First of all, Thank you for all the prayers! They were and are very much appreciated. At the moment, I can't adequately put into words what my heart is feeling. I'm just purely grateful and truly humbled. Control is not something you have, and all you have is faith. My faith has been the mustard seed. As the pastor said yesterday, faith is a commitment. When my faith is not my commitment I'm up a creek without a paddle.
Faith requires humility. A gut-wrenching about face.
The TobyMac song about gaining the whole world yet losing my soul comes to mind.