giving up

 A friend reminded me

in my fragility

in my brokenness

I am what 

God wants

For the first time

I'm so tired

that surrender

is the only option

That comes to mind

The tears come

not wiping them

being one 

He's waited

for me

to be fully ensconced 

in torment

that the only recourse

I'm seeking

is one 

man cannot give

I was told

I'd come to this point

didn't know when

God always wins

He just gives enough

So wayward children

like me

find the light

Once they've

Had enough

of trying

to do it all

their way

embrace weakness

where strength is found

and bolstered 

for a lifetime