Sunday, April 30, 2017


I got back from vacation and enjoyed it. I found a few things to be true.
My body is more resilient than I thought.
Vacation isn't vacation if I bring the same mindset with me.
I enjoyed more cookies than I care to count.
I'm changing.
And that's ok.

Thursday, April 27, 2017

Friday, April 21, 2017

Wednesday, April 19, 2017


Detox from negativity and ignorance. I used to think ignorance was bliss. How wrong was I?  Lead me Lord.



Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Getting personal

I am feeling scared. Scared of failure, messing up, getting it wrong, and waiting too long because I don't want to face the fear. I know I can't hide forever, but it's comfortable. Why must I crave comfort?  Lord, God I need You to let me face my fear.

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Friday, April 14, 2017

Good Friday

It is Good Friday. And all I can wonder is if I've spread myself too thin. Doubt and worry have got come in. I'm thinking of all that could go wrong, and if it does it will be all my fault. But it's Good Friday keeps coming to mind. All this to say, in seven years of being a Christian, is that I have to remember what drew me to Him and what keeps me there.

Wednesday, April 12, 2017


This is my heart. My heart wonders if I will find love. A man to love me, all of me. I realize I must love self first. If it doesn't happen can I still find acceptance and joy in Christ, the deliverer of my soul.
My heart wonders if I will see Paris.
My heart wonders if I can find the beauty in each day.

Pen pals

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Sunday, April 9, 2017

Pain and Peace

I'm learning each day. Learning lessons I wished I fully learned years ago.  Would it have saved me some pain. As I lower expectations of people, do I include myself?  Do I hold on to the promises of who God says I am versus what the world tells me?  An eye opener for sure. How does stay an idealist when seeing harsh realities that unsettle my being.

Friday, April 7, 2017

Thursday, April 6, 2017


I'm learning what it is to perservere once again. When I was younger I relished the challenge Cerebral  Palsy forced me to face. Now, not so much. I don't have the desire to fight the battle. Part of me now weighs do I pick that fight back up or lay it down.   Do I fight for justice, or just live, having faith that that alone is enough?

Tuesday, April 4, 2017


Sour worms
Hershey kisses


Flipped in my Bible.  I came to Proverbs 11:2. I got humbled quick. My heart and head have been filled with self-pity because I have had my heart on what I wanted, not what I have. Sometimes the only One who can humble you is God.

Saturday, April 1, 2017