Age and experience must be the charm.
In a few weeks, I celebrate another birthday. I will not dread the day. I will not contemplate all I don't have. I want many things, but there must be a reason, I don't have them yet. Yes, I'm human. I get frustrated. I get frustrated with God's timing. I get frustrated with my braces, my thick thighs, my sense of humor. I can't question God. When something lacks no reason, I stop. Questioning the Almighty left more scars than surgeries could. God knew and still knows. To this day, I can find flaws, but I know that's me. God's placed people in my life who remind me to find beauty and joy. Laughter is good for the soul! I don't have the luxury to ask why. It depresses me. Life is a glass half full, a silver lining, a joie de vivre. I need a raison d'etre. I do not cut myself slack. I know I should. One of the hardest lessons for me to fully accept is that I will not be like everybody else. I longed for normal, but I got extraordinary. Self-deprecation is not good for me. In finding Christ, I've finding who I am.