I didn't see this post coming, but when a post comes, you write it. I'm listening to So Long Self by MercyMe, its a great song to listen to in this moment. The gut check we had in Sunday School just happened. I was simply told to stop trying so hard, and let God work through you. Seems easy. I always think some big work of God is necessary for us to feel that God uses us. And right now, I see it doesn't have to big in your eyes. Maybe it's big in God's eyes.
I want what I do to matter? That may be the problem. I still have wants, a want to be validated by another human being. No human can truly validate me, only He can.
What do you want validation of in life?