I have refrained from these posts for far too long. Surgery took a physical toll, but what it did mentally, I don't know if I can explain. I became a recluse. As many well wishes as I had, I had too much fear, anxiety and disdain for self. I didn't want to take pain medication, but I ended up taking it. I lost weight. I felt like I was existing, not living. Some days, I still feel this. I didn't communicate on Facebook or this blog much. I still haven't given it all to God. This is all still so fresh. I want to bash these keys in frustration.
God Bless,
R
Hang in there. You are a tough critic of yourself. Body and mind both have to heal, and spirit makes three. BTW, God won't get mad if you let Him have it once in a while, trust me on that!
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ReplyDeleteGods got you.
You're in my prayers. Hope you will be feeling better soon.
ReplyDeletePoor thing! Stay strong :)
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One of the hardest things in the world is to "give God all the worry"....when I get to the point of crying all the time and almost making myself sick, I surrender and ask HIM to please take it for me..That doesn't mean that I quit worrying about it...I still do...it's just that HE takes the weight of it and that makes it more bearable for me.
ReplyDeleteA prayer for you, Regine, and just now as I'm writing this, the sunlight streamed through the window. :)
ReplyDelete~Sheri
Hang in there.
ReplyDeletePositive thoughts for you ...
All the best Jan