Really revealing

 Right now, my body is a chameleon. Feels great one day. Meh the next. Pain the next. I’m not complaining, I’m just mentally taking each day as it comes. My words make not pretty like Swan Lake. I’m in battle mode. Fight when I must. Rest when I can. Goods not ridding me of the mountains, but fortifying my ramparts. I’m just asking for prayers. It may become a daily occurrence I heard a pastor say I needed to surrender the outcome, the process and the timing. This one statement has shaken me in the best but hardest way. I have always asked why. I may have an answer, I may not, but with each day the spark grows with increasing intensity. 

Jesus 

Be near

As the

Flames

Surround me

Surrender into

The only 

Equipped 

To handle 

My needs