Sunday, February 25, 2018

The call

I listened to a sermon by Steven Furtick today titled "Embracing Limitation". All I can say is that the health of my mind is directly correlated with my willingness to share my battle with Cerebral Palsy. As I was reminded today God has stripped me of the luxury to be silent. I was reminded today that my very life is dependent upon my willingness to share. "Normal" is gone. The truth unedited is here. If I want change, I must the agent. In making myself uncomfortable, you may be uncomfortable. This is your disclaimer. CP almost killed me because I let it. I don't have able body privilege. If you do, count your blessings. I may look perfect on the outside, but there is nothing perfect here.
God, I'm accepting the call I have denied.

Friday, February 23, 2018

Teachable moments.

What Cerebral Palsy still teaches me.
You will have setbacks.
The simpler a process seems, the harder it is.
Conquering mental demons will deter you more than physical ones.
Your prayers will become more fervent.
The dreams are what keep me going.
Every time I want to give up, God says no.

My faith has to be bigger than my fear

Wednesday, February 21, 2018

Monday, February 19, 2018

Education part deux

Disability makes you vigilant. It makes you dot every I. It makes you cross every T. It makes you hesitant. I wish I knew that my physical disability would cause me more mental anguish. The physical discomfort I learned to handle, the pain in my heart, not so much. I wish a lot of things, but I discuss this now because maybe it could save you some pain. Truth is the bitter pill, but once you learn to swallow it, freedom comes. I never liked what I needed. As I get older, I realize the disservice I did to myself and others. The cry of our hearts is to be loved. The world will never remember my net worth, but how I loved.

Sunday, February 18, 2018

Friday, February 16, 2018

Shopping spree

If you could have five minutes on the clock, two carts, and put anything in a cart where would you choose to have the shopping spree?

Thursday, February 15, 2018


Serenity Prayer
Pray for Florida, our nation, our world
Spread some kindness today

Wednesday, February 14, 2018


On this day, Jesus may I leave all I am with you. You bless me. Happy Valentines Day. Love each other as He loved us.

Tuesday, February 13, 2018

Sunday, February 11, 2018


I've gone back to what I need to do. I'm going to talk about my uncomfortable reality. If I want understanding, I must first teach. I'm getting off my high horse. My feet either hurt or suffer discomfort at some point each day. Most ladies have a collection of heels, I have one for braces. Botox hurts like heck. I've not found needles that don't hurt yet. Doctors numbers are on speed dial. You will become accustomed to ignorance. You will know a pain greater than physical. Living is my testimony.

Friday, February 9, 2018


It's been a stressful week, so if you have good news share it.

Thursday, February 8, 2018

Keeping the good.

Life is hard. I don't want to make it anything that it is not. I'm finding the good, it's keeping it that is hard. I have to choose joy every second.

Wednesday, February 7, 2018


I'm wondering. Someone once said I made CP look easy. Is it hard for people to see the pain and discover if I mask it well..almost too well. And I really never gave it too much thought. I'm trying to live, and not think too much. Thinking can send me into a place I really don't want to go. Is it that I make CP look easy?  Thoughts?


Favorite breakfast food
Favorite quick lunch
Best dinner

Hash browns
Mashed avocado
Coq au vin

Tuesday, February 6, 2018


Last splurge?
Last thing you ate?
Last thing you drank?
Last website you checked?
Last random act of kindness?

Friday, February 2, 2018

Would you rather

Eat lox or beef
Drink Sweet tea or cranberry juice
Play Candy Crush or baseball
Shop in New York or swim in the Bahamas
Visit Montenegro or live in Ottawa

Thursday, February 1, 2018