New Year

 Cruising out

Of the year

Leaving disappointment 

Out the 

Rear view mirror

Saying hello

To hope 

And expectant

Peace

2021

Ready 

To meet 

You with

A smile

Glow

 Dancing

as I type

put that

happy face

on

I'm moving

Groovin 

and 

overcast skies

can't dim

my glow

Sweet delight

 Writing is 

much like

making spaghetti sauce

yesterday I cried

While chopping onions

sautéed them

watching them

turn brown

and soften

then i had

to brown meat

thoroughly and completely 

then came 

the sauce

the bright

richness

of aroma

coming together

in color

and consistency

and all 

I could feel

was relief

and pride 

upon completion

the task

seemed

untenable

in the beginning

but at 

the end

i tasted

satisfaction

A sweet delight

Friend

 Remembering 

The places

That soothe 

My soul

And make

Me smile

Walking 

Around

The yacht club

Petting

Every furry dog

That would 

Let me

Being

One

With

My four-legged

Friends

soul

 i had 

to get

back to writing

idle hands

are not

good for

this anxious

i don't know

how things

will work out

I'm projecting

into next week

and what if 

this happens

i don't like

having to go

to Plan B

disability

is coming

into play

when everything

you do

is dependent

on another

control

i want it

but don't 

have it

and its 

making me

insane

having trouble

believing

even when

He proves

Himself

to me

every day

in every way

Merry Christmas

 Merry Christmas 

My friends 

Peace 

To all

Love and joy

As I trust 

In you

My Lord

This beautiful 

Season

mustard seed

 When you 

know the call

you do it

even when

i don't feel 

it's that good

Obeying you

not leaning

on my 

own understanding 

just became 

real in

this moment

so i continue

to be faithful

in the small 

So that

you are glorified

magnified

and revered

May mustard seeds

become the roots

of greatness

for the Lord

who reigns 

supreme

in my heart

Aimless

 Dancing 

Aimlessly moving

Time

And space

Relative

Getting lost

In music

Spinning 

In perfect pirouette 

Leg extended 

Straight 

Imaging

Long

Clean lines

Coming from

A body

Far from

Delicate and graceful 

Monday

 Pray that

I trust Him

and release

my fear

let is go

So I can fly

and find peace

in the only way

it is found

Lord

help

me 

to fight

the demons

consuming

the mind

you remind me

that suffering

is part

of the process

Without it

I wouldn't be

where I 

am now

Thank you

for always

seeing my heart

even when 

I want

to shield it

and run

Each day

you have me

face the giant

and slay

whatever 

is in the way

Rest

 sticks break

stones stand

and with you

I'm firmly rooted

in the knowledge

that my job

isn't to know

it's to follow

right now

I'm confused

and concerned

but in Your Omnipotence

I'm to rest

in the One

who gives it 

wholly and 

without resistance

or reservation

Day

 Lord

Keep my mind

On your promise 

For when 

I stray

I meet 

Rabbit hole

Thank you 

For today 

Another chance 

To get

It right

And seek

The face

That meets

Mine

🙏

 Because 

Of the breath 

I have

I’m grateful 

To do this

Share in 

The pain

Rejoice 

With you

And be 

A friend 

In this space

In this place

Today 

And 

Every day 

smile

 body 

mind

not there yet

what is bringing

a smile today

Doc

 As I lay 

On the table

The needle 

Wouldn’t go

Had to 

Call the doc

Thirty years

Experience 

Did the trick

Experience and 

Bedside manner

Lord calming

Anxiety 

With a smile 

Thank you

 I’m here

Took time

For some 

Medical procedures 

Exhausted but okay 

Thank you 

For checking 

On me

right here, right now

 Nature

Proving yourself

Once again

rest comes

When 

my garments

touch yours

hasn't stopped

happening yet

Sweet Lord

in the past week

I've stopped

and smelled

and seen 

the goodness

of Your Hands

thankful and humbled

are just surface emotions

ones that can be seen

Revealing something

I haven't noticed

but is there

The essence of faith

is right here

right now

yes the truth is here

 What disability teaches you

Humility

Perseverance 

How to be uncomfortable 

humble enough

to admit you

can only type

twenty words 

a minute

do not have 

full range of motion

and my legs 

hurt after

sitting 

or standing 

too long

Perseverance 

To recognize

What you used

to deny

even if

meant you 

were lying

and know

to truth

telling

is fulfilling

how to be uncomfortable 

This is so hard

because often

your discomfort

must be seen

to get help

Pride must fall

every day

in every way

Thank you

 What has

2020 taught you

slow down

take a breath

and try to laugh

i did today

and my soul

said thank you

❤️

 For in Christ

I’m free 

To love

The unloved

The despised

The disheveled 

The unkempt

Because I’ve 

Emulated

The one

I serve

Candy cane

 Twirling my 

lips 'round

the candy cane

red and white

now my lipstick

du jour

merry and happy

with my sweet tooth

Satisfied

find happiness

is simplicity

because the ordinary

is the extraordinary

we remember

Read

 This isn't my standard fare

But this needs 

to be said

What happened

to love your neighbor

As yourself

Our selfishness

Is killing others

It's no longer funny

not that it ever was

The idea of individualism

Is haunting the collective

Be kind

Love God

by loving others

Chilled

 Cold bones

Warm heart

The chill

runs up 

My spine

down to 

The toes

Dreaming

Of a sauna

or Turkish bath

What are you

dreaming of

today?

Move

 Walking in the woods

The earth beneath

My feet

Silent 

Filled 

With peace

And contentment

For as I move

Stillness

is at hand

 Writing 

Meant to 

Be shared

Not hidden 

If life

Teaches anything 

Hiding never

Did something 

For seekers 

Until

It approached 

The light

Pear

write by candlelight

 smell of pears 

wafting through

 the air 

bringing a

 sense of beautiful serenity 

in troubling times

 and unknown eras

eyes

 Singing off key

Worship

True

Unfiltered

Holy

authentic

Wholly engrossed

In respect

and reverent

praise

For the sustainer

Of everything 

I am 

And will be

Can I get an amen?

Use these words

For Your glory

You can make anything

worthwhile

Make this pleasing 

In your Eyes

smile today

 What is 

making you smile

today

dear friends

miracles

 Fresh faced

freckled

mustering strength 

activating faith

asking and receiving 

mercies and grace

I don't deserve

but signs

tell me

they're waiting 

for me

With one word

Please

Shell

 Something 

I'm realizing

I'm afraid to ask

For anything

From anyone

I can ask God

But i can't ask

for help

From His fellow creation

Pray I can be bold

I've shrunk

Back in the shell

Joy

 Sleeping by

Lot Christmas tree

Pure joy

Experienced

Last night 

The season

And the reason

Meet

Sun

 Sun 

Peeking through 

The puffy clouds

Has me giddy

Like a little girl

Twirling 

In a pink tutu

Simplicity 

Has its joy

On this 

Last day

Of November 

Allow

 This morning

Everywhere I look

I see God 

telling me

To slow down

I've always

been told slow 

is not ideal

but slow

I must go

My limitations

don't define me

But my body

doesn't do fast

When it does

I pay

and now

When the physical

is to expensive

Mentally

I suffer

and I'm 

worth more

Here's to slow

Relish it

you're allowed

❤️

 In this space 

I get to be

One with feelings 

That have been 

Suppressed too long

Care

 Fragile 

Handle with care

The state

Of my mind

These days 

dewy

 Dewy and fresh

like each new morning

abounding with hope

And joyful praise

Sing

its a new day

The Lord has made

giving up

 A friend reminded me

in my fragility

in my brokenness

I am what 

God wants

For the first time

I'm so tired

that surrender

is the only option

That comes to mind

The tears come

not wiping them

being one 

He's waited

for me

to be fully ensconced 

in torment

that the only recourse

I'm seeking

is one 

man cannot give

I was told

I'd come to this point

didn't know when

God always wins

He just gives enough

So wayward children

like me

find the light

Once they've

Had enough

of trying

to do it all

their way

embrace weakness

where strength is found

and bolstered 

for a lifetime

work

 The Lord says

enjoy your work

so let my imagination

go wild

the beaches

of St.Barth's

await me

basking in glamour

glitz and leisure

Falling asleep

as calm waves

bring my toes

peace and hope

turn off

the thinking cap

and let dreams

become memories

less

 broken

addicted to fear

haven't been able

to say these words

but i need to release it

and share this 

painful period

it's held me

in a predicament

I've not been

able to shake

Sharing here

is a first step

in locking eyes

not backing down

from what

leaves me

motionless

heart

 you will be free

when you stop

trying to fix

follow and comply

Stop

it's your mandate

for your sanity

and health

I plead with you

Give it up

Your soul needs 

True rest

it hasn't known it

In years

because your obedience

isn't all there

You follow

but don't surrender

la vida

 English

not my favorite 

or first language

My roots

are vast

the strength 

I have is

from a people

who knew

suffering

and determination

Who knew

how to flow

fight and rest

The former

and latter

and linked

for successful

perseverance 

into a life

worth millions

Melody

 Rocking on the porch

letting the sun

melt away 

my fears

as i rest

listening

to my favorite 

Beethoven melody

Apology

 Confession

I apologize for everything

Whether I'm wrong or not

And every part of me

Needs to be set free

from my own expectation

or desire for perfection

God break me

from this addiction

It's making me sick

Make me

What you wish

So I may dwell

in that special space

Arroz con pollo

 Warm heart

Cold bones

Remembering 

The arroz con pollo

Made with love

Cuba brought 

To the kitchen

The smell 

Of a tropical paradise 

I could only imagine 

Food that fed me

Now nourishes my soul

Forevermore 

I miss the place

That made 

The person 

Receiving

 In your faithfulness

you have afflicted me

Lord

I flipped 

to the right page

today and forevermore

My mindset has 

Been wrong

For a long time

I kept asking

And I found

it in Your Word

Where I should have

Been all this time

Let this sink in

You will receive

When He deems

it time

affliction

is not negative

in these years

nobody could make me

Believe this

But I'm rejoicing

in the revelation

Thank you

Farm

 You want to grow

Some manual labor

Will do the trick

Smell the dirt

Be fulfill

Get dirty

be relieved

find faith

While getting

ready to sow again

Farmwork

Will give you

a new lease

on what it is

to be God's creation

try it

be amazed

Sunlight

 Sunlight 

Coming through 

The window

Is my elixir 

balm

 The balm

of Your word

means peace

is mine

if I ask

Hug

 Guard my lips

from the pain

words can cause

stay silent

God do your thing

the blood is boiling

the disdain stirring

keep me from

My own thoughts

Focus on the goodness

That is with me

There isn't a problem

you don't know

So i bask

in your answer

May Your Grace 

be my gratitude

Winter white snow

 Whipping wind

Chilly frost

Winter 

approaching

To cleanse

Earthly realms

and wipe 

with wet 

white ice

a note

to step back

handle

with a delicate finger

and let nature

take the lead

Then the powder

comes as 

a calming reminder

of living

in the moment

kiss my lips

caress my skin

and leave me

Not as you

found me

offer

 fire in the heart

icy veins

hoping

the former

returns

to the latter

May the bright

flicker 

return 

to a soul

burdened

by a 

world

needing

reconciliation

God touch

it all

make our souls

reach consensus

to be a people

free to do right

Seek justice

and love humbly

Forgiveness

 Write

let it out

your bitterness

must leave

and only

you can

send it

out the door

The dirty work

happens now

before it

swallows 

me whole

i let others

marginalize me

and it still 

eats at me

I have to forgive

them 

so that 

I can 

live a life

full of the

potential

I have

I've denied its

existence

but not now

With each word

God provides manna

As provision

to continue

The work 

before me

Nips

Nips

were your favorite 

or so you made

me believe

I'd always

Swipe the 

last one

you had to

tell me

more than once

don't chew them

I can buy more

I didn't know

Now all

this time

I would 

cry

at the thought

Of a piece

of candy

Everytime

i looked

in that ornate mirror

i knew love

but couldn't

Accept it 

And now

I'm thinking

that if sobbing

burned calories

I'd be five pounds

lighter

after today's session

 Lord

You've done it

Redeeming pain

And making

it useful

and worthwhile

the more

I've doubted

The more

you blast

the barriers

I made

The more 

tears fall

the more 

I've made

your past

Redemptive

and necessary

for a hurting world

to read

Cerebral Palsy

has given you

too much

not to pay

it back

you share now

not because you want to

I've always made

you dissatisfied

so you can do 

the one thing

that makes 

life worth living

I will never forget

A pastor disappointing me

for telling me

What I needed 

to hear

not what I wanted

And right now

The biggest blessing

is being told no

Do you need 

To be told no

today

Never forgotten

 As I write

And reminisce

I remember

Her words

And with 

Each day

I become her

My smile

is hers

My love

of trinkets

Mirrors 

her own

Every piece 

has a memory

Her collection

of elephants

adorn the 

desk

Where I sit

in this moment

I use her dishes

Daily

It's my act

of love

and desire

to keep

her alive

Even if

She is

no longer

With me

Coppertone

 Sweating 

on the treadmill

Brings me back

to riding up 

the top floor

To work out

and look out

at the ocean

At the same time

The things

I despised the most

Are now what 

I treasure

Never take

Ocean views

for granted

And the 

people who 

made them worthwhile

I miss

the scent

of saltwater

and sunscreen

Childhood

brought

to you

by the makers

of Coppertone

Rejoice

 Resist

Persist

The fire resides

it mustn't be

extinguished

by doubt

self-sabotage

and the indifference

plaguing

that soul

of yours

that says

Your efforts

are meaningless

suffering from

imposter syndrome

right now

my destiny

is held

by the 

One and Only

Not you Satan

Reclaiming

my title

As a worthy

And loved

Daughter 

of the King

purpose

 i write daily

with doubt

questions

and every emotion

i know 

write for yourself

but what if 

I want the words

i type

to mean something

matter

make smiles

tears

or a light bulb

go off

I'm human

needing affirmation 

that this 

endeavor 

has purpose

and deep resonance

 Feel the fear

Taste the tears

And rise again

Knowing 

How far

You’ve come

Latin

 Sitting on the balcony

Remembering your throaty laugh

Trying to recreate it

While not sobbing

is a hard task

I miss looking down

at the pool

and having 

talks in broken Spanish

to every neighbor

Who already knew 

I was one of your

grandchildren

The way you 

were loved

is something today

that I aspire

to be known for

That says

She is mine

Latin roots

you leave them

but they don't 

leave you

They reappear

never to be

shunned again

Abuelita

 i miss my grandmother

regaling me

With stories

of her time in

Odessa and Havana

In her tales

I took a trip

to exotic places

or so it seemed

her story

is my history

and I'm proud

my lineage

the one 

I laid 

no claim to

is the one

I'm desperately

trying to recapture

Sabado

 Dios

Calmate mi alma

Necesito descansar

Cuando era nina

Mi abuelita

me daba

una galletica

y el televisor

estaba mi compañero

Don Francisco

y después

continuaron

Con las telenovelas

En su honor

Voy a mirar 

Univision hoy

Mi español 

no es tan bueno

pero voy a escribir mas

En mi primera lengua

Si quieres corrector me

haslo por favor

step up

 Good sleep

hot chocolate

great music

Starting my day

in gratitude

Lord,

Guide your dominion

With truth

Followers of Christ

I've spoken with nonbelievers

Or disaffected Christians

We better start acting right

Our witness is whittling away

With each day that goes by

thinking

 i looked

at scars

i've had 

for two decades

the marks

don't fade

the memories do

As exhausted

As I am

I have waited

for them

to depart

Accepting

that my 

legs

and heel

and now

abdomen

will permanent

reminders

of fiery resilience

see me

 Forgive yourself

Your sins

Are forgiven

I love you 

Too much

For you 

Not to 

love what 

I created

I seek your 

Face

because

I need

reassurance

Of who

I am in you

Mine

 When I learn

to stop being perfect

Shed the curated facade

Wholly open

Not fearing reprisal

Will I 

know peace

for freedom

Has become mine

Purposeful

 Created with reason

Designed for purpose

I'm here

Use me

I'm a pearl

a bright diamond

not meant 

To be hidden

To make

Others

feel better

Pride

 Swell of pride

wave of relief

A joy

My face

hasn't stopped

Smiling

For on

A throne

Resides

a King

Named Jesus

What are you feeling today?

hope

 Thank you

Lord

For being

What we 

Are not

Take me away

 take me

island hopping

in the Caribbean

Steel drums

clear waters

and great rhythms

Do it

 Jesus

Here's goes nothing

Healing the nation

the long slog

Anyone willing

to mend fences

Show up

Be human

Civil

Decent

Worthy

Of

The riches

Christ

has given 

You

We know

What Jesus did

What will you do

I'm tired

I march forward

summoning 

the strength 

of John and Elijah

Better angels

Present yourselves

Ready for the call

of Jesus urging

Us to be the church

And to do it 

With love everlasting

Call

I'm asking every person

of faith especially

After yesterday

No matter what

We are split

Start a conversation

With someone

Who doesn't

Agree with you

The Great Commission

starts here

I need to do better

We all do

God is making

me uncomfortable

He doesn't care

about what i want

right now

Radical love

what I'm called

to right now

There is some deep seated

Resentment now

and changing seats

is a must for me

if you met me

i want you

to say

We've seen Jesus

faith and hope

 i grieve 

because

You wouldn't

Want me

to blame

myself

for

mistakes

I've tried

so hard

and faith

isn't about

trying

it's about believing

Thank you

for a day

you have made

my heart broken

my soul restless

but i retain hope

for if that goes

its all over

Fight

for it

Child

it's renewable

every day

hope

 Two days

Without hope

is like

Two days 

without water

Grateful

for the 

ability

to read

and not watch

To eat 

plenty

and not 

Want for anything

Privilege

Use it 

For good

Don't abuse

What power

you have

 In this day

of uncertainty

i hold out hope

in gratitude

That as much

As i doubt

You continually

Exceed expectations

Every obstacle

man lays

at my feet

You are there

to see me through

What you see 

in me

i will never understand 

I'm glad you do

Friends

i don't know

your struggle

Here's

to the knowledge

In faith

He will meet you

Led

 Vote

Pray

Release

Every

Fear

God 

Is 

Good

You 

Hold

My 

Hope

My 

Dreams

Everything

Is 

The 

Hand

Of 

The

Father

Pray

That

I

Be 

Led

Instead 

Of

Bearing

Something

Not 

For 

Me

help me

 Where you sit determines

What you see

What you see

Determines what you do

Dr. Dharius Daniels

I heard him preach yesterday

and it changed my perspective 

I'm following my own advice

The best lessons I've received 

Have come from those

I didn't like at first

I would be ashamed

To admit this

But it's the truth

If I truly want change

I'm going to have

To sit and be

Uncomfortable

With my thoughts

i didn't want to write

This post

God is having

His say

So today

i want to try

and understand

What I'm not seeing

Help me

Seven

 Thank you

for your love

and dedication

to uplift

my spirits

and teach me

kindness

for seven years

you humble me

when i come here

i see the good

in the world

Thank you

you do more

for my health

than i could ever

express 

Thank you

for loving

someone

Who didn't feel

they had much

to offer the world

Care

 This is not political

When did we lose

Our humanity

the capacity

to empathize 

the will

to meet 

each other

Where they are

not where

you think

they should be

I'm anxious

about the election

I may not watch

because my 

mental health

can't take it

And that's privilege

Right there

Will America

Survive the strife

No matter who wins

Bigger question

Can we make our 

Own conclusions

By reading

We lost our way

When we weaponized faith

Stopped caring

and looked

to talking heads

to do our homework

For us

I was advised

to say

The Serenity Prayer

everyday

because my 

joy depends

on it

Thank you

for seven years

Here's to another

Seven

Treat

 Cuddles 

With the pup

A blanket

Mozart

And my favorite sweet treat

Trees

 Beauty lies

In the trees

In the leaves

In the air

In the seas

In the clouds

In the streams

And in between

Love it so much

 A little tiered dress

With ruffle trim

Braces on

Custom shoes

Diamond studs

Dinner party alfresco 

Steak-frites

Perrier-Jouet

Bringing France

And my guests

With crusty baguettes 

And creme brûlée’s 

True

 Cleane me

Redeem 

The sinfulness 

I can’t escape 

The truth 

I can’t admit

I’m awash

In fear

A dull ache

That wreaks havoc

With my witness

And love

For thee

Gift

 Lazy days

In the pool

Rainy days

And rummy 

Late nights

And Milano cookies

Raiding your jewels

And shoes

That didn’t fit

An ocean view 

That brought

A tear with

Beauty

Man couldn’t replicate 

But the memories 

Of you

Are the 

Best gift

I can’t replace 

You told me

I’d miss you

It isn’t until now

How much

Truth

Can be held

In a few words

Keb Mo

taking a long 

soak in 

the garden tub

hermes soap

to awaken

my senses

a little hotel

shampoo

and a 

Sancerre

and dark chocolate

await me

as i listen

to Keb Mo

take me

to places

I'd rather be

Met

 Swimming 

In a sea

Of tulle

Ribbons

And bows

On the 

Steps 

Off to the Met

Eating canapés 

And admiring

Monets and Manets

In heaven 

Dreaming

Of the city

That never

Sleeps

tears

 God 

wipe 

these tears

of pain

of anger

sadness

and disdain

We humans

have a compassion

deficit

and it shows

off to listen

to Brahms

and get

lost in 

a book

holy dissatisfaction

 Regine

i keep

telling myself

you can't change

the world

only your opinion

we fail ourselves

when the witness

i proclaim

is nowhere

to be found

within me

Christ followers

if we are to 

Proselytize

We must

first examine

how much

needs pruning

first

I'm grateful

God still

does miracles

because

as much

division

as i see now

we need

holy dissatisfaction

in every soul

right now

rest

 My soul

needs respite

like an ocean

waves kissing

my toes

Scooping up sand

God is in

the granules

of my hurt

lost expectation

Trying not

to resent

what I 

can't control

God

 Man may

fail me

but I 

will

Praise

You

Carmen

 Dressing up

in pink sequins

With Bizet's

Carmen's suite

to brighten 

my mood

on this 

Rainy day

pond life

 down by 

the pond

leaves rustling

trees swaying

fish swimming

I'm rowing

and the

only thing

I feel

is unending

love

for 

blessings

i don't 

often

appreciate

a little Pollyanna

but who cares

spring in

my step

because

of joy

in my

bones

Bach

 Taking a nap

in the sun

being lulled

to sleep 

by Bach

kissed by 

Autumn breezes

and yellow leaves

heart

 Strong coffee

Willing heart

Praying soul

Open mind

Happy today

How are you?

let it go

 you see 

my heart

stop straining

for affection

in wrong places

and different spaces

Principalities

don't control

your reality

thank you

for your blessing

in spite

of my 

doubt

you reign

i just 

have to

decide

when

folks

be nice

is it 

that hard

then again

anything 

with power

necessitates

effort

Christ

i represent

you

the cross 

is on 

my neck

so I will

refrain

from what

i want to say

it is no longer

eye for an eye

though old habits

slowly fade

it's a journey

to love you

i must love

the mirror's reflection

man is

not God

though he seek to be

Dios

Dios

Si quisieras oirme

Dejame derte

Las gracias

De conocerte

Fijate que

ahora en tiempo

No entiendo

el mundo

Pero

tengo la guarantiza

Que no tengo

que entender

solo necesito

fe y nada mas

mi primera lengua

es el del Senor

Con un corazón 

de amor

Me ganare todo

baseball

 Ump

Calls balls

And strikes

foul balls

and out calls

Batter up

hit it out

While i enjoy

a frankfurter

From Ball Park

I want 

the works

Nachos and

a pretzel

while

we're 

at it

an evening

with chewing gum

spit out

by my 

favorite player

Mary Janes

 kicking

up

my

manicured 

toes

a

saucy

burgundy

in

a

pair

of

mary janes

from

Tabitha

Simmons

balletic

 take me 

to the ballet

black tie

musky air

tutus

pirouettes

intermission

graceful

interludes

and 

my 

favorites

breath mints

provided

by

my 

seatmate

Penpal

 Spending a morning

grateful for

penpals and friends

Alike

that allow 

me to 

globetrot

in a way

I never realized

I desired

Thank you

for expanding

my horizons

from my cozy 

Couch

Mastery

 It's a day

of classical music

to soothe 

what ails

While taking

a journey

back to

The Hapsburgs day

talent for days

and an appreciation

for cultural

and artistic mastery

Lord

 Lord 

I’m here

At the only

Feet

That leave

Me still

Even as 

My mind

Spins

Good

 COVID 

Thank you 

For forcing me

To use my imagination 

If you don’t use it

You lose it

Before 

You know it

Thanks

Breeds

The good

My soul needs

be

 you take me

Places i 

didn't know

i wanted 

to go

John Prine

on my mind

under the tress

in the weeds

and anywhere

you are

is where 

I'm meant

To be

Paris and Prada

 Thank you

for every day

confirming

that these 

Words

make a difference

i wonder if 

my dreams

are to fanciful

or frivolous 

in these times

of so much 

Suffering

Am i 

out of touch

or just tired

so if 

i wax 

poetic

about Paris

or Prada

it means

temporary happiness

despite acute pain

vineyard

 dreaming 

of vineyard hopping

wine sipping

and a gathering

of the old 

and new

to set my

heart ablaze 

Sunday

 Soaring into Sunday

with a dash of mercy

a splash of confidence

and an abiding love

that goodness

Will prevail

love and grace

to all

dear friends

and confidants

evangelize

 i miss church

in person

hugging 

every soul

looking 

for jesus

and a mornin

full of praise

you made it

another day

i dream

of sunday lunch

with the neighbors

at Red Lobster

cheddar biscuits

and more evangelizing

before that 

became a bad word

we can't discuss

without starting wars

these days

it seems

i should get

off the soapbox

before I start one

lively debate

and banter

an art form

long gone

I'm afraid

dirty hands, clean heart

 falling for you

sixty and shining

leaves caressing

my shorn locks

and for awhile

I'm awash

in the purity

of God 

and His creation

The dew

cleanses

the dirt of sin

and I'm grateful

because the reminder

of grace

is knocking

at the door 

of my heart

you must 

be near

dear Lord

because 

I'm surrendering

The key

Blessed

 Be a blessing

Dear children 

Someone

May

Need 

It today

reign

 as seasons change

i hope i do too

i want to see

the world

full of love

hope and purpose

to give

not only receive

smile

reciprocate 

look up

divine blessing

reign down

on every human

Pizza Hut

 Pizza and coke

Friday night treat

For reading 100 books

What a memory

I never forgot

Thanks to Pizza Hut

scarred

 i realize

i settle

for too little

because I don't

believe

you can

see beyond

the scarred body

red

 Tromping through

the woods 

for my favorite

red leaves

pick them up

smell and examine them

the grandeur of fall

in something 

so small

summer days

 eating ice cream

strolling the boardwalk

ocean waves

my radio

i miss easy

summer days

where the weather

was warm and sticky

instructions

 take 

one day

at a time

stay present

child

it will

work out

imagine

 down that

country road

brings back

memories

of hay and

John Deere

baking in sunshine

and basking 

in dreams

of seclusion

for a former 

City girl

in a world

she imagined

me

 God

be with me

today

everyday

and forevermore

God

 God

it's me

again

how you

don't tire

of me

is beyond

my comprehension

why I worry

about things

that don't matter

and can't enjoy 

them

i confess

this sin

Father

i need help

with tears

i repent

and relent

days

 I miss

the days

of pogs

and pogo sticks

hitting a tennis ball

against the fence

and a time

i wasn't tethered

to my smartphone

Terre Battue

 Twitter

and the 

Terre Battue

love to hate it

yet I'm

hooked

and can't 

look away

joy

 With you

joy is

inevitable

and 

inescapable

holiness in you

 Am i wholly holy

and loving of

others who

test me 

at every turn

do i understand

that i am 

a reflection

of the Creator

not my fleshly

desires

truth

 Truth

is essential

in the condition

of the human mind

i don't care

how you find

the one thing

God provides

i need perception 

changed 

i free myself

when others

can do 

The same

I'm continually 

being taught

once i stop 

teaching

i cease to learn

to give a darn

and that is 

apathy in action

hope exists

 you know

growth is

when you

are never 

more glad

than to 

be proven 

Wrong

I'm humbled

As much 

as humans

disappoint

i am glad

this weekend

i was shocked

in the

best way

Possible

hope exists

folks

Sweet

 Sweet greens 

Pimento cheese

On the 

Menu

For this 

Southern belle

To enjoy

Rose

 Grateful for

Rose 

And a

Dirty dish

Use your imagination 

And you 

Know why 

🧡

 Love and hope 

The joy I have

Is found 

In righteous

Action

Wait

 Wait

In the still

I provide 

Restoration 

😃

 Pray

And

Be still

My soul

answer

 Jesus

it's me

you know

Regine

the girl

with so many

questions

because 

they're more fun

or so it seems

answers are boring

or hard to accept

i think i just

had a revelation

sometimes

i don't like

the answers 

you give

to my queries

that's why

i keep asking

i may 

be human

after all

Ode to Trader Joe’s

 Dreaming of 

A day 

With pleasure of 

Grocery shopping 

In Trader Joe’s 

Without a care in the world 

Bubbles and bubbly

 Sipping bubbly 

In a lather

Of Bubbles 

With Otis

And Marvin

Serenading me

Is bliss

At its finest

Wind

 Dancing in 

The wind

As weeds flail

And trees sway

Behind me 

Cashmere

 Cashmere

Cozy and cuddled

Swaddled 

Liked a baby

Cocooned

From the 

Outside world

heart

 on a journey

with each word

a trek

through uncertainty

to bring calm

to an anxious heart

Pizza

 Pizza

In positano

Gooey cheese

Ocean views

Fall

It doesn’t matter

I’m

There

In all

Her glory

Bread

 Baking bread

On Sunday morning 

Love in

The oven

Saturday

 Me

You

And the

Radio

Old school

Romance

On an

Overcast

Saturday 

In me

 Am I 

Willing 

To be

Uncomfortable 

To achieve 

The greatness 

That is

Within me

👍🏻

 Rainy day

In the South

Naps

Coffee 

Chocolate 

And magazines 

🥰

 I look up

At the cosmos

And look

At the Creator

And marvel

At the beauty

I get 

To enjoy 

Six

 For six years 

I’ve let you in

I don’t feel judged

I’m challenged 

To challenge myself

I’ve not met you

But you’ve loved 

This stranger

More than I deserve 

RBG

 RBG

Rest well

You gave all 

Of yourself 

For us

And a humbled 

Nation 

Thanks you

With a hug

That spans 

Generational legacies

Tea

 Cuppa tea

A book

The dog

And sunshine

Through the window

Counting grateful pleasures

Today 

As breath

Is underrated 

Cry

 Crying

Tears of thanks

For 

How well 

You love me

And every word

I lay here

In this place

Sweet

 Sugarfina

In my Chanel

A little sweetness

In classic pieces 

Candy

 Gummy bear 

Swedish fish

Teddy Grahams 

What I’m craving 

Today

 Sardinia

Santorini

I'm calling

can you answer

i'm escaping

and taking myself

on a journey of self discovery

with your blue waters

as my backdrop

buckle

 buckle up

for battle

with your mind

it's the one

war you 

haven't dared

to face

rise up

and fight

the one 

thing that 

holds hostage

Book

 The writer in me

Collects books

Pens and journals

Every time 

I receive one

It’s Christmas morning 

All over again

Burberry bustle

 Aston Martin 

Cruising the Cotswolds

Jamming to 

Paul and Ringo

Clad in Burberry

And Stella

Craving Pimms

And a lunch

Of Bangers and Mash

Coffee

 Coffee 

In my creamer 

Delicious goodness

In every sip

Fly

 Chasing chickens 

With Ritz Crackers

The country life

Never fails

To make

You laugh

Chasing a bird

That can fly

 Is the dream

For others 

To get lost

In your words

Or that 

I find words

That make

Me peaceful

Yet exuberant 

With a swell

Of deserved pride

In what God

Has made possible 

In me

Faith

 Praising 

Becomes

Faith 

Realized

Pride

 Pride

Will destroy 

Everything 

Take no prisoners 

And return 

With no regard

For your

Distorted view

Of the

Human condition 

Real

 I write

Even when

I don’t find 

My words

Inspiring

I need 

To be 

Real

Not

A picture 

Of

Contrived perfection

Love it

 God

You have

Blessed me

Even when

Words fall

Short

Your love

Sustains

Salt

 Salt

The preservation 

Of a 

Delicious life

That is

A result 

Of fiery determination 

And steely resilience 

Pinky power

 Closet full

Of clothes 

Shoes

And baggage 

I told myself 

I dealt

It was dealing me

Pandemic unpacked 

The scars

I refused 

To address 

Sit down

And sort

The piles

Of anger

Resentment 

And doubt

The job 

Needs doing

So I can 

Unlock

The power

That’s in

Your pinkies

Perceptions

 I don’t understand 

Yet I must accept 

That hardship happens 

Pain is inevitable 

And that

I am to be

The picture 

Of empathy 

Because 

In Baptism 

I gave allegiance 

To You

And not

To past 

Perceptions 

Yes

 Taking stock

Basking in

The beat

Of this 

Day

And knowing 

With praise

Comes redemption 

And freedom

Joy

 Skipping rocks

Into cold water

The plunking sound 

It makes

The joy

It bring

Makes

This lady

Giddy 

With excitement 

Fall fun

 New month

New joy

To find

Happy to 

Apples

And revel

In eating

Doughnuts 

And plopping

Into piles

Of raked 

Leaves

Questions

 I long 

To be one

With the birds

Fully enamored 

By God’s goodness 

Without doubting

When each season 

Feels wrought 

With questions

September

 Good morning 

Golden Girls 

In the background 

Start of September 

I need to

Make some

Pumpkin bread 

And drink

Apple cider

Just waiting

On crisp temperatures 

And my

Perfect scene

Will commence

Dogs and daydreams

 Sweet summertime 

Dipping toes

In the pond

As I sip

Cherry cola

And eat on

Some gooey

Nougat

Only to be

Taken out

My dream

By a pack

Of barking

Dogs

Named

Tebow 

And Bruiser

Will go

 Return to me

Mustard seed 

Faith 

Of a child

Where you are

I will go

Silent peace

 Windy

Sunny

And radiating hope 

Because 

It’s a choice 

And no matter

What

The noise

Around me

The sound

Within me

Will be

A silent peace

Alone

 You make

Me feel

Not so 

Lonely and alone

I open 

You up

And take

A ride

So melodic

And harmonious 

I leave 

My issues

And drift

With each 

New page

The companion

Whose devotion

Leaves me

Spellbound 

The power

To transport

Without leaving

Home

Summer night

 Guitar strumming 

Bonfire crackling

S’mores making

Ale sipping 

Ocean swimming 

Frolicking in

Late summer’s

Night bliss

Drunk on

Happiness

And moonlight 

Mind

 God

It’s me

Or is it

My anxiety 

That has 

Me on speed dial

Pandemic paranoia

Here again 

When will

I inhabit 

My own

Mind again

Cake

 Woke up 

Thinking cake

Is perfectly acceptable 

For breakfast 

It’s where

I’m at 

Right now

Pray

 They’re are

Some special people 

Who could 

Use prayers

Would you oblige

This honest request

Sweet treat

 Rainy day

Sweet treats 

Shopping

And staying dry 

And warm

In a cozy blanket 

🎉

 Grateful for breath

A voice

That speaks 

Because 

Others 

Can not

When God calls

You obey 

Even if

You’re uncomfortable 

With each word

Comes insecurities 

Mixed with

Perseverance 

Those you know

 Love your enemies

So clear

So difficult 

It is

So easy

To love

The stranger 

And despise

Those you know

Capital

 The biggest question 

I’ve had

Is God really 

Making a difference 

Through me

Does my openness 

Help anyone 

I need the

Pain 

To be worthwhile 

It’s almost 

Like 

Am I 

A good 

Return on investment 

Lord

Society 

Has made

Question 

How much 

Is a

Life worth

I don’t know

But I don’t 

If we

Wish

To make

Jesus 

A capitalist 

Character

 God

You know

Me so well 

That I retreat 

To books 

To escape 

And probably 

To remind 

Me of 

Your faithfulness 

As I’m reminded 

Of past words

My own

My fears

Haven’t changed 

And it’s annoying

Then I remember 

You’ve stayed 

True to Your name

And Your character 

Can

 New day 

New words

I can

I will

Because 

That’s the voice

My Father 

Demands

After

Too much 

Of a defeatist attitude 

Myself

 I don’t forgive 

Myself easily 

I don’t let people 

In often

I don’t want 

You to see

The mess

I’ve become 

Pray

 Three AM

Tired but can’t sleep

Right now

I’m in 

A holding pattern

Don’t know 

What I want 

Or need

Feel the need

To explain 

But don’t have 

The energy

Nice

 Sometimes 

The greatest grace 

I give you

Is when I 

Remain silent 

Because 

I’ve lost

The ability 

To say

Anything nice

Story

 It took strangers

Who turned 

Into friends

To unlock

A soul

Soften 

A heart

And tell

A story 

Worthy of telling

My own

Write

 I write 

Because I 

Have something 

To say

I won’t diminish 

My value

To inflate yours 

Disability is 

A pain 

You don’t want

To hear or see me

I’m relegated 

To being 

A warm body 

In a cold world

Joy

 I’m taking up

A role

I never thought 

I would 

You surprise me

At every turn

With every breath

You make me 

Uncomfortable 

And that’s when

I do 

My best work

For you 

Shackled

 Shackled

Chained

Enslaved 

To a narrative 

I didn’t make

But allowed

Nonetheless 

Fly

 Fly

Soar

Never 

Apologize 

For

Who 

You

Are

Acceptance

 When you give

Yourself to just be

You realize

You are healing

From a trauma

You always 

Denied existed

Tears fall

Not of sadness 

But of bittersweet 

Acceptance and relief

That you no longer 

Feel the need to pretend 

Harwell

 Blog followers

May you please

Pray for 

A precious family

The Harwells

Thank you 

Fear

 Dressed in

The essence

Of the Spirit 

That doesn’t flee

In fear

But rises

In faith

Thank you

 Good morning 

  It’s Friday 

It clear

And calm

After a night

Of storms

Thank you

Lord

Trail mix

 Just me

And my trail mix

Music on

Just relishing 

Silence

On a plush couch

New England

Take me away to Martha's Lobster rolls A fruity drink Quaint New England i want to smell hydrangeas and have two scoops every day

Mademoiselle

i never thought i would enjoy my own company I've spent years Apologizing for What He made and I'm having to be okay with dancing for exercise singing off key and praying every muscle doesnt pop when doing yoga

Understand

I don't understand What you are Doing to me or through me if you can Heal the blind or the paralytic i want to trust this season is not fruitless Because there is a reason for it all i believe

Snooze

My mind is swirling i need to sleep i'd like to enjoy my clean sheets Dog is Beside me Snoring imploring me to follow along

Me

 Listening to

Fast Car

By Tracy Chapman

Has me remembering

A time

When all

I wanted 

Was to drive

Anywhere

Anytime 

And get away

From my reality

My perception 

Was I needed

To be free

Not considered abled

Or disabled 

And the 

Questions I 

Couldn’t escape 

I can’t now

I can’t be boxed

And I don’t know 

Who it annoys 

More

Me or

You

Pulitzer

 Writing in Lilly 

Preppy personified

Ladies who lunch

And are adorned

With pearls

A southern girl’s

Calling card

To a life

Of refined sophistication 

Riviera reverie

Hermès scarf

Bastide body mist

Coating my wrists

Sunning myself

At a private pool

Overlooking 

The Riviera

And all 

I can think

About is

What to 

Make for 

An aperitif 

Perfect Peace

Right now

I’m having 

To be quiet

So I can hear

The waves crash

And white sand

Burn my toes

Nature 

Speak

So I can rest

In a peace 

That smells 

Of salty sunscreen 

Restored

The organs

Play my 

Favorite hymns

The olfactory 

Is alive

As I 

Sit in

An empty pew

Alone I 

Am not

Speak

When my mouth

Goes silent 

My writing 

Does not 

I don’t recognize 

Who I am

And that is frustrating 

I’m in a fog

Hoping for

Mental clarity 

An inner peace 

That does leave

Retreat 

Or into

Exile 

Ciao

Memories 

Take me

Back

To a freezing

February

Wine drinking

In a Venetian

Gondola

I complained

Of chattering lips

And goosebumps 

And now

I long

For Acqua Panna

Gelato and Gucci

I had a taste 

Of la

dolce vita

And I dream

Of a place

That awakened

A heart

To new possibilities 

Land

Taking a ride

Out in the

Great outdoors 

Weeds caught

My eye

And my

Gratitude 

For what

Is often detested 

It’s in 

The weeds

Where we 

Grow in 

Immeasurable grace 

Apple

Apple picking off the tree the joys off fresh fruit and seeing God's handiwork in action

Lord

Thank you Lord for another birthday With each year i realize that your love for me isnt ending it's just beginning

Tribute

I told myself 

I wouldn’t do this

But to good trouble 

Even in disability 

I’ve had privilege 

To have family 

But more than that

A brain and words

To articulate a pain

I’d prayed

My privilege 

Would allow me

To escape 

The injustice

And assumptions 

By uneducated 

Or misinformed humanity

Looks deceive

And for too long

I let ignorance slide

I promised I wouldn’t 

Make myself educate 

But where one

Profits or gains

Off the backs

Of others

My wants

Are eclipsed

By the needs

Of fellow brethren

I am not saintly 

I still owe forgiveness 

To myself 

For internalizing 

Comments said 

To me

But in reality

Not meant for me

Jesus cleanse me

And show me

What necessary trouble 

Looks like

John Lewis 

To continuing

The fight

To leave

America 

Better

Than I 

Found it

Waterfall

Sitting in child’s pose 

Letting my mind rest 

And my body stretch

I’m now aware 

As to why God 

Tells me to 

Be still

And in 

This glorious moment 

I just am

What a gift

Life

Penning

Thinking 

Rewriting 

And going

At it once

Again

Beautiful.

Shine
Rise
And be
The one
Who graciously gives
Even if
Their
Is nothing
To gain

Faith

Thirty years
ADA
Legislation is great
But nothing changes
Until what is
Inside
Becomes
An outward
Declaration of love
I want others
To change
When
God says
You change
Then I step in
And in love
I make it happen

Break

Child
Wake up
Your worth
Is in me
Not what
Others say
I am
Yours
I cling
To the cross
That never
Bends
Or breaks

Kiawah

Take me
To the
Surf and sand
Ice cream
In my hand
In my mind
I’m off to
Kiawah

Salt

Take me back
To that kitchen
In Miami Beach
I miss the memories
Of her cooking
Her dishes
And laugh
That roared
It could
Make you cry
I miss going
To the lobby
And getting her mail
And catching
Up with everyone
In a Spanish
I considered lacking
Despite praise
Saying something
Else
And right now
I miss her
Salt in a world
Needing flavor

Creation

Call my name
Singing
And worshipping
Love me Father
Grant this heart
Peace that only
Emanates from
The Face
Who manifested
My creation

Remain

Sing a song
Of grace and gratitude
That says praise
And pray
If my discomfort
Brings You glory
I will let
It remain

Special

When someone
Takes the time
To tell you
You're special
Believe them
The Creator
Nods in agreement
Thank you friend
For reminding me
My worth isn't found
In earthly praise

Monday

Monday
We meet again
May I greet you
With a smile
On my face

Words👍

Rise up dear
God didn't make
You in fear
But to meet it
Defeat it

Espana

Spain
My love
Land of Gaudi
And Nadal
I long for
Tapas and jamon Iberico
Starting in Basque Country
And Finishing in Seville
The land of the matador
Olé

Rockies

Take me
Rugged Rockies
No cell service
Mountain air
Breathing you in
An elixir
The natural intoxicant
I need

italian dreams

Sashaying in Prada
Dripping in Cartier
Sipping limoncello
Dreaming of Positano
Mornings and evenings
On the isle of Capri

Wander

Take me to Aix
Or that church in Assisi
Or the water in Newport
Or that hotel in Montreal
My soul revived
My heart peaceful
In places
That give
Me serenity

Relent

I haven’t been so uncomfortable
In almost a decade
I’m giving myself tough love
I don’t know if I’m freeing myself
Or just surrendering
Because I’m too tired
To fight
A fight
That isn’t mine
Blissfully ignorant
Not me
Even when I desire
One day I may
Give you the truth
Of the pain
That keeps returning
Watch your words
The sting
Does not relent
It ebbs

Lord

Pray
That I have
Compassion
Decency
Each day
When
A commenter
Says
Speaking up
Matters
Even if
It does nothing
Lord
Thank you
For that sermon
America
We need
A return
To simple
Principles
If we did
Maybe
We find Jesus
When words
Are followed
By actions

Lord
I worship you

wrong

God is having

To restrain 

My tongue

My job

Is not

To right

Every wrong

👍

Lord
Thank you
For speaking
To this soul
Through
Mr. Darius Daniels

😀

When You bestowed
Cerebral Palsy
You did something
Only in Your power
To have empathy
For those
Who have none
For you
A heart that feels
A soul that sees
That pain gives
Insight
In the
Human condition

content

Completely content
Lacking envy
Where I want
To be
Forevermore

Brie

Strolling in a vineyard
France calling my name
Beckoning me with
A kiss
And some brie

See

You don’t leave me
Even when I plead
Because
You know
I’m lying

❤️

Smile child
Love others
And trust God
With the rest

my heart

I haven't slept
The what ifs
Are at it
Again
What if I
Feared God
More than Covid
I'm trying
To control everything
Avoiding a virus
I feel like I
Can't make mistakes
My soul
Is wrestling

Love

Lord
Guard this anxious heart
Lead me beside still waters
Where you await
My countenance

love

Singing
Letting it be
And
In the now
I'm smiling

America

Old Glory
You are good
Restore
The joy
Of salvation
And faith
In you
And the land
That gives hope

Sittin

I used to hate
And sit with
My thoughts
I'm tortured
Wanting
To make
The world
A utopia
Because
What I want
Is something
Humans
Have yet to
Master
Lord
Take me
To a place
Where I can breathe
And not wonder
Who gets justice
Versus the cracks

😊

Ocean breeze
Book reading
Chips
And a drink

😘

Even when I struggle
To face the day
Or find beauty
Where I'm at
I find it
In nature's embrace

Wake up

Beautiful day
To have
A smile
That says
He woke me
Up today
Lord

😃

Lord
Speaking up
For myself
Is the hardest thing
I've done
Being treated
As a human being
Not a burden
Is a daily journey
One I face
With humility

❤️

I'm exhausted Lord
I'm having to trust
You in every moment
I'm seeing that even if
You love people
You can't make them
Do what is necessary
Why is it so hard
I'm at my breaking point

Learning to say no
What a lesson
In independence
And freeing relief

Given

Humble and grateful
For a grace
I don't deserve
A mercy
I'm given
Everyday

AC

Sleeping in AC
On this hot day
Thank you for
Blessings

love

Make
The countenance
Find a reason
To smile again

Praise

Praise be
For waking up
And beautiful scenery

Pray

I am trying
To realize
That controlling
My mind