Overthinking
The crux
Of the problem
That crosses
My mind
Each and every day
So today
I need
Nature
To be my focus
Or means
Of redirection
Overthinking
The crux
Of the problem
That crosses
My mind
Each and every day
So today
I need
Nature
To be my focus
Or means
Of redirection
Fighting the rage
Coursing through
My veins
Anger doesn’t serve
My soul anyway
Channel the fear
If only to
Bring the challenge
To eye level
Making what
Is bothering you
A goal to master
Instead of it
Becoming your
Master
Three things
Practicing gratitude in even the smallest measures is good for the soul.
Waking up and good coffee is on my list today.
Been feeling anxious lately. Can’t pinpoint the reason. It’s there. If you would pray please.
I’m smiling because you my friends are great.
Love yourself and one another
Floating
On the high seas
Of love
Where hope
Is a constant
And joy
Is my ever faithful
Companion
Find me dreaming
Of pink sands
Cerulean waters
And a fruity libation
Where reality
Is the figment
Of my imagination
The blades
Of the skate
Spray ice
Like flying
Fairy dust
The punches
Black eyes
And melees
Pitting brawny men
Fighting over
A puck
Make hockey
So fun to see
Right now
The chilly winds
Chaffing my skin
And right now
I’m chasing it
With fervor
Because with
Cool and collected breaths
Bring serenity
To a soul
In need
Of the stillness
Only He
Can grant me
Tell me something making you smile today?
Still using the gifts given to me by the sweetest blog friend. Every time I use them, I smile. Unexpected gifts pay dividends even months later. Thank you friend.
A crisp
Morning walk
With my old
Furry and fuzzy friend
Put a pep
My step
A song in my heart
A peace to my soul
And a dream
I need to
Continue to chase
God
And my daily constitution
What a combination
A wise lady
Told me recently
That where
My head and heart
Meet
Is exactly
The place
He is
I wasn’t in
A place of worship
But in nature
Was the place
I chose to worship
Sunday fun
Some of my favorite treats
Ginger chews
Gummy bears
Looking forward to the NHL playoffs
And some baseball
Any book or podcast recommendations?
What does your Sunday look like?
I forgive you
For expecting
You to fulfill
My every desire
I’m sorry for asking
For more
Than you
Could give
I took offense
When your words
Harmed my
Fragile ego
And wounded soul
Now knowing
What wasn’t given
Was not yours
To supply
Forgiveness granted
Because to receive it
I must give it
It is such a gift
To be known
By You
And yet
So unknown
By the populace
I enjoy it now
Because that may
Not always the plan
His plan
Love yourself and one another
Being on the island
Alone
Is better
Than following
A crowd
Where
I may lose
The most precious commodity
Am I willing
To let it slip
To be loved
For all the
Wrong reasons
Lonely
I used to loathe
The feeling
But now
What I
Couldn’t understand
Has become
The Northern Star
Love yourself and one another
Every experience
A lesson
In perseverance
And a need
To be in deep
Gratitude
For He is
With me
In the dental chair
The grocery store
And in my
Periphery
When my
Free will
Runs like a cheetah
With afterburners
Because I’m
Too stubborn
Or impatient
To enjoy
The mundane
That the
World over
Would consider
A privilege
When one is still
Listening becomes vital
What I get out
Is what
Is put in
Being selective
As what deserves
My attention
No need
To be jealous
Anxious
Or envious
Letting the Creator
Gut me
To rebuild
A person
I can recognize
With pride
And admiration
Seeking popularity
And notoriety
For human appreciation
About destroyed
My soul
The more one
Doesn’t know
Is winning
These days
It’s not hollow
But an affirmation
That who I am
Is a blessing
One I’ve so
Deceptively dismissed
At the peril
Of my own
Mind
Love yourself and one another
Lessons learned from yesterday
Not every question will have an answer. The secret is how one adapts to change. You didn’t ask me to figure it out, you just ask for trust.
Do I trust
You enough
To cease fighting
The change that
Will come
Even if
I’m not ready
Keep your eyes
On the prize
Christ has
Set before you
Eyes to see
Hope
The soul
To welcome
The flares
Of fire
My heart
To seek
Love
The body
To find
Effusive joy
Because
I’m armed
By the King
Of Heaven
Who came
To Earth
Living fearlessly
Without doubt
Of tomorrow’s outcome
The Son
In me
Within me
To rise
On the wings
Of angels
To lead me
In my efforts
Now and forever
My desire
Is that
God is present
Ridding myself
Of my own fleshly ambitions
Has been a battle
Not without sin
Here in these parts
I don’t deny it
The fact is
I need forgiveness
For my wayward thoughts
Stripping my worldly wants
For a faith
Tested and redeemed
Is taking on
A new level
Of patience
Don’t ask me
To pray for it
I haven’t
And He is
Still having me
Seek what
I don’t want
Don’t question
If God
Won’t do it
It happens every day
Every time
Why
Is uttered by
My lips
I get
Taught
Another lesson
In what
It means to wait
Admit defeat
Yet say thank you
Anyway
Lord
Today
I will have
To confront
The limitations
Of my health
Procedure day
Never gets easier
Peace cover me
As I step
Into unknown places
Love me
As you do
Even if
No one knows
You are my audience
If anybody knows me
Let it be
Because of
My proximity
To you
The lover
Of my soul
We look
To fame
And wealth
To define
Our worth
And we fail
Every time
Because our hearts
Need new focus
Not a judgement
Or indictment
Of others
Just a necessary reminder
Of what
You desire
Of me
I don’t understand
The why
Beyond your motives
But I trust
Because
You’ve proven
To be worthy
Of all my praise
Please pray for someone near and dear to my heart. May He provide healing and His providential Power.
Sunday love and blessings
Friday
Three things I’m grateful for
Being honest and not lying to myself. If you’ve been in denial for any length of time, I don’t need to explain this.
The grace and mercy of God are allowing me to be honest. There is nothing perfect in my life, but Him. I’ve struggled mentally for years, and couldn’t get out of my own head. I finally got so physically tired, I surrendered without knowing that’s what I was doing.
I’m grateful to wake up without pain most days. I’m grateful medical advancements allow me to stretch and exercise. You don’t get to choose much in this life, but you choose how to modify to your ability.
Second
Any prayer requests? It doesn’t matter if you believe or not, I will still intercede. I believe enough for you and me. I plant seeds, he waters them.
Third
Anything that made you smile
Thank you CC at Couture Carrie for a wonderful book that arrived in my mailbox. If you know anything about me is that I love unexpected gifts. Love you friend.
I’ve come
To terms
That my worth
Doesn’t come
From what
Is thought of me
I’m not a star
No athletic talent
Not loud
Introverted
A little stoic
I have masks
For each emotion
I’ve hidden
Everything
But my heart
Knows the lie
Must end
I have Cerebral Palsy
I’m just learning
How to not
Let the truth
Of my condition
Determine the health
Of my happiness
Late blooming
Takes on different meanings
And I’m finally
Surfacing for air
Clawing from
Obscurity
To proudly declare
I don’t know
Who I am yet
But I know
Who I’m not
I’d given up
Hope when
My hopes
Seemed
To become
Old wineskins
And then
I realized
I was trying
To pour new
Experiences
Into old vessels
It doesn’t work
It’s taken
40 years
To want
To get acquainted
With myself
It’s only
Because
What I wanted
Needed most
Was healing
It wasn’t going
To happen
Until I gave
Forgiveness
To self
For something
I didn’t cause
When your being
Is fully aligned
To who you’re
Meant to be
Your soul
Will feel
Like
The heavens
Have opened up
Ready to douse
You in a rush
Of refreshing
H2O
Rainy day here
For the first
The desire
To flee
My current location
Isn’t as rampant
Because for me
To appreciate
What I have now
Will increase
His confidence
In me
That my
Dreams
Will elevate me
Instead of causing
Inner warfare
I’ve been told
This for years
I’ve had to
Experience this
With great delicacy
And be attuned
To how this lesson
Would finally hit
My stream of consciousness
To the
Ends of
The earth
I encounter
The I AM
In contrast
To the who
I am
It’s a
Most humbling
Experience
To be a speck
A mustard seed
Among the galaxies
Looking up yesterday
I wasn’t able
To see the eclipse
But I reveled
In the knowledge
Of how
He made
Darkness descend
Upon daylight
For millions
To see
Erasing doubt
For throngs
Of cynical
Humans
Lord
I was wrong
Not in
The path
Of totality
But in totality
Watching
You work
Your magic
With the evidence
Of your Hands
Leaves me
Going back
To the days
Searching
For you
To save me
From myself
I no longer
Look on
The past
With bitterness
But with appreciation
For what you’ve
Forced me
To conquer
In my loneliness
Thank you
Solar eclipse
For the light
To look back
Without shallow indifference
But absolute awe
And what
You do
When my
Attention
Is elsewhere
Years ago
The mention
Of God
Would leave
Leave me
Running
For the hills
And right now
God and
His grace
Is the only reason
I rise
To fight
Another day
Even when
My understanding
Of the why
Is mired
In the knowledge
That what
I’d like to know
Most
May never
Be answered
Learning
To be okay
With that reality
Is what
I try not
To ponder much
Living in the present
And not the
Presence
Of what
I don’t know
Is the biggest obstacle
To my happiness
Or sanity
Or both
Keeping it
Honest
No perfect lives
Here
Just hard knocks
Disability
Will shove
Perfect
Down the
Drain
Faster
Than I can utter
Coherent thoughts
Giving it all away
The fear
The pain
The uncertainty
Is allowing me
To sleep
In peace
Without waking
At midnight
In a cold sweat
I don’t know
If you want
To be able
To visualize
This one
The solar eclipse
Might be
The star today
But a happy soul
Is mine today
Ball caps
And baseballs
Dirt and grass stains
On those pants
Of spring
That send
My heart a flutter
A smile
And a walk
Seem to give
My anxious thoughts
A pause
One I’ve never
Been more grateful for
Simple steps
In redirection
Finally seeing
The fruits
Of gentle instruction
Love yourself and one another
Dreaming of
A vacation
In a place
New to me
Where my soul
Feels like
It’s been cleansed
By living water
Where thirst
Doesn’t exist
Any longer
Lord
You never fail
To put me
In the places
Where
I am meant
To be
And not
In spaces
That lead
To dismay
Remind me
Of your
Power
So I may cede
My own
Let me
Love you
As you
Have loved me
Not that
It can be matched
Anyway
Some fun Monday questions
Where is your next vacation going to be?
Last song you listened to?
Best book you read last week?
Best meal you made last week?
Best meal someone made you last week?