I was out yesterday. Someone asked me what I put on my face. Apparently, it was clear and smooth. My face was radiant. I never really pay attention. The question floored me. I don’t wear makeup. I don’t use cleansers or serums. I use sunscreen, chap stick and witch hazel. That’s it. When I thought about it, the only thing I could think of was that I was drinking water continuously, getting good sleep and eating better.
I may be undergoing slow physical metamorphosis, my mind has started to realign. I still have bouts of anxiety. If you told me however, that at the onset of anxiety, I would stop in the middle of Wal-Mart and practice deep breathing, I would have laughed. I now no longer laugh. Yesterday I stopped in the middle of an aisle, and started to count as I took a breath. I did it for as long as it took to calm down. Thanks to my sister I have a watch now to track my heart rate and blood pressure among other things. And when the numbers are too high, I breathe, release until the readings stabilize.
My physical body and mental state must work as a cohesive unit. I’m finally paying attention. I’m having to accept the deck I’ve got as painful as it is. I must love what I’ve been given. My body doesn’t give me luxury to fantasize. Reality is the only place for me today. I’m having to accept that my body needs more water, better food to maximize energy and more sleep than I care to admit. I’m reminded that I’ve got a medical device that gives medicine to my body 24 hours a day. Once I remembered that reality, I decided to give myself a break.
Grateful is being able to walk each aisle of the grocery store, and not be winded. Grateful is the ability to buy baby carrots and hummus. Relishing that healthy food can be nourishing and satisfying. Grateful is finding peace in what I used to hate.
...reality is difficult to find these days.
ReplyDeleteGreat text.
ReplyDeleteSo much for which to be grateful. Isn't breathing wonderful? It always helps. Like you, I don't use make-up -- well, a little eye liner but that's it. I really think sometimes using a lot of skin make-up can breed other challenges. Or maybe I'm just lazy!
ReplyDeleteSounds like you are doing really good and that was such a nice compliment.
ReplyDeleteBreathing and getting yourself back on track is a fantastic thing in all kinds of situations. And so easy to do. I've never been a big one for make up either. But I do use sunscreen and some moisturizer .
ReplyDeletePeace is found when our will aligns with God's. Wishing you health and happiness!
ReplyDeleteSo good. I'm glad you're able to stop and breathe and take control. Good for you!
ReplyDeleteGood news - Praise the Lord.
ReplyDeletePraying for you. God bless.
Fabulous news and inspiring!
ReplyDeleteVery good
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your heart today with us.
ReplyDeleteYou really have changed your perspective, and are sharing some deep things that you have learnt - thank you for the privilege of traveling with you on this your journey
ReplyDeleteBlessings
Maxine
Thank you Regine for sharing with us your honest struggles. We love you dear friend!
ReplyDeleteI love this!
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