What I fear

While I try to project optimism, I am pessimist.  When Dee posted a comment on the blog post " Food for thought", it gave me a grin, and then panic.  What she wrote, is classic me.  I worry about the future so much, I can't fully enjoy the present.  Viewing my disability as a strength, that may take a while.  Sometimes, I really do love the person I see in the mirror, even if you don't hear me admit it, but mainly I see the flaws, and I pick myself apart.  It's an ugly habit, I know.  I sin everyday, when I worry, and am anxious.  I feel like a bad person, even though I am not.
Learning to be kind to self is an ongoing journey into or onto discovery.
God Bless,
R