Thursday, February 7, 2019

Letting the cards fly.

I don't want to let you in. I don't want to feel this pain. This utter despair. I can't dwell in this utter hopelessness. I had to be told point blank that people will never be able to give you what you give. You can't fight. I feel like my body and everything within me is broken. I'm not patient in affliction. I feel like God is imploring me to let it go. Stop looking at calendars when things are supposed to occur. When they're scheduled. I've had more issues than I can count. It seems when you think it's fixed, another part breaks. My body I realize is being compared to a car, something God said no to long ago.  If this sounds ungrateful I won't apologize. I've apologized for so much I have lost count. My perspective is skewed. My soul is tired. I'm worried.


  1. I want to help you, my dear friend, but how?
    I think every day about you and read your blog.
    As a foreigner, I don't understand much, but I sympathize with you - it's different from regret.
    You're strong!
    Sending love and hugs,

  2. One of my favourite sayings....
    “If you can’t fly, then run, If you can’t run, then walk, If you can’t walk, then crawl, but whatever you do, you have to keep moving forward.” –Martin Luther King Jr.

  3. Stay strong as tomorrow is another day, hopefully a better one for you.

  4. I have the same issue right now. Just take it one appointment at a time and know that God has your back! Nothing happens in his world by mistake! Hugs

  5. Sending positivity and encouragement today. I understand this feeling, and I know it's super hard. Feel good.

  6. Amigo Regine hay una frase de Frank Lloyd que dice así, "Estudia la naturaleza, ama la naturaleza, acércate a la naturaleza. Nunca te fallará"
    Un abrazo

  7. My dear and sweet Regine, please never give in to despair. I understand your feelings when it would be so easy to say "I have had enough, I give up!"
    maybe this will help...

    "Then Jesus went with them to a place called Gethsemane....He began to show grief and distress of mind and was deeply depressed.
    (Matthew 26:36,37, AMP).
    It is hard to believe at times our Lord felt depressed, too.
    We must find our way back. Please don't give in.

    Many Hugs~

  8. There is no need to apologize, Regine. Sometimes we just have to be with our feelings. And when it all feels grim, we can go there for awhile -- but in time, know when is the moment to return to light. Even if that light is a bit flickering.

  9. Oh ...i so understand and feel empathy and what I can only imagine you must be experiencing. Please take care and feel that despair and just ask for relief and as much as possible at this moment - open to it - much love sent your way from so many.

  10. Few of us can understand what you are going through, but we stand with you as fellow Christians. God bless you, Regine, and may your healing be manifested quickly for His glory.

  11. I am thinking of you, Regine, and keeping you in my prayers. I'm praying that God wraps his arms around you and you feel his love and strength. Sending big hugs you way.

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  12. When I say the Rosary tonight, I will put you in the intentions, Regine. I'm sorry you're feeling so broken right now.


  13. Sorry for your pain, darling. Stay strong!


  14. Hi
    My prayers are with you.

  15. Don't despair and try to keep the faith. Sending you positive energy!

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