Thursday, October 30, 2014

What's on your heart?

the blog that God has allowed me to have is two tomorrow, and I am blessed by the friendships I have made, the love and encouragement, and the fun i have as well.
It is a blessing, that all started with the encouragement of one of my greatest and best friends!


All these years i have fought surrender, and I guess I got tired of fighting.  Surrender has been so freeing.  As a friend told me, things will come when you've had enough.  And I think it may be here now or soon.  I'm tired.

Favorite cookie

favorite cookies?

Wednesday, October 29, 2014


I am awed by who God is.  I am learning to hope again, starting to recognize joy, and to look at life with an optimism. I really at a loss.  Words are not coming, but I just want to revel in it.  I can't explain.

Emotional today

Emotional today!

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Blessed, what do you choose?

God has a plan for me even if I don't see it.  Is it hard?  Yes.  I'm not good at this.  Now I know why and what having faith really means.  I am grateful for Lauren, a great friend to me.  He places everything.  Am I patient.  Each day is a day to learn.  Every day you live, you are given a choice.  Right now, in this moment, I just want to live.  And that is the biggest miracle.  To live life without a plan, but one, to be in tune with His.

Monday, October 27, 2014

Feeling sentimental

feeling sentimental.
How are you feeling?

leg braces

tomorrow marks one month with braces.  a little nervous...i hope that they can see improvement.  but i do know that God knows everything.  The braces are a blessing!
My life is a blessing, I am starting to see it.  Acceptance, I don't know.  Acceptance that I can see it, yes.
Baby steps!

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Physically tired

So tired!

fun one

Making progress is all I can hope.  So God THANK YOU!

a little fun

stickers or ribbon
glitter or glue
construction paper or poster board
ribbon or bowties
boots or slippers

God Bless

God Bless and Enjoy your day!

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Pray with me

i need you Lord.  The world needs you. Let me leave every unsavory thought and disappointment at your feet.  Lord, you know I've had plenty, but I am here because of you, despite myself.  You are todo which is to Everything!


what's on your mind today and heart?

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

realize the blessing

Lately, I am realizing my blessings and trying to appreciate them.  Sounds so simple.  All I can say is that God is REAL.  Life, has not be kind or nice, or so I thought.  I realize that He challenges those who meet them even when they think they cannot.
Return to me the joy of my salvation
Psalm 51:12
God Bless,


What one things wakes you up?  so sleepy

good day

Not fully awake yet...Have a great day, my friends!

Monday, October 20, 2014

Getting to know you

1.  Name
2. Country of origin
3. Where do you live?
4. Favorite Drink
5. Favorite Food
6. Food your country is known for
7.  Favorite word
8. the opposite to number 7
9.  optimist, pessimist, realist
10. Joy, hope or love

South Carolina
pizza, simple quail, complex
different answer for different folks...
don't know yet

Fall desserts

go to fall desserts?


Happy Monday!

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Saturday, October 18, 2014


I never knew how emotional I would be embracing a me, that I know not.  I am crying tears.  it feels like I've lost me trying to find me.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

fun post 2

greece or france
hugs or smiles
grammar or etiquette
social media or post office
CDs or ITunes

What's on your heart?

What's on your hearts?  I don't know who or what I am anymore.  The braces gave me a reality check.  Since then, I'm lost and confused.  I'm straddling fear, indecision, and what's my next move.  I'm afraid.


liking frosted Rice Krispies and kind bars lately!

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

not one of my best days

It's not one of my best days.  Christ is not in me.  But, it doesn't take much for Him to be there.  He loves me too much not to remind me of His sacrifice.
and with that, I content myself with the fact that He is ALIVE AND WELL in me.
I'm sorry Lord, for you are greater than my discontent, my grievances.  Temporary.


Anyone need prayer?


I have been given Hope, Blessings, and Graceful Gratitude.  I am just thankful!

Monday, October 13, 2014

it hurts

Acceptance is painful.  And today, i feel it.  Sure, part of me wants to lie to myself, but for some reason i can not make myself do it.  do i wish i were more eloquent? yes, but i feel raw, and not too much good beauty.

What are you loving lately


happy Day

Happy Monday!
How are you?

Saturday, October 11, 2014


Walking on the treadmill with the braces on was an experience.  I have adjusted well to the braces.  it's amazing.  the saying is true.  i worn them(the braces) and you truly dont forget.  you never know why stuff happens, but He the God of all creation is great.  As I've said before, I took life for granted.  if i could, i would beg you not to.
In these 31 years, it was only until two weeks ago, that I realized my lack of judgment.
tears are falling now.

Friday, October 10, 2014

Any weekend plans?

Weekend plans?


Kindness is a gift that doesn't cost much.
so overjoyed!


It is in life we find the things that really matter, we find that life is not fair, but it is ok.  it's ok to feel.  it's ok to not know.  Two weeks and your life can be better, not in a conventional sense.  My heart is crying, my heart is feeling.  I have no luxury to deny, no luxury to ask.  Answers are inconsequential.  My filter is off, that's why I measure my words more carefully.  With acceptance comes loss, and it's a loss I'm still mourning.
If you can, don't take for granted the simple things, like I did.

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Almost two years

it's been almost two years since the blog came to life, and I am beyond blessed!

fun post

Pink or red
Joy or contentment
Halloween or Thanksgiving
Hugs or smiles


blessed, how are you?

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

la dolce vita

These past weeks have been some of the most painful yet humbling experiences of my life.  The braces are making me make a choice.  one to be ok, more than ok.  its letting me shed the careful craftiness of  a facade i curated so long ago, thinking i was normal.
let me tell you, normal no es mi.  My heart knows pain, joy, heartache, heartbreak, joy again, suffering and redemption.  I am not normal.
What i once wished for, God didn't grant.
i prayed for normal...i will never be that...
When I grow up what do I want to be, because normal is no longer an option


Some days despite myself, I have a sadness I can't explain, but I am grateful to be alive and healthy.

New day, new hope

new day, new hope!
God Bless us,

Saturday, October 4, 2014

We learn about us ourself when we don't know it. It's amazing, a brace can put life into simply simple small terms.

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Scared, but thankful

I got my braces today, and it was an adventure.  The experience was humbling, shocking and awesome all at once.  I was humbled.  God knows what He does and is doing!  It was an experience I won't forget.  I just am blessed!  So thank you!
Some days restore, some days just make us.
I can be mad, but it doesn't serve my purpose.
And frankly, i can't do it.
i have to laugh, for in laughter masks the tear.
and i am crying a tear of happiness now!

Nervous today!

nervous today. Yikes!
He is good!