Tomorrow is Valentine's Day, if you needed the reminder. Valentine's Day has not really ever been a day I like. Maybe because of the lack of a Valentine. I know I shouldn't put my self-worth there. And I don't need to explain what "there" references. I have always been passive, so now trying to be assertive in seeking what I want out of life has been painfully difficult. They say it's never too late, but I can only wonder what if?. I don't want to blame Cerebral Palsy, but I wonder how many years I have let myself be held hostage by implied iniquities. The worst habits are the hardest to sever. The habit has almost surpassed the difficulty Cerebral Palsy may present. And I have heard: "You must love yourself". I know it's truth. Trust me. I don't want to sound ungrateful, I just know I am not unique in this respect, I'm just human. The Valentine whose heart is Theirs played a song for me that let me find Him. In this moment, that is the best present. He wants me to live in the present, so He can lead me to the future.