I have been in a funk. Acceptance of the election, sickness, indifference. PITY, all of it has me lost. Just writing this leaves me shamed, stupid and ungrateful. I love Jesus, but Christmas no. I hate this at Christmas. I don't want you to see this. If I could be in denial of this, I would. Facebook is a depressant, I can no longer take. Writing this post angers me. I have so much respect for Jesus for loving a world that wouldn't give love back.