pray

 Yesterday in therapy was a challenging day. Let’s just say working on my balance left me highly inbalanced. And it didn’t feel too good. I saw old apparatus and equipment that left me shaking inside. I was conquering the fear in real time. My fear was not hidden. My face showed it all. My discomfort and my fear were on full display.  I will say that the others in the office watch me with great awe or craziness. Who pays people to whip them into shape like this. I sometimes wonder if sometimes I’ve lost my mind. 

Please pray that I can stay the course, as I continue to be very uncomfortable, with no end in sight. 

Love you all

Regine

Anyway

 Every day

I’m returning 

To a version 

I recognize 

Yet still is

So foreign to me

I’m letting 

The disappointment

Roll off me

I’m doing

The things

That petrify me

I’m finding joy

In places

Formerly marked

With disdain

I’m not taking

On unnecessary pain

Taking on discomfort 

Is not a 

Badge of honor

Unless he 

Ordains it

Or allows it

I’m fully aware

That my problems

Will never cease

I just no longer

Give them

The power

To overwhelm me

To topple me

I’m strong

Yet very fragile

I’m the contradiction 

The exception 

To every rule

And there 

Is grace

In accepting 

What was once

So vehemently 

Denied

Denial

The river

In Egypt

No longer

Resides there

God says move

This isn’t your home

Not anymore

Anyway

Lord

 Lord Jesus

Focus on You

Not on worldly

Desires and wishes

May me heart

Be warmed

By your faithfulness

Not the deception

Of man’s crudeness

Be mine

Be ever mine

Heart and mind

 Lord,

Guard my tongue

Guard my heart

It really needs it

As much as 

I need air

My Sunday prayer

Hands and feet

 Grateful for

The breath

In my lungs

And of those

I love

As a brand

New day

Awaits our

Hands and feet

Be

 Preparing for snow

Preparing for crisp clarity

Creation showing

How good

Surrender becomes

As I 

Let it be

hope

 Another appointment. Another doctor possibly added. I could be down, but oddly enough, it gives me comfort to get another set of eyes, a new perspective to try and figure out this brain of mine. So today, a new day. I smile and take the win. Having to find silver linings with everything I have. Therapy today. May my body withstand the beating it will take. 

Love you all

Regine