Friday, July 31, 2015


I need my life to exemplify your life.  I want my focus to be on You and not external forces.  If I can do this, it will be the gift that keeps going on and on.  I don't want to take birthdays or life for granted.  I want to rely on God, not only in word, but in deed as well.
Rest in Peace, Leslie

It's almost here!

saying hi to 32!  Tomorrow is the day!
Have a great weekend!

Thursday, July 30, 2015

My desire

It was quite fun to give you my birthday list yesterday.  Today, I'd like to do something different.  If on my day, I did something for others or requested that gifts intended for me go to others.  I would love it if time or money were given to charity of my choice or others choosing.  Leslie of A Blonde Ambition's death has me thinking.  If you are so blessed to enjoy birthdays, every year, mark them with kindness.
In Christ's love,

Wednesday, July 29, 2015


My birthday is coming up and my friend Shelby voted that I share my wishlist.

1.  Amazon gift card-  I'm finding so many things I like.
2.  A pedometer-  I need to start tracking my steps again.
3.  A Paris vacation-  needs no explanation.

Happy Wednesday y'all

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Sometimes we fight because it's ultimately who we are.  We aren't meant to quit.  We are molded when we are held against the flame. We find that faith is shown when our minds and bodies tire from the strain.  The emotional toil of knowing control is the illusion.  The physical toll that is on the horizon.  It's going from merely surviving life to fighting to maintain it.  It's from knowing and believing.  Roger Federer said at Wimbledon, his main hindrance was believing.  It's true.  Without belief and a faith that withers not, you are doomed to fail.  So, I'm on a mission, to believe again.  It is rough to realize that you can no longer encourage others until you can encourage yourself.  I am having to be painfully selfish.  And it hurts me so much.
God Bless.

Monday, July 27, 2015

my wants

Today, I want to believe that I am worth it.
I want to not judge myself by my waistline.
I want to fully believe that God loves me as I am, not who I want to be.
What do you want?

Thursday, July 23, 2015


I am realizing how much life has been good to me.  I have the best gift on Earth!  Being one with Christ is the best blessing.  As I soon celebrate another birthday, I am ever so grateful!  I am realizing that who I am is enough.  I realize, I am never alone.  I realize, I have no control.
My desire for this birth year is to love self more.  Take more risks.  Be fearless.  Have a joy that people don't understand, but want for themselves.
I could tell you the material things I want, and there are a few, but I won't.  I am human after all.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Monday, July 20, 2015

this weekend

I was going to wait until tomorrow, but after seeing Elise's post on love thy neighbor, I just had to.  This weekend was one of babies and too much food.  As I look back on it now, it was a great weekend.  It is so great to be loved, and love others.

Friday, July 17, 2015

Thursday, July 16, 2015

Recalling His goodness

I'm sitting here crying this morning.  Grateful tears.  Jesus has given my life meaning.  He makes it worthwhile.  I am learning how strong I am mentally and physically, and the most part; I can accept that fact.  I will not fight how or whom God made me.  Every part of me is worthy of love.  Without God, I am not me, not whole.  God makes me whole.  I have to remember that I no longer seek the validation of man to make me whole.
I will fight battles that need to be fought.  As much as I say I don't want to fight anymore, I will.
I am a child of God, and so are you.

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Monday, July 13, 2015

good things

A post workout burn
birthday coming up
diet coke
The Lord, Jesus Christ
What are your good things?

God is good!

God is good!
Happy Monday!

Thursday, July 9, 2015

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

my thoughts

some truth:

I'm a Francophile admittedly.
My body is a temple.  Eating well has to be a part, but I need to be thankful for my body, and the beating I give it.  My feet have calluses where I never knew could get them
The more you battle, the better you learn to fight.
I should enjoy reading the Bible as much or more than I do chick lit.
I like the way Old Navy clothes fit me.
The mark of a champion is one who doesn't know they are themselves one.
Admitting that you are more than enough is a wonderful thought.


A broken one

I come today
as a broken, anxious one
My soul aches
It cries out in intermittent tears
My heart abandoned You
I'm coming back
You're the Only One
who can mend
the heart of mine

Pray for me!
Thank you!

Monday, July 6, 2015

la vida

Age and experience must be the charm.
In a few weeks, I celebrate another birthday.  I will not dread the day.  I will not contemplate all I don't have.  I want many things, but there must be a reason, I don't have them yet.  Yes, I'm human.  I get frustrated.  I get frustrated with God's timing.  I get frustrated with my braces, my thick thighs, my sense of humor.  I can't question God.  When something lacks no reason, I stop.  Questioning the Almighty left more scars than surgeries could.  God knew and still knows.   To this day, I can find flaws, but I know that's me.  God's placed people in my life who remind me to find beauty and joy.  Laughter is good for the soul!  I don't have the luxury to ask why.  It depresses me.  Life is a glass half full, a silver lining, a joie de vivre.  I need a raison d'etre.   I do not cut myself slack.  I know I should.  One of the hardest lessons for me to fully accept is that I will not be like everybody else.  I longed for normal, but I got extraordinary.  Self-deprecation is not good for me.  In finding Christ, I've finding who I am.

the difference

When Christ loves you, you are blessed.  When you love Christ, you love others.
Have a joyful day!

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Good things

Some good things
a good meal
Old Navy sale
Cherry coke zero
sore legs

Wednesday, July 1, 2015


A new month.  A task of mine is to enjoy each day as it comes.  What are yours?