Hermes scarf
Yankees ball cap
Jeans
Braces
And muddy Nikes
The outfit
Of the day
Trying to add
A little whimsy
To my reality
Cooler temperatures
Have me reaching
For that shredded
Martha’s Vineyard
Sweatshirt
I can’t seem
To part with
It brings
The memory
To life
Three years later
Letting gratitude flow
Blessed to see
The wild world
Created for
Enjoying
Savoring
And preserving
Relishing the day
For what it is
Not for selfish
Desires
In the hollers
Deep in
Those peaks
Finding faith
In the oasis
Of hope
On which
Survival is hinged
When the
Only hope
Is in
The Father
Son
And Holy Ghost
In the quiet
Of this early morning
Feeling peace
The fan
Going round
Is not
To be taken
For granted again
Staring upward
Grateful
Because
Simple pleasures
Have become
True luxuries
Listening to church this morning I heard something that’s shaken my soul. God doesn’t change our circumstances. We change amidst them. I’ve never heard something so simple, yet for me so truthful. In seven days, God in His glory upended my worldview. Upended everything I believed.
Torn down
To studs
And shown
Love
That comes
When searching
Is too tiring
Your work
Begins
When I
Stop seeking
Love yourself and one another
In the cool
Breezes
My soul reclines
In sweet
Soliloquies
Burberry trench
Hunter boots
And leaves
Changing to
Hues of orange
And bright reds
Bring to mind
Memories
Of a New England
Escape
Full of coffee
And cannolis
Things are returning to normal here. What has not returned to normal is me. Therapy is ongoing, but folks, it takes time. I don’t know what is happening, but I’m coming up for air slowly. Gratitude and grief mix in a beautiful serenade. I hardened my heart, but it’s being softened again. Just because the world is cruel or unfair doesn’t give me permission to do the same. As one of you had to remind me, I no longer hide my pain, but others do by projecting joy to the outside world. And that is their choice.
On behalf of myself, I thank you for being a sounding board. A safe place. The true measure of wealth is receiving love when nothing of value can be returned.
I will recover. It’s just not on my timetable. I love you.
