im struggling folks. I want perfection. I'm embarrassed. It difficult to even write a blog post. My will has taken over. I'm trying to fix me.
I have to go back to wearing leg braces. I'm finally letting myself acknowledge the pain. Have I let my body down. Have I let myself. Did I get lazy, complacent thinking I had defeated CP. I can't typr the word. Denial, I know.
I'm in pain. Right now, I am questioning writing such a scathing post. Looking at this realistically has kept me from letting myself feel the pain.
Finally letting the tears fall.