Request

 Treatment One complete. 

Some thoughts:

Please thank God for your health. Yesterday my body painfully received its Christmas gift. I say it every time. It’s amazing what you will be thankful for in times of pain. Now, I wait as liquid gold works its magic. I will feel like crap for hopefully just a few days. I’m not patient, but for it to work properly I must rest. If that means my activity is limited to going from the bed to the couch…you get it. 

It feels like a miracle that my bodily functions are returning to normal. If TMI…I’m sorry. This is the not so pretty reality of disability. A friend told me yesterday she was grateful I gave her a reality check as to what not to take for granted. 

I’m grateful. God is forcing me to rest. Not argue. Not explain. I’m being forced to tend to my own grass. I don’t have the energy to discuss anything at this point. 

Love your neighbor. Love yourself. Be decent. 

Beautiful

 Have a 

Beautiful Day 

Be decent 

Loving 

Hopeful 

And 

Full of

Joy

Sunday

 Let me share this with you. I don’t know if you will judge me for this. This morning I woke up miserable. My body has been a little like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Semi normal one day, the next I wonder what just happened. All this to say sleep is not good right now. I didn’t know if I’d make it to church. I almost didn’t attend. I got in the shower, and just hoped against hope. 

I got to church. Did I worship with gladness? Did I nod off during preaching? You bet. I woke up, and just continued to let God use me. 

This week holds many appointments. Many treatments. Will they be painful. Yes. Will my body not like me for a bit. Yes. Will I not like my body. Yes without doubt. 

I may make short posts. I don’t know if I will have energy to respond. Just know I love you all. 

God Bless,

Regine 

Be decent human beings. Love one another 

Sunday

 God

Let me praise 

You in the 

Pain 

Pain brings 

A purpose 

Even if

It’s not

One I want 

Snooze

 Rest

The gift 

That keeps giving 

Love you all

Friday

 What is bringing you joy

What are you cooking?

What are you doing?

Any new happenings in your life?

Any prayer requests?

Update

 Thank you for your prayers. Your prayers allowed me to experience something precious. Sleep. My body feels a thousand times better. It’s not where I’d like it to be, but I’m grateful. I don’t understand much, but your kindness that you so richly and faithfully lavish on me leaves me tearing up. To be loved, not for what I can give you, but just because I’m me. It’s one of the greatest gifts I’ve ever been given. 

I will still rest because I need it. My body is telling me that it’s no longer negotiable. I’m grateful is all. Being so tired yet not being able to get the sleep you need is not fun. Sleep:  A blessing. Life:  A blessing and gift. Jesus:  Thank you for your grace and mercy. 

Please take care of yourselves. Love one another.  Be decent human beings. 

I love you all. 

May joy be yours. 

Thank you

Thank you 

For this day 

To love 

And be loved 

Rest

 Very tired today. 

Rest is on the menu today. 

Hugs

Enjoying some downtime. 

Any book suggestions?

Monday

 Letting Him handle my overactive and overwhelmed mind today. 

Loving popcorn 

Unexpected gifts 

Unexplained joy

Pilates

My body is vacillating between utter pain and bearable discomfort. Someone one said disabled have a painful tolerance that seems not human. I’m having to agree these days. If I don’t reply to all of you I’m sorry. I’ve either become one with a yoga mat, massage gun or heating pad. 

The dam burst

 In Church today, I usually am emotional. I can’t pinpoint the exact reason, I almost made it through the entire service, alas during a particular song I let out the most unladylike sobs. It was during that after I had realized something so profound. He had revealed an answer to me after almost thirteen years. Almost the length of my blogging journey. Giving you a preview here before I continue on The Rue. 

It goes in the deepest parts of a faith journey. Most of which I’m not proud to admit. I just want you to see Him through me. I let the world tell me I just had to manifest what I wanted like some famous folks. Manifesting in total opposition to Christ following for me. If it works for the world, I’m happy for you. God had to tell me, manifesting is using your strength to make a favorable outcome for yourself. That takes ME out of the equation, and I won’t have you chasing idols to make you happy, but not fulfilled. 

Head to rkrsrue.blogspot.com for more. 

Sunday

 Jesus 

Lord

Help us be

Who you’ve 

Called us

To be

Decent 

Human beings 

Different

Yet so 

Alike

Yours

 Nobody knows 

My name 

But as 

Long as

Yours is

It’s the goal 

Not a celebrity 

To love

Hate

Or worship

Rather just 

A human being 

Wrestling 

With my 

Own sin

To contemplate 

Yours

Joy

 Finding the joy 

Books

New foods 

Clothing that fits 

Dreams

Hope in unexpected places 

Denied entry

 Jesus 

Worthy 

Of it all

My physical body 

May give me 

1000 problems 

The ability to

Think not

Among them 

I can fret

Or I can

Let Your power 

Reign

Teach me

To trust 

And leave 

My doubts 

At the door

And deny

Its entry

Love

 Love one another 

As He has

Loved you

Be the blessing 

Humanity has

Been seeking 

Ways

 I’m learning 

Your ways 

Are not mine 

You want 

All of me

Not just 

Spare parts 

And empty 

Promises

You are 

Convicting me

With such

Accurate precision 

It’s alarming 

But not 

Surprising

Questions

 What is making you smile?

What are you reading?

What are you buying?

What are you thinking?

What is on your heart?

Yes

 You provide 

I just need 

Trust

And an

Obedience 

I can’t fathom 

But readily 

Accept

Pray

 God

My prayer 

Is that 

I pray 

Before 

I begin 

To despair 

The spirit 

Of Power 

And Presence

Is on

The inside 

Of me

New

 May this 

Day be

Wonderfully ordinary 

Ordinary is

The new

Extraordinary 

The Rue

 Just shared my heart on The Rue. rkrsrue.blogspot.com

I hope your Saturday is one of hope, peace and love. 

In the Presence

 In the Presence 

I rest 

In the Presence 

I rest

In the Presence 

I rest

Because my body 

Demands it 

And I require it

Beautiful children 

Be still

And know 

Is the command 

For the day 

Happy smiles

 Happies

A delicious Shrimp Caesar

Trying on pretty fall looks 

Finding cute stickers

Finding new books I want to read 

Sipping ice cold water on a hot day 

Happy mail from fellow bloggers. 

It never ceases to amaze me how much your kindness means to me 

Thoughts

 Out of

The valley

Into the 

Unclear Unknown 

Where my

Only refuge 

Is the

Almighty’s Arms

Apparently what 

I consider 

Simple requests 

Of the Father

And Son

Must not

Be 

Because 

My dreams 

Really have 

But my

Mindset 

May need

To shift

For it

Is exhausting 

Circling 

The wagons

The Deity

 Leaning into You

You’ve given us

A beautiful world 

And yet

We abuse 

The privilege 

And honor

Because we don’t 

Love or appreciate 

Our blessings 

Much less

Count them 

God redirect me

So I do

Miss the message 

As my sin

Tells me

You’re taking 

Too long 

Fulfilling Your Promises 

Or are those

My wishes

Speaking 

Rather than 

Your wisdom

News

 Service has been restored. Thank you for your prayers. I appreciate you all. The love and care for me is something I can’t wrap my head around, but am grateful, nonetheless. 

A question I’ve been receiving is this. I now have two blogs. This one and the new one The Rue. Its website is rkrsrue.blogspot.com. 

The original is for more fun things I like to discuss. The Rue goes deeper. It’s the hard stuff. It’s the nuts and bolts. So if you want you can visit both or just one. I realize some of us read blogs to find the joy in mindless entertainment. No judgment. I needed to go deeper. 

Have a beautiful Labor Day.