Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Happy New Year

It's a New Year.  This year has taught me many a thing, and I have learned how to truly trust without questioning.  I have learned that while life is not fair, it can be rewarding.  My only hope for 2015, is to continue to follow God, and be happy, no joyful doing such.
It is a privilege to follow You!
God Bless,
R

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

trusting God

i just have to trust God, in spite of myself.  You are everything!
R

Monday, December 29, 2014

What Jesus can do

I really don't like looking back, but 2014 was one that brought real life to my doorstep.  It's amazing how two white looking athletic booties, ie braces can bring you to your knees.  I'm starting to see what grace and gratitude are.  It's that A word, we're getting acquainted.  Has life kicked my ass, yes!  I'm starting to love me, and it's quite a foreign concept to me.  I have no more patience for asking why this, why that.  I just need to be.  Cerebral Palsy, will not be the death of me, it may just be what gives me life.
Thank you Jesus for Cerebral Palsy, for it makes me the woman I am.
R
God Bless,

so reflective

In this Christmas season, I received a present:  hope and joy.  As I type this I am recalling times and situations when I received such.  I like seeing the stuff people got this year, I really do, but when i think on the gifts I've received, it's the moments like these that get me the most.

Shopping with my sister
Having wine and a good dessert overlooking Charleston
It's having your nephew scream Gigi, him grabbing my hand
It's the unexpected gifts and phone calls from family.
Christmas joy,
R

Christmas happiness

Still tired from all the Christmas and holiday fun!
God Bless,
R

Monday, December 22, 2014

finding good

Folks, this season I've been a GRINCH.  i have let the world and others make me happy or not, and frankly, if the world determines my happiness, I'm in trouble.  God, in this season of your birth, I want to be like you in that you came to serve, not the other.
Help me to see life as a gift, people as a instrument to help me and not hamper or cause me pain.
God RESTORE TO ME THE JOY OF MY SALVATION!
R

Thursday, December 18, 2014

looking back

it has come to me of how blessed I am.  I was told yesterday that "Jesus must love me"  It is a privilege, one that I hope I never take for granted.  It's an tear-bringing thought to think that someone must think that Jesus must love me.
R
just as He loves me, He loves YOU!
JESUS LOVES YOU!
John 3:16

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Monday, December 15, 2014

JOY

I went back to church this Sunday.  I can only say a friend was a start in getting me there.  Every time I came up with an excuse, my heart would keep saying yes.
The message has stayed with me, and I have a joy that makes me cry a tear that is ok to be there.
God is good.
God Bless,
R

So joyous

So blessed!
R

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

have some Christmas memories?

Christmas time memories?

I am weary, I am human

Folks, as the title suggests I'm exhausted.  I need the love of The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit to surround me.
God be with you and me.
regine

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Tired...how are you?
R

happy

Some days I wonder why You chose me!  You give me all to me when I need what it is to give me.
Can't think!
Just blessed!
R

Friday, December 5, 2014

weekend plans?

Weekend plans?
R

Awed

Emotional today!  Lord, I need every part of you to be with me today.  Trying to meditate on who You are.  I don't understand much, but I am so happy to know you love me.
I am grateful.  This flawed human being is in awe that you can love me like You do.
R

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Monday, December 1, 2014

I'm home

I've just come home from a trip!
God never ceases to work miracles
R

Thursday, November 27, 2014

Thursday, November 20, 2014

Christmas Spirit

how are you sweet friends?
had an eye appt. and it was enjoyable.
It got me in the Christmas Spirit?
what does it for you?
R

a little lost

Going back to my old ways this morning. My attitude needs to change.
I'm praying to release my will.
I am a child of God!
God Bless,
R

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

help!

I starting to enjoy life.  Allowing God in makes it.  At this point, I don't know what I want to share.
Help!
R

Exercising faith

This morning I am Exercising faith!
R

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Encourage you

i am sitting here listening to Christian music thinking.  Whoever God is making, i am slowly smiling. I am crying, because I have never thought that I could love the child of God that is Regine
R

What does your Thanksgiving look like?

Tell me all about your Thanksgiving?
R

All about you

how are y'all?
R

Thursday, November 13, 2014

Look!

I know this:  Jesus makes my life matter.  It's why I continue to do this.  I am shocked at how this blog has given me so much.  The fact that you read my words.  I'm just a girl with Cerebral Palsy, who just prays you like what I write.
Frankly, grieving has become a necessary evil.  I am not kind to self, never have been.
I'm not finding the words I want, but these will have to do.

For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world yet forfeits his soul?  Or what shall a man give in return for his soul?
Matthew 16:26 English Standard Version
Need to be still.
R

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Thursday, November 6, 2014

how to deal with disappointment

I have a simple question.  How do you deal with disappointment?  Disappointment is a part of life, I get it.  Sometimes, it's like I feel the need to be human, and feel disappointment.  It's like if i feel human, I take God out, but right now everytime I try to take Him out, God comes back stronger.

Blessed, Thank the Lord

blessed!  He knows all!

He will never leave you or forsake you.
Hebrews 13:5

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Best blessing

It is a blessing when you can love without abandon, show your hearts, let down the walls because you know you can.  And it's sad that I never understood the love of Christ until know.  Braces, an object, is showing me how much I needed a love that I wouldn't give myself.
Sometimes our pain needs to be there.  I hate showing pain.  I need to be seen
R

Trying to love

trying to love myself and others.  Emotionally raw right now, and in a state where Jesus is the only answer for what ails me.
Love,
R

Blessed

tired, but here!
R

Thursday, October 30, 2014

What's on your heart?

the blog that God has allowed me to have is two tomorrow, and I am blessed by the friendships I have made, the love and encouragement, and the fun i have as well.
It is a blessing, that all started with the encouragement of one of my greatest and best friends!
R

Surrender

All these years i have fought surrender, and I guess I got tired of fighting.  Surrender has been so freeing.  As a friend told me, things will come when you've had enough.  And I think it may be here now or soon.  I'm tired.
R

Favorite cookie

favorite cookies?
R

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

?

I am awed by who God is.  I am learning to hope again, starting to recognize joy, and to look at life with an optimism. I really at a loss.  Words are not coming, but I just want to revel in it.  I can't explain.
R

Emotional today

Emotional today!
R

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Blessed, what do you choose?

God has a plan for me even if I don't see it.  Is it hard?  Yes.  I'm not good at this.  Now I know why and what having faith really means.  I am grateful for Lauren, a great friend to me.  He places everything.  Am I patient.  Each day is a day to learn.  Every day you live, you are given a choice.  Right now, in this moment, I just want to live.  And that is the biggest miracle.  To live life without a plan, but one, to be in tune with His.
r

Monday, October 27, 2014

Feeling sentimental

feeling sentimental.
How are you feeling?
R

leg braces

tomorrow marks one month with braces.  a little nervous...i hope that they can see improvement.  but i do know that God knows everything.  The braces are a blessing!
My life is a blessing, I am starting to see it.  Acceptance, I don't know.  Acceptance that I can see it, yes.
Baby steps!
R

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Physically tired

So tired!
R

fun one

Making progress is all I can hope.  So God THANK YOU!

a little fun

stickers or ribbon
glitter or glue
construction paper or poster board
ribbon or bowties
boots or slippers
R

God Bless

God Bless and Enjoy your day!
R

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Pray with me

i need you Lord.  The world needs you. Let me leave every unsavory thought and disappointment at your feet.  Lord, you know I've had plenty, but I am here because of you, despite myself.  You are todo which is to Everything!
R

Wednesday

what's on your mind today and heart?
R

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

realize the blessing

Lately, I am realizing my blessings and trying to appreciate them.  Sounds so simple.  All I can say is that God is REAL.  Life, has not be kind or nice, or so I thought.  I realize that He challenges those who meet them even when they think they cannot.
Return to me the joy of my salvation
Psalm 51:12
God Bless,
Regine

Zzzz

What one things wakes you up?  so sleepy
R

good day

Not fully awake yet...Have a great day, my friends!
R

Monday, October 20, 2014

Getting to know you

1.  Name
2. Country of origin
3. Where do you live?
4. Favorite Drink
5. Favorite Food
6. Food your country is known for
7.  Favorite word
8. the opposite to number 7
9.  optimist, pessimist, realist
10. Joy, hope or love

regine
USA
South Carolina
champagne
pizza, simple quail, complex
different answer for different folks...
hope
why
don't know yet
hope
r

Fall desserts

go to fall desserts?
R

Morning

Morning!
Happy Monday!
R

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Saturday, October 18, 2014

me

I never knew how emotional I would be embracing a me, that I know not.  I am crying tears.  it feels like I've lost me trying to find me.
R

Thursday, October 16, 2014

fun post 2

greece or france
hugs or smiles
grammar or etiquette
social media or post office
CDs or ITunes
R

What's on your heart?

What's on your hearts?  I don't know who or what I am anymore.  The braces gave me a reality check.  Since then, I'm lost and confused.  I'm straddling fear, indecision, and what's my next move.  I'm afraid.
R

Food

liking frosted Rice Krispies and kind bars lately!
R

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

not one of my best days

It's not one of my best days.  Christ is not in me.  But, it doesn't take much for Him to be there.  He loves me too much not to remind me of His sacrifice.
and with that, I content myself with the fact that He is ALIVE AND WELL in me.
I'm sorry Lord, for you are greater than my discontent, my grievances.  Temporary.
R

Pray

Anyone need prayer?
R

Grateful

I have been given Hope, Blessings, and Graceful Gratitude.  I am just thankful!
R

Monday, October 13, 2014

it hurts

Acceptance is painful.  And today, i feel it.  Sure, part of me wants to lie to myself, but for some reason i can not make myself do it.  do i wish i were more eloquent? yes, but i feel raw, and not too much good beauty.
R

What are you loving lately

Coffee
Letters
Walking
R

happy Day

Happy Monday!
How are you?
Regine

Saturday, October 11, 2014

learning

Walking on the treadmill with the braces on was an experience.  I have adjusted well to the braces.  it's amazing.  the saying is true.  i worn them(the braces) and you truly dont forget.  you never know why stuff happens, but He the God of all creation is great.  As I've said before, I took life for granted.  if i could, i would beg you not to.
In these 31 years, it was only until two weeks ago, that I realized my lack of judgment.
tears are falling now.
Regine

Friday, October 10, 2014

Any weekend plans?

Weekend plans?

yes

Kindness is a gift that doesn't cost much.
so overjoyed!

Loss

It is in life we find the things that really matter, we find that life is not fair, but it is ok.  it's ok to feel.  it's ok to not know.  Two weeks and your life can be better, not in a conventional sense.  My heart is crying, my heart is feeling.  I have no luxury to deny, no luxury to ask.  Answers are inconsequential.  My filter is off, that's why I measure my words more carefully.  With acceptance comes loss, and it's a loss I'm still mourning.
If you can, don't take for granted the simple things, like I did.
R

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Almost two years

it's been almost two years since the blog came to life, and I am beyond blessed!
Regine

fun post

Pink or red
Joy or contentment
CNN or MTV
Halloween or Thanksgiving
Hugs or smiles
R

Blessed

blessed, how are you?
R

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

la dolce vita

These past weeks have been some of the most painful yet humbling experiences of my life.  The braces are making me make a choice.  one to be ok, more than ok.  its letting me shed the careful craftiness of  a facade i curated so long ago, thinking i was normal.
let me tell you, normal no es mi.  My heart knows pain, joy, heartache, heartbreak, joy again, suffering and redemption.  I am not normal.
What i once wished for, God didn't grant.
i prayed for normal...i will never be that...
I AM HIS!
When I grow up what do I want to be, because normal is no longer an option

perspective

Some days despite myself, I have a sadness I can't explain, but I am grateful to be alive and healthy.
R

New day, new hope

new day, new hope!
God Bless us,
R

Saturday, October 4, 2014

We learn about us ourself when we don't know it. It's amazing, a brace can put life into simply simple small terms.

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Scared, but thankful

I got my braces today, and it was an adventure.  The experience was humbling, shocking and awesome all at once.  I was humbled.  God knows what He does and is doing!  It was an experience I won't forget.  I just am blessed!  So thank you!
Some days restore, some days just make us.
I can be mad, but it doesn't serve my purpose.
And frankly, i can't do it.
i have to laugh, for in laughter masks the tear.
and i am crying a tear of happiness now!
R

Nervous today!

nervous today. Yikes!
He is good!
R

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

I try on the braces tomorrow. Bitter yet sweet day!  I don't know if I will laugh or cry.  I'm terrified.  I thought I'd not have to have to wear them again, but sometimes reality is none too kind.  Will the braces define me,...Sorry y'all, reality, mine has set in and the truth is hard to take in.
R
Up early!  I feel weak, I need God!  Emotions running wild.  I don't feel strong. I feel like cracked, frayed. I disdain this feeling. God is speaking, but I'm afraid to execute the objective.
Pain leave me alone.
Faith take me, Take Me Over
Regine

Monday, September 29, 2014

What do you think, thought

Some days, my hope is just to be proud of what I post.  I hope you like, but should I not like it also.
Perfect is at it again!  Argh!
R

just a thought(s)

No clue what to post about, but when in doubt, be grateful for what I have,and not just as assumed, granted, expected or anything else.
God Bless!
R



Sunday, September 28, 2014

heartfelt thank yous

This blog is a blessing!  it's because of all of you!  in the times, i feel i have nothing of worthiness, you all keep building me up.  and i thank you for it has given me a smile when all i could muster was a tear.  To all of you who give me a priceless gift, your time, thank you!
Regine

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Happiness

Can be found and located
R

What do you love?

Cooking!
R

I'm struggling

im struggling folks. I want perfection.  I'm embarrassed. It difficult to even write a blog post. My will has taken over. I'm trying to fix me.
I have to go back to wearing leg braces. I'm finally letting myself acknowledge the pain. Have I let my body down. Have I let myself. Did I get lazy, complacent thinking I had defeated CP.  I can't typr the word. Denial, I know.
I'm in pain.   Right now, I am questioning writing such a scathing post.   Looking at this realistically has kept me from letting myself feel the pain.
Finally letting the tears fall.
R
Praying y'all have a great day. Jesus is good, and I am thankful and grateful!
R

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

How ahhh

it is so nice when you can have a great day, and not know why until later.
It's all about learning to be full of thanks for blessings. How simple yet...
Be with us Lord!.
R

Have a great day!

have a great daye!
Blessed with more than I deserve!
R

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Monday, September 22, 2014

Revealing


Tearing up for I know life is good, I'm blessed, and I'm in awe of how much I need to praise God!  My God, you are great!
I pray that He show you who He is!
Sitting here being still, basking in all I have to be thankful for, makes me cry tears of joy.
Acceptance of life and circumstance has been heartbreaking, yet fulling.
Crying now.
God Bless,
R


Life is good

listening to worship songs I learned in youth group!
R

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Is it perfection, overrated?

the more i think, the more i realize life isn't perfect.  the heart of man is shown when we not have a clue.  my hope is that I'm worthy of the hope He has in me?
R

Have a great day!

Have a great day!
R

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

My heart

I realize I am becoming more forgiving, for I know something that let's me see life in a way I wouldn't have previously.  Christ is with me, and certain and some things don't...what's a good and appropriate phrase for this?
R
I'm happy!
How are you?
Love and God Blessings to you all!
R

Tears

Sometimes I wonder why God loves me so much. My mom is great and Godly. I don't know why I'm so blessed. I'm just grateful!
Some things I don't understand, but I just nod
R

Monday, September 15, 2014

Fearing fear

I wish I weren't so scared.  I wish I were bold. Or is there a reason, I'm me!  Or is boldness require a certain disregard for fear?
Lot on my mind.
R

Life

What gives your spirit a spark?

R

What gives you pleasure?

A hug
A smile
Dogs
R

Friday, September 12, 2014

Any weekend plans?

Any weekend plans?
R

He is Faithful

He is Faithful!  I know it in my heart!
R
I've been realizing that God has faith in me, I just need to have faith in myself. He loved me so much to send His child to die on a Cross.  He thought I was worthy of such a Sacrifice.  It's enough motivation for me to love me. 
Happy day, my friends,
God be with you!
Regine

Thursday, September 11, 2014

What is making you joyous

What is making you smile?
A great song
God Bless,
R

Hope because of a Cross

Smile:  because I'm alive
            I have hope
            Family
            Friends
            A Heavenly Father

Why I am blessed, I can't understand why, but He is good!
Thank you. 
R

My God

I'm thankful that my God blesses me.  I'm glad He is on the throne. God is in my country. He's in my heart. On this day, let us delight in all that You are!
God Bless this nation of mine!
R

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Scared

I know I'm not not the only one, but I have a hard time waiting. I have a hard time keeping or rather letting the guards or walls down. I'm scared. In many ways, everything scares me.
God knows what I want, and honestly, I think I do too, but...
I'm so scared!
R

What would you do?

Life is a gift, and for one, don't want to waste it.
Not taking it lightly.
Living takes on a new place.
In everything, let me let You emanate.
R

Fall

Ready for cooler weather!
Regine

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Monday, September 8, 2014

Thursday, September 4, 2014

For all my pity pot, God gives you just what you need, and His mercies toward me, have left me shocked.  

Smile

What is making you smile today, at this moment?

Regine

Make me whole

God,  let me see the beauty in me, your child, your creation.
R

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

This is scary

Folks, this is scary!  I'm afraid of being hurt.  I'm scared of letting you see me. I'm afraid to show the scars, the pain. I read a quote a few minutes ago. It's one that is making me type this at the moment.  Have I not fully accepted my disability, my beauty, my everything. Does letting you, where ever you are, scare me?  Shitless!  Would I love to be issueless,  yes!  Do I wonder if I can reconcile who I am in the mirror.  Is it painful to admit, I love the Creator, but not His creation. I can't believe I'm doing this.  When you read these posts, blessing overwhelms me.
R

Hug and a Prayer to you all

I had something profound to bring today, but then I realized I was worrying of how exactly I wanted to say it. So, profound has to come back another way.
God Bless, my friend,
R

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

In You

Hope rests in a heart that can appreciate the rainbow encased in the cloud. Hope is the smile through the tears. Hope is realizing how loved you are. Hope is everywhere, He is!
R
Something on your heart?
R

Reflection

God, I want to let your love be with me.  I want to be filled with Your love. I want to be fully content, joyous.  You know me, let me know you!
R

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Revere

Sometimes I just want to be grateful, so today is a day of living in the presence of His Everything!
R

Friday, August 29, 2014

Weekend plans

Any weekend plans?

Want to know

I don't give up often, even if I say that I will. It's not in my DNA, thanks Mom.  But, is there a point where the best decision may be to do just that. Is there a way to lower standards for self without settling for mediocrity?
Honestly,
R

Learn

Anybody or anything can teach you something at any time.
R

Thursday, August 28, 2014

What's on your mind?

What's on your mind?
R

Tired

I am exhausted. The summer has been fun. But I'm cranky, tired and irritable. I surrender.  If you can handle the busyness,tip the cap.  
Any tips?
R

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Any funny stories

In need of a laugh, help.
R

Thinking

The temp is dropping and my heart's in a reflective mode. These summer months have seen me smile due to laughter, cry and just grateful.
How have you been?

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Favorite things

Favorite things?
You have any?
R

Days of summer

Loving these days.  It gives new grace.  It's a hope mere people can't replicate. I have a gratitude, for who God made me.
Thank you, my Lord
R

Hey

God has been good to me!  Humbling!
R

Monday, August 25, 2014

Sometimes we need to smile, and I received that recently. Being wanted is a feeling that is indescribable.  My heart never felt better. My soul, you can't.  I have tears of joy.

Friday, August 22, 2014

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Fighting myself

Do you ever feel like you are lost in all the "stuff" around you?  Explaining your feelings is the least of the problem.  Silence, not always best.  Letting the cries just be, for I surrender. Here I am. Little me, Big You!
R

Any desires

Any goals do you have?
Tell me!
R

Have a good day!

Have a great day!
God Bless!
R

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

There are some people who just make you smile!
R

My heart is weak

I feel so weak. I am lost. My heart doesn't know what to feel. Sometimes, I am so frustrated, but I just don't want to cause a problem. I HATE complaining, because I know there are worse problems in the world.   I need a makeover, and one a wardrobe, can't provide.  I feel like this is complaining.  But, it's honest, it's pure in that while I still care what you think, I am still typing.  Just breathing now is a relief. It's when accepting our flaws, do we accept our humanness.
God Be with us,
R

God Guide me

God be with me today and each and every day!
Guide me in every and each way!

Monday, August 18, 2014

Look at it positively

Trying to be cheerful. I want joy to be around me. I want to smile,laugh and be joyous!    Positivity needs to grace me.
God Bless y'all,
R

Have a great day!

Be blessed you all!
How are you?
R

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Happiness

Happiness is everywhere, you just have to know where to find it.
Be blessings, my friends.
R

God Bless

God Bless y'all!
Have a good day!
R

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Decision

Decide to follow Christ with a heart that is grateful.  Why is so hard to be grateful?  I have a reason why, but it's not a good one. For me, it all comes to a choice.  A decision that I make.
Being grateful.  A whole hearted thing!
God be with y'all,
R

La vie

Seasons change, but I hope my essence does not.  I needn't detest life or its circumstance. I need to just be.  Eloquence is eluding me. I would apologize, but I shan't. God bless you all!
Return to me the joy of my salvation.
R

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Sometimes you need a kind kick

Today I spent time with a great friend, and I must say I got laughs, constructive criticism in a loving way.  We went shopping, but it was depressing.  Nothing I liked,fit or was in my size.  But it wasn't until I got home really that it hit.  I was exhausted.  Physically yes, mentally, you can only imagine.  I realize I wanted my health back. I needed my confidence. The one who was proud of CP, and the conquering spirit.  The one who enjoyed shopping more than eating.  Am I ashamed to admit this?  YES. Am I scared of what you might think of me?  YES. And that is part of my problem. I care too much about shit that doesn't matter!
Will I conquer fear, love, self loathing and acceptance in a day?
I don't need to answer that.  I know the answer, and so do you.
Pray for me, if you could.
God be with you and me,
R

Love

Smile!

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Summer fun

Any summer fun slash experience to share?
R

Anything new?

Anything new?
R

It's a struggle

I try too hard.  I try too hard, and sometimes it hurts. I guess I'm seeking validation in others and it doesn't work. I'm not very patient.  It hurts to list out your flaws for the world, but I need to acknowledge that perfection is not the goal.
Thanks for listening.
God be with us!
R