Savor

 Breathe in

Life is 

Not a race

I repeat

Life is 

Not a race

I must run

With speed

But leisurely walk

And truly savor

Questions

 Any weekend plans?

What are you making?

What are you cooking?

What’s in your cart?

What is making you smile?

Not sure yet

Nothing yet. Trying to decide. Want to get crafty. 

Made tuna fish sandwiches last night

Just got some new jean shorts

You all. You all make me smile

Observe

 Yesterday I went analog for seven hours. So simple yet so revolutionary. Did I feel like I was missing something. Yes. Did I constantly search for it wanting to take a picture of something?  Yes. Then I had to remember what life was like before phones. Like survival skills almost. What did I learn yesterday. 

Lack of information inundation leads to true presence. 

You are more observant. 

You use your imagination. 

You turn to music. 

And after going analog, you breathe a sigh of relief. For making it when you realize how dependent you are on your phone. 

Hugs

 Sending love

Hugs

And good wishes

To all

A little grin

A sweet kiss

And a joy

That passes all

Understanding

Anyway

 These days, I’m learning what growth is. Growth is not arguing or proving a point. It’s not about explaining. God made me like this. I still don’t like it. God didn’t ask me what I liked, however. It’s an about loving unlovable people.  It’s still hoping even as the cruel and deceitful of the world prosper, while the marginalized suffer. It’s about not trying to understand what I cannot. Trusting the process, journey, take your pick isn’t glamourous. It’s painful, unsexy and unappealing. It is daily. I’m learning for my own sanity that every day I must walk. It’s my daily commune with God. I say nothing. Nothing at all. It’s the only time I’m truly silent. 

I’m realizing that growth is not doing things the American way. Please don’t ask me to elaborate.  I don’t multitask. I can’t hurry. I can’t get with the program. Sadly, even though therapy and treatment make disability seem invisible, it is not. And that reality greets me daily. It’s the reminded that doesn’t cease. And that is acceptance right there. 

I’m learning that people can be good, and still disappoint you. I’m realizing people don’t want truth. After Sunday’s sermon on self-denial where I cried, but I paid attention. You may not like me after this post. I need to be free more than I need to be liked. Never thought, I’d say that. Another thing is:  I’m doing things I swore I’d never do. Don’t tell God what you won’t do. You will end up doing it anyway. 

Questions

 How was your weekend?

What did you cook?

What did you watch?

Did you have fun?

Did you shop?

Hope you have a wonderful start to your week. Love you all. 

Prayer

 Lord

Keep my 

Mind on you

When I look elsewhere

My brain hits the gutters