I've felt God these past few weeks. Following the will of God is rewarding. My heart is at peace. The burden I feel is diminished. Life didn't get easier, my perception changed.
I have spent many years and countless tears fighting myself, and I'm tired. If the endeavor lacks merit, I won't fight it. I finally let go. I thought I was invincible, but I did get tired. Folks, without God, my energy is limited. I have to allocate it differently. I have to decide what is best for me.
Look, would I change anything, sure. The amount of time I spent hating self. It is physically and mentally exhausting to write this post.
I spent years fighting the wrong fight. Pick a battle worth fighting.
I will tell you that God and I don't agree on everything, but I do know, He knows best.