Tuesday, October 4, 2016
I'm learning that your purpose may not be the one you wanted, but the one God wanted you to have. I see my purpose clearly, I just didn't want it. I wanted something more glamorous, and not an iota of pain. My purpose doesn't garner red carpets. It demands a revocation of pride. It's requiring me to put all my wants aside. I have a lot of wants. I'm being refined, and it hurts. Humility is painful. When dying to self becomes a joy, I will appreciate humility. The Casting Crowns song "Just be Held" says there is freedom in surrender, but I wonder is total surrender is ever possible for me. Is surrender a good thing? I stopped asking questions because I knew I didn't want the answer, or I didn't want an answer that would cause more questions than the question itself. Is surrender when you just stop trying? Is that a bad thing? I stopped asking because I've always known that the questions I have have no right or wrong answer. And it's not a type of question I like. Folks, when you have to lower expectations of others and self, you will be free. Surrender is freedom indeed.