I am on a news detox. I don't know when I will return. I listen to Christian music all day. I am in constant need to pray. I can't deal. My heart hurts. My soul cries. I no longer speak. I love God, therefore I am to love people, but I struggle. We no loner can have conversation, and so I cease. It's His job. I'm having to lean on who Jesus is. What would Jesus do? Jesus is no illusion for which I give thanks.