wednesday wisdom

 In His desire that I slow down, I’m understanding the joy of simplicity. Whether its running barefoot in the grass as I smell the scent of the clothes on the clothesline. It’s looking for lurking critters in the cantaloupes. It’s the sweat that accumulates as I pound the pedals. I’m allowing my senses to work in tandem as I give my overworked brain a rest. 

The answer is Him, but more simply it is to take in my surroundings right now, what I want them to look like. The point is I’m no multitasker. I can’t chew gum and walk most days in equal measure. I read somewhere where the magic of childhood is not being a child, but in the ability to be present. Reading that set my soul ablaze. I got it. Now to hope it stays there. 

Knowing me, five minutes later, I’ll forget and look for something to worry about for the rest of the day. It’s not being hard on myself. It’s the truth. The frequency with which it occurs is not something I share with pride. A lot of us get honest and real when our behinds are behind the eight ball. God has me very uncomfortable right now. If I thought the waiting season was rough, I met this one, and I’m squirming. 

From the valley to this:  the valley almost looks better. There is nowhere to go but up. This here is:  this one has no name. Maybe it’s holding.   I’m in waters I can’t sense. So holding on is where it is. Or where I am locked. I’m into a different kind of silent stillness right now. Where the words of humans can’t console, advise or sympathize. Empathy is a definite. 

God

May I

Be uncomfortable 

If it be

Your will

For me

As it forces

Me not

To flee