Sometimes the hardest posts to write are the ones where you have an epiphany with self. Better yet, Jesus had a way of showing me truth, love and grace. I've been struggling. Accepting CP is one thing, accepting its effects spiritually, mentally and physically are quite another. I accepted the word, CP, but not what it meant for me as I got older.
And that is a bitter, ugly pill to swallow quoting my pastor. I'd rather get a shot and get it over with, CP for me is a gradual exercise. To revamp my physical health, my mental and spiritual self are under attack.
Only until yesterday in Bible Study, was i able to see the problem. Sometimes God allows you to answer the question.
Today, God showed me that my suffering could be used for good, and when I saw it, I just had to thank Him for the grace that He gave me.
It's a peace, I needed. Will I still suffer? Yes. I just need to remember today, though.