Yes

 Writing 

By moonlight

Creation abounds

When mystery

Becomes your reality

Desire

 Help me

Not regret yesterday 

But learn 

From it

Embrace

 Hug me

Wrap me

In a warm embrace 

As I crave 

A snowy ground

And piping fireplace 

Sing

 Let my heart sing 

Worry fade

Anxiety dissipate 

In Your name

Lord Jesus 

😃

 Smile

Give thanks

And be grateful 

You are loved 

Beyond compare

Beautiful

 Don’t worry 

About what

Others do

You make 

Yourself sick

Over

Which you 

Have no

Control 

Exile

 Staring at 

The screen

Wanting something 

Else but tears

To fall

When

Will I return 

From mental

Exile

Yesterday

 It’s so hard

To be present 

When all

You can do

Is replay

Yesterday 

Thoughts

 Anxiety

Depression

Panic attacks

The trifecta

COVID isn’t 

Getting me

It’s my thoughts

The battle

I fight

Is the one

With my mind

And I’m exhausted 

I can’t remember anything 

My concentration is gone

Focus lacking

I cry

All the time

I’m agitated

And emotionally wrecked

I can’t look

At myself 

In the mirror 

Tomorrow

 I am grateful 

For the chili beans 

In the crockpot 

The music 

That lets

My soul rest

Being content 

In today

Not worried 

About tomorrow 

😃

 One minute 

Moments in time

Be still 

Today 

❤️

 Grateful 

Hopeful 

Restored

Sky

 Morning sky

Morning light

Bright light

Starry sky

Mine

You are 

love

 Sanctify me

strengthen me

take my fear

make me 

a vessel

of brave goodness

Smile

 Smile

Just do it

Fake it

Make it

Struggling

 Jesus 

Anxiety 

Is deep

In my soul 

And 

I’m struggling 

Candy

 Sweetheart

Sweet tart

Candy days

In a candy haze

❤️

 Be grateful 

Have faith 

Believe 

Repeat

Hope

 Hope resides

Faith arises

When I acknowledge 

The weakness 

And know

Strength comes

When I accept 

Help

Appreciated

 Writing 

I hate

To love 

You

I need

You

More than 

I know 

Or ever

Appreciated 

Thank you

 Thank you 

For the support 

You give me

I’m humbled 

depths

 Disability and Depression

I don't know 

which one

has been 

a bigger nemesis

Disability and therapy

Are a lifelong affair

and accepting that fact

Right now

is the most clarity

I've had yet

i can't go back

in time

Because 

Therapy 

is a one hour exercise

in letting my brain exhale

I'm just finally glad

I'm articulating this

at this moment

it's amazing 

what listening

to european football

and music

on in the background

to get me to focus

God is editing 

my brain

so I don't 

scare you

or myself

wondering

how much 

to say

or leave

to the 

imagination

the level

of despair

to which

I can go

God happens

to be

The Only One

Who forces me

into the depths

so I don't 

meet the abyss

Navigate

 Each day 

A struggle 

To straddle

A world 

So hard

To navigate 

Not knowing 

Where

You fit

When 

You decide 

To make

An opening 

Your opportunity 

Surrender

 Plunging

Ocean deep

Where faith

and fear 

converge

wet

swimming 

not stopping

to ask why

Tongue

tasting

saltiness

and understanding

true surrender

hand

 I'm having

to meet you

every day

my heart

and mind

need to

be reassured

that your promise

doesn't rest

on what 

others do

i see you

as the One

who guards

and restores

the brokenness

i feel

I'm uncomfortable

unnerved

questioning

looking for

contentment

in Your hands