When God says He can use anybody, I never really believed He could or would use me. Why me? What's so special about me? The question is will I allow Him to use me? The only way for me to affirm this is surrender. When you don't like giving up on the illusion of control, surrender is impossible. If I'm honest, I know I'm special. He uses me even when I can't see it. I can't deny what I know. I hope it doesn't take you as long as it took me to be ok with God's truth.