
You still
Demonstrate
The strength
You forced
Me to learn
Despite my protestations

πŸ‘Š

Daughter of the King
The title
That matters
Royalty
Belonging
To the Most High
A privilege
An Honor
I don't want
To downplay
Or take
For granted

Wednesday, January 8, 2020

Ugh

Do you rise
Stand up
Declare victory
So you
Can see
The glass half full
Positivity
Takes practice
It's been a day
Where my brain
Needs to disconnect
From a reality
I no longer
Recognize
I write
To make sure
I'm still human
Or at least sane
Or put the imposter smile
And hope
No person gives a darn

Tuesday, January 7, 2020

The truth

Anxiety
Trapped in
My head
Stomach aching
Heart racing
Trying to breathe
Break the thought
That ensnares my vision
The goosebumps
The chills
That snake
Their way up
Listening
To uplifting music
Because I'm anything
But lifted
I in a chaotic
Malestrom
That is nothing
Like that fuzzy
Warm feeling
I seek
And I can't
Continue to let food
Be my muse
When I'm caught
In the crosshairs

Hemingway

Dreaming
Of a quiet
Cafe
Lost in a book
Of Hemingway
With a croissant
And a latte
Being my
Only company
Spending hours
Suspended in space
Only awakened
By sweet
White snowflakes
Kissing my lips
As I hit
The door
Exiting
Only to plan my next return

Aussie

Australia
Praying
For the land
Of Koalas
Marsupials
Bondi Beach
Ayers Rock
And a fighting spirit
Sending a big hug
For all those hurting
In the land
Down Under

Monday, January 6, 2020

Plea

Change
It starts
With me
I can't fix you
I can't make
You understand
I have to make
Myself shatter
My own prejudices
My own erroneous thoughts
This all comes
When I ask
For help
If I only
Followed my
Own advice
More often
Maybe then
I wouldn't endure
Public humiliation
Help me
Help me
My earnest plea

Ready

Coffee dripping
Creamer ready
To warm
Up the muscles
Prepared
To do
The will
Of God
For me
On this
Beautiful Day
That He has
Provided for
His secured flock

Sunday, January 5, 2020

God’s day

Sunday
It’s God Day
Let me praise You
Rid me of
The resentment
That builds up
Within me
Bless me
So I can
Bless you

Saturday, January 4, 2020

Sun chips and cherry Coke

Late night
Sun chips and cherry Coke
The inspiration hits
Just as I'm trying
To power the brain
Down to a halt
The mind
Hits overdrive
So I'm seizing
This chance
To communicate
Let the thoughts
Go where they may
Stay
Run away
Or ruminate
Me and my words
The inner dialogue
A daily battle
To tell the truth
Or lie
So feelings
Aren't hurt
Or egos bruised

Friday, January 3, 2020

Kitchen lessons

The other day
I had
The opportunity
To educate
I chose
To swallow
My pride
And allowed
Myself
To relive
The past
To improve
The future
My kitchen
Served as
A pulpit
The day
I let
Freedom ring

Shore

Rising 
With the sun
The sound
Of the ocean
In the distance 
Seashells and seaweed
Washing ashore
Brushing my toes
With a ticklish touch

Thursday, January 2, 2020

Weary

Hold on
To the promise
Of Your love
Your love
Gives life
To the lifeless
The destitute
The obstinant
The pride
That must fall
So You may
Rise

The dusk
The dawn
Give way
To morning
Where
Mercy
Is eager
To greet
Me
Your weary
Child

Today

Waking up
To meet
The day
Eggs and toast
A shower
To invigorate
Mind sharpens
Body stretches
Time to meet
2020 with
A roar
This Thursday morning

Wednesday, January 1, 2020

Peace

Walking into peace
Serenity and stillness
Unending joy
With the Master
At the helm