How has your day been?
What are you eating?
What are you reading?
What are grateful for today?
The attitude of children will put yours to shame. Children remind you that joy is something to actively seek, and maybe I haven’t done that. Life has become a chore, and it’s a blessing. In every appointment may I be thankful. Attitude of gratitude always.
Dog wakes up early- I’m up to great them with love.
Coffee too strong- I’ll be fully awake
Cranky- put on music
PT today was more of a mental battle. Physically I was still put through it all, but my mind had battles. I’m having to wait and trust. I will say I’m amazed at what my body can do now. I’m not where I want to be, but I feel and see progress and I’m grateful. My routine is a few hours a day. I’m tired. It’s worth it to live a life no one expected. I don’t know if I expected it either. I’m grateful. The realization that PT and surgery may always be a possibility is known. I’m just trying to accept a reality I’ve always wanted to deny. Love you all.
Today’s one of those days. Trusting what I can’t know. Trusting what I don’t understand. My mind and I are in a battle. It’s in these times, I realized I’ve not come to full acceptance, full trust in who God has made me to be. You all tell me to give myself grace, so since you repeatedly give that sage advice, pray I can do just that. Thank you for coming back each day to hear me complain about the same darn thing again and again. Love you all.
Lord, it’s me. Another eye appointment. Another question to contemplate. Right now, I’m at a crossroads. At this point, I don’t have an answer. Do I find one? Is there a right one? Life is in a gray zone. I’m muddled in puddles of puzzles. The solutions fix the surface, but leaves the roots exposed. Nothing is ever easy. Is the lesson that everything takes work. Soul searching, body breaking and mind blowing work.
To say that in ten years of writing this blog, at this point in my life, I’m vulnerable. I’m fragile. I’m strong when needed. I don’t have a choice. You’re sustained on the knowledge that to survive and thrive, change will come. And my reactions have to be commensurate. I’m putting my body through the wringer, and my mind has yet to align. Every good thing takes time. Love you all
Some days I feel like a human pretzel. How many ways can a body contort. How many ways can you stretch and strengthen. Discipline is still my biggest challenge. I have therabands, kinesiology tape and ankle sleeves. My body never knew hard work like this. The challenge to the body has awakened what the mind can do. It’s amazing. My body looks good, but the mind is shedding the shades.