Happy Halloween and blog birthday

 Happy Halloween loves. It’s been thirteen years since the beginning of R’s Rue. I can’t explain how this space of the Internet has saved me. It’s been a home of discovery, brutal honesty yet a hope I have no words for.  I have to have some tests run soon. I’m nervous but trusting God. I promised I wouldn’t cry, but here I am crying. Thank you for your consistency in loving me. A person the world doesn’t validate or understand. Thank you for giving me for so many years what I couldn’t give myself. 

In thirteen years

You continue to

Give me

What I struggle

To give myself

Love

Great day

 Today is 

Going to be

A great day

The Lord

Woke me up

I lost a pound

And I’ve 

Already experienced 

Great small joys

So awesome

Yet unexpected 

Truly the best

Love yourself and your neighbor. 

Favorites

 Favorites

Banza pasta with butter and cheese

Fashion magazines

Travel daydreams

SmartSweets gummies

Flavored water and sparkling water

Your turn?

Any Halloween plans?

When do you decorate for Christmas?

Mood booster

 The rain outside

Is my 

Radio station

Today

Nature

The ultimate 

Mood booster

What are you grateful for today?

Monday

 God lead me

Don’t argue

Don’t fight

Be still

The battle

Is not

Yours anymore

Love yourself and one another

Sunday

 The chill

Has descended 

On my 

Neck of the 

Woods

Warm me up

Like the 

Most 

Delicious 

Apple cider

Thought

 Please 

Keep me

Calm

At peace

In alignment

With your will

Surrender

Is where

I’m safest

And never

Did I ever

Think such

A thing before

Friday

 Friday gratitude list. 

Having a second blog has kept my brain working while trying to fix technical issues on this one. I will still be writing on that one as well. 

A good lunch out, and finding a new coat that I needed to replace that no longer works for me. 

Good weather and being able to be outside. Vitamin D is healing for the mind, body and soul

Finding good books and magazines. I still love holding a physical book or magazine. Nothing better. 

Finding the silver lining even when then things don’t go my way.  Pivot. The word and I are in communication more lately. 

Share with me your gratitude. Or whatever you’d like. 

I love you

Regine

Unknown

 The wet

Green grass

Feeds my soul 

Like a 

Calming elixir 

The outside 

World 

Is realigning 

My inner anxieties 

Breathing in

Peace 

As I let

Unknowns 

Be just that

Unknown 

Day

 Tall stack

Of pancakes 

Berries and cream 

Adding a little 

Sweetness 

To my

Morning 

To brighten 

My day

Late night thoughts

 One of

My deepest pains

Got unearthed 

Tonight 

Healing 

Really is

Painful

That’s the 

G version 

For as far 

As I’ve come

Work is still 

Very much 

Ongoing 

Questions

 What are you reading 

What are you eating 

What are you buying 

What is bringing joy

Any prayer requests?

Influencer

 Lord

What have

We come to

We don’t talk

We don’t speak 

We don’t disagree 

For fear 

Of reprisal 

I wasn’t 

Made for this 

Following You

Is hard

But it’s 

The only 

Thing in

My life 

That makes sense

Friends have 

Called me

An influencer

And right now

That label feels 

Uncomfortable 

I’m not plugging 

Popular culture 

I just want 

To glorify You

And pray 

That humanity 

Returns 

To decency 

I’m glad 

You have me

This world 

Has me clutching 

The cross

Hoping against hope 

For a return 

To a world 

Where common sense

Needn’t be

Explained

Or justified 

Jesus

 Watering the grass

My own

My witness 

Will be

Not with 

Flowery words

But with 

How I live 

Jesus I 

Hope to

Make You 

Proud 

Friday love

 God

Thank you 

For another day 

To be loved 

By you

Grateful for 

All you are

For I falter

More and

More

I’m so glad 

You never 

Leave me 

Even when 

I think 

About leaving you 

Seek and serve

 Seek me

Find me 

Follow me 

Obedience will

Be found 

With an earnest 

Heart 

To serve 

You

 Following You

Finding solace 

No longer 

Inundated by

Worldly distraction

As a friend said:  “The Word before the world”. 

Any Substack recommendations?

Love you all