Friday, May 16, 2025

reality

 Yesterday, at the doctor’s office, I got a reality check. The fact is no matter how healthy I get, I will always have Cerebral Palsy so I need to continue to be mindful. I need to eat even better, drink more water and double my protein intake. I was reminded that I have limits. It’s not a bad thing. It’s just a reality. Reality doesn’t change even when change is initiated. 

I have to be smarter. Rest when needed. My body only has so many hours that it functions optimally. At 41, I need to take naps during the day. I will continue on the journey of health because I will benefit. I just can’t continue pushing my body to its breaking point. The reality of my life is that to outwardly look like a functioning human being, it takes a village to keep me upright. 

I’d rather be exceptional for at three hours than miserable for a whole day. I’ve been given tools to do this. God knew what I’d need, and he didn’t scrutinize me with as much contempt as I do myself. 

I’m having to learn to give kindness and acceptance of self. Yesterday, I got a reality check. One I didn’t want, but desperately needed. 

Love yourself and one another. 

Thursday, May 15, 2025

calming breaths

 Let my being

Be light

Filled with light

Not fraught

With undue

Worries

That are 

So unfounded

It’s so ridiculous 

If it weren’t 

So sad

That fear

Has overtaken

My soul


Calm me

As I focus

On each breath

As my heart rate

Decreases

Wednesday, May 14, 2025

Remember

 I’ve been all about silence. On the outside, I’m silent. On the inside has been a turmoil I don’t recommend. I’ve had to get back to the source. The Source of my soul. I have had to get back to living in the moment. There is nothing about life I can control but my reaction to it. I’m having to put down my will, my wants for what God’s wanting to show me. 

I’m having to remember I don’t have to figure out life. I’m having to remember He is good even if I know it, but can’t see it. I’m having to step back to step forward. I’m having to lay it down. Again and again. And I’m being reminded what I want is not always what I need. He’s saving me from me. 

He gives me what I want when He’s ready not me. 

Love yourself and one another

Tuesday, May 13, 2025

debate

 The sun 

And clouds

Are debating

Who will

Win today


Will it

Rain again

Or will

The sun

Show his

Face

And dry

The mucky ground


Rain or shine

I smile

For whatever 

I’m given

Grateful

I will

Be

Monday, May 12, 2025

quiet

 Appreciate

The quiet moments

They’re precious

Scarce

And oh

So worth it


Love yourself and one another 

Sunday, May 11, 2025

mother’s day

May my life
Be a mirror 
Of your goodness
Thank you
For giving me
A mother
Who would 
Nurture my being
Where I 
Would lack 
Nothing
But gain everything
When I accepted
Discipline

Friday, May 9, 2025

Friday five

Thrifting. I love looking for unique books or jewelry. 
Dr. Bronner’s lavender soap
Trail mix
Ice water. The colder the better
Word searches and Wordle

Your turn?