Monday, June 26, 2017
Thinking again. God is so faithful to me, and I don't reciprocate. Do I believe He can find me my mate? I waver. Maybe I'm tired of waiting. My life feels like a waiting game. I don't have enough gratitude or that dreaded p word. That is discussed in a prior post. I am a ball of uncertainty, when the only certainty is You. You know every part of me, and that's scary. Refining is scary. Surrender. What you want. Are we ever fully surrendering? Ripping the band-aid has been one of the most freeing experiences. I'm Regine, and I have Cerebral Palsy. Denial be darned. The dreaded d word. I could write a sermon on denial. I've spent years there. Freeing self seems so easy yet so hard.