Lord
There is
No rush
No hurry
No need
To panic
For all
Of me
Is covered
By all
Of you
Grant me
Peace
When my mind
Gets ahead
Of my body
When the body
No longer
Works as fast
As the mind
Peace
Over panic
Presence
Over
Desires
That hinder
The human condition.
Enjoying
The silence
Savoring
The contentment
Of stillness
Earth keeps
Running round
My gas tank
Is full
For the
Quiet of
My mind
Is so welcome
To the frenetic
Pace of a
World
Clouded
In a state
Of neuroses
Gracefully grateful
For what
I couldn’t
Understand
Gave me
Compassion
Knowing
Suffering
Would become
My greatest
Foe
But
Best teacher
I’m grateful
For the callouses
On my feet
To the meat
I eat
The books
I read
To the
Friends
I meet
Yes the callouses mean I’m walking a lot. And I’m grateful I’m able to do it. I’m grateful for the food I eat. And I’m grateful for all of you.
Love yourself and one another.
I was out yesterday. Someone asked me what I put on my face. Apparently, it was clear and smooth. My face was radiant. I never really pay attention. The question floored me. I don’t wear makeup. I don’t use cleansers or serums. I use sunscreen, chap stick and witch hazel. That’s it. When I thought about it, the only thing I could think of was that I was drinking water continuously, getting good sleep and eating better.
I may be undergoing slow physical metamorphosis, my mind has started to realign. I still have bouts of anxiety. If you told me however, that at the onset of anxiety, I would stop in the middle of Wal-Mart and practice deep breathing, I would have laughed. I now no longer laugh. Yesterday I stopped in the middle of an aisle, and started to count as I took a breath. I did it for as long as it took to calm down. Thanks to my sister I have a watch now to track my heart rate and blood pressure among other things. And when the numbers are too high, I breathe, release until the readings stabilize.
My physical body and mental state must work as a cohesive unit. I’m finally paying attention. I’m having to accept the deck I’ve got as painful as it is. I must love what I’ve been given. My body doesn’t give me luxury to fantasize. Reality is the only place for me today. I’m having to accept that my body needs more water, better food to maximize energy and more sleep than I care to admit. I’m reminded that I’ve got a medical device that gives medicine to my body 24 hours a day. Once I remembered that reality, I decided to give myself a break.
Grateful is being able to walk each aisle of the grocery store, and not be winded. Grateful is the ability to buy baby carrots and hummus. Relishing that healthy food can be nourishing and satisfying. Grateful is finding peace in what I used to hate.
Vegetable soup
On a rainy day
Rain to
Water
The crops
Is so needed
Water
To wash
My troubles
And cares
Away
As my body
Needs
An infusion
Of water
From
The Living Well
Parched from
A world
That makes
No sense
These days
A scrap
Of silken fabric
Drapes my body
Like a bear hug
And my lips
Curve upward
Knowing
You cradle
My wholeness
From
Head to toe
Let me
Seek joy
Find hope
Be loving
In graceful mercy
For the blessing
Of life
Is to give
Goodness
Freely
For all
Who earnestly
Desire
Human connection
Cuddled
In a blanket
As the melodies
Act as
A lullaby
For an
Afternoon nap
Joggers
A sweatshirt
As the
Air conditioning
Cools my
Body
From a heat
That is
Too hot
For a Spring day
The water flows
And the earth smiles
As I look above
For further instructions
Seek the Kingdom
Through
The face
Of the Almighty
May my desire
Be the one
You have
For me
Happy Easter blessings lovelies.
May His sacrifice
Bring assurance
That He
Is always
There
Ready for us
To ask
Lord,
What you did today would change history, but it’s what you do everyday that leaves me speechless. You love the saint, sinner and those in between. You grace me with Your Peaceful Presence when mine is without. You allow me to live a life people like me aren’t usually afforded. And I don’t know or why you’ve blessed me. As I was undergoing another procedure this week, as the needle was inserted into my abdomen, I was stressed. As I watched the medicine enter my body, I felt myself start to relax.
Yes, you do get used to needles. You look forward to them more than candy.
Thank you Lord. Your life for mine. Doesn’t make sense. Your goodness and grace make life worth living.
Love yourself and one another.
Find light
Soak it in
Emulate it
Let it
Seep
Into roots
Deeply planted
That the soul
Isn’t rocked
When
The world
Seeks to shatter
Fragile confidence
Love yourself and one another
Thank you to a special friend who in the comments reminded me of the struggles I been through before, and the journey to health isn’t a scary one. It is one that will take time. Remembering this will be a daily challenge, but one I can handle. Let my fear build faith. Suffering increase resolve. And weakness become strength.
You speak
When I’m
Not watching
It takes
A kind
But truthful
Word
To right
A ship
Veering off course
I must say thank you for all your support on my journey to health. I’m so humbled and grateful. Today I received a gift I wasn’t expecting. God does work when I least expect it. You all give me a boost of confidence. A sense that I’m truly loved. It’s real. Not just lip service. You live it out. You give it willingly. Thank you so much.
My heart
Swells with joy
As I’m reminded
Life can
Be good
With the
Right
People
In it
I don’t know how many of you know I’ve been on a low to no processed food diet for two weeks. I mainly drink water or hot lemon water. I’ve also been exercising for an hour and thirty minutes daily. Stretching and cardio. This has not been easy, but very effective. The weight loss is slow, but it is there. My sleep is much improved. I just wish anxiety would cease, but one step at a time.
Did I want to do this? No, but it was necessary. My body can’t hold as much weight. I also have to wear braces that are heavy enough already. I need endurance and stamina to keep going which I’ve not had in awhile. The disabled body is not as sturdy as it once was. It is not forgiving either.
I’ve felt sluggish, tired, cranky, achy and every other ailment one can think of at the moment. I was in denial. Some days I still am. I also realized I don’t need to be skinny, but I need to be fit. I need to feel good in the body I was given. I’ve asked God for another one, but I’ve been flatly denied.
It also helps that I have a cheering section rooting me on. When you have others invested in your progress it makes a difference. Or maybe I got tired of fighting something I wasn’t going to win. It takes a long time to exit denial and go forward in acceptance.
I don’t know why I’m telling you this other than subconsciously I want a bigger cheering section, and maybe sharing some healthy recipes with me.
Love yourself and one another
Pink toes
Red heart
Chocolate kiss
And a stroll
In green grass
As I smell
Purple hydrangeas
What are you up to this weekend?
Sunshine
Fried eggs
On a Friday
Looking
For a bright spot
In which
To hang
My hat
The dirt
An oasis
Of truth
It stains
And leaves
Purity
Hinging
On a prayer
The Hanes tee
Tie dyed
With red clay
And cut grass
With a smattering
Of ripe tomatoes
To make
A colorful explosion
Enjoying a good workout on the treadmill
Cottage cheese and pineapple
Dreaming of planning trips
Dancing to good music
Cheering on my nephew doing his YouTube videos. I’m trying to figure out how to post them on here. Any suggestions? I’m not very tech savvy. In the meantime it’s MK Outdoors. It’s a red circle with a fish in it. #mkoutdoors
It would make my day if you could check it out. Thank you.
Love yourself and one another
Lord,
You are bringing me to my knees. And in doing so, you are blessing me even when it doesn’t feel like one. Getting healthy physically is a marathon not a sprint. I’m having to be disciplined, and not reject correction. In this process, I’m realizing a healthy body leads to a sound mind. That fact is priceless. Could you pray that I find joy in the process of growing through trial.
Lord
Strengthen me
In your ways
That finding
Obedience
To your will
Not a chore
But an
Immense privilege
That cannot be
Replaced
By a desire
To satiate
The desires
Of a sinful
Flesh
The sun rains
Down
On my soul
And showers
My spirit
With a calm
Peaceful joy
The sunflower
Stands tall
The hydrangeas
And the
Blue hue
Beg to differ
Be noticed
And appreciated
As nature
Bends
To your will
Mine is
Matching actions
To my words
Friday five
Loving my workouts for my mental health
Hooked on lemon water
Loving finding new books to read
Loving Baseball and Hockey
Loving looking at fashion and beauty products
My snail mail addiction is going strong. I love it. Receiving and giving it.
Love yourself and one another.
Be brave
Dear one
Trust one
Be honest
Ask for help
And watch
Him deliver
As the flowers
Grow under
The care
Of the gardener
Trust the
Gardener
Of your soul
To do the same
Asking for help
Isn’t weakness
It’s acknowledging
You don’t know
It all
Use me
Trust me
And find peace
In my correction
And timely guidance
Love yourself and one another
