While I try to project optimism, I am pessimist. When Dee posted a comment on the blog post " Food for thought", it gave me a grin, and then panic. What she wrote, is classic me. I worry about the future so much, I can't fully enjoy the present. Viewing my disability as a strength, that may take a while. Sometimes, I really do love the person I see in the mirror, even if you don't hear me admit it, but mainly I see the flaws, and I pick myself apart. It's an ugly habit, I know. I sin everyday, when I worry, and am anxious. I feel like a bad person, even though I am not.
Learning to be kind to self is an ongoing journey into or onto discovery.