Dina

I'm having
To recognize
That growth
Is not
Always
Welcome
By self
Or others
I'm having
To trust
God
In spite
Of the
Doubt
That is within
My heart
I am
Reminded
Of my abuelita
And how
She rose
To every occasion
I dismissed your wisdom
You loved me
In a way
I couldn't understand
I put blinders up
I regret it now
I am you
I see
My soul rejoices
Because I got
To call you mine

Message

In my last post, someone asked if I was alright. I'm not. I'm writing to get it out. I'm refraining from making comment because none of it is kind, necessary and will hurt people. I don't have pure motives. Nothing about this is Christlike. It is not lost on me how much hope and affirmation, you all give me. I'm grateful and humbled by your love for me. I'm usually not at a loss for words, I am in this moment. So I will continue to write. Thank you for everything.  In six years, you have continued to be my cheerleaders, and I'm blessed. Thank you for caring enough to ask about me. If I honest, could you oblige me with your prayers.
Humbly,
Regine

Hammer

I asked
You to
Save me
From the
Face staring
Back at me
It was
My own

boom

the space
i leave
open for you
my heart
has expanded
kindness
a smile
changes mood
faster than
sonic boom

Storm

Tell me
The stories
The storms
That makes you
Sit
Smile
And take
You back
To a time
When what is seen
Now
Wasn't possible before

Thoughts

I'm scared
Going to
A place
I've haven't
Been in
In over
A decade
I'm panicked
Shaky
And unsure
Thinking is
In overdrive
The what ifs
Are plaguing me

😄

It’s Friday
Warming up
Greeting
The sunshine
With a smile
On my face

❤️

Thank you for
Waking me up
Resting in who
You are
And not
In what
I've become

Sad

Having to be
The bigger person
Gets old
Revised history
Isn't
A rewritten rule
Can't fight anymore
Trust gone
I don't know
You anymore
Love you
I don't like you
Learning
To zone
You out
It's what you chose
When you picked
Them over me

Giggle

Children
Relish the time
You have
To tell
It like it is
As one ages
Truth
Is no
Longer
Met
With
A
Cute smirk

Foggy

Fog blocking mist
Trees stand
As the green grass
Grows
Wait on sun
To visit
Another day
Doesn't feel
Like February

Home Depot

Yesterday
When your sad
My happy
Is heading
To The
Home Depot
I treated it
As a disco
As Part Time Lover
Played
And I thought
Then and There
To enjoy
The simple
Moments
In each day

Rejection

Rejection
And strife
A part of life
I hope
It was worth
The cost
Conviction is not
Cheap
Having none
So expensive
My friend

Destroy

Struggling with forgiveness
I will get there
Not today
I want to
Make you
Feel like
You made
Me feel
A heaping pile
Of stinky, smelly poop
I played nice
Now I'm done
Love my enemies
So hard to do
Do I want to air
My grievance
But I won't
The untamed tongue
Destroys

Sunny

In His House
All are welcome
Take a seat
Eat some meat
The cup is here
Sip some
And pass
It around
Be a blessing
To those
You meet

Louis

One text
From your brother
And you remember
You are loved
Rejection
Teaches
That pain
Is temporary
And joy
Is eternal

Valentine

Today
It's jelly beans
And conversation hearts
Hugs and kisses
Love in any form
It's joy in progress
In peace
From hurt
And rejection
It's Jesus drawing
Near to this soul
And saying
I see you
When no one
Else does

Naan

Melted ham
And cheese
On naan bread
Some Whisps crisps
And chocolate oat milk
A delicious lunch
As the dog
Naps on my lap
And a movie
Is on
While I
Pen this poem
And thank God
For unexpected rest

Pain

How are you
Friends
Praying
That pain
Educates
Then Dissipates

New Hampshire

Gloomy and gray
Waiting on the floods
Weather run amuck
Watching the
New Hampshire primary
Praying democracy
Is the winner

Mountain air

White
Dots the landscape
Of my soul
Bathing in
A hot tub
The Rockies
The backdrop
God dropping
Fresh powder
The dreams
Become real
In Park City
Utah
I miss thee
Mountain air
And a smile
No man erases

Trial

Ruby red nails
To match the ring
Bringing joy
For when
I catch a glimpse
Of its beauty
I remember
It wasn’t always
This way
The story
Is extraordinarily
Poignant
Because
It persists
In spite
Of
Harrowing trials

👢

White snowy glaze
Purity
Studded
In beautiful goodness
Cleansed
By nature
A splendor
That leaves
Man's mouth
Quenching thirst
That is met
When I become
A child
Who has
Tasted the
Snow
For the
First time
Sticking out
The tongue
The senses
Seeking wonder
And amazement in simplicity

Whipping wind

Starting the day
I'm exhausted
The swirling win
The thrashing rain
That kept me up
All night
Calm the storm
Within me
That is as
Determined
As the one outside

Diamond

Light
Enter
Darkness
Exit
The diamond
Shrouded in dirt
Never loses its luster
Polished and refined
Its promise revealed
A carat of complete
Clarity in its cut
Colorless
Resplendent
In its transformation
To confidence
From confusion

🐊

Rain, rain
Means
Staying dry
And looking
Out the window
Watching sediment
Wash away
The garden
Looks good
This year

Sweet

Let my sweetness remain
The strength to keep focused
Steadfast and humble
In trial and tribulation
Conform
No ma'am
Jesus
You didn't die
For that
I will struggle
I will endure
I will embody
The character
Of the Savior
Regardless
Of the cost

Rejoice

Cerebral Palsy
Thank you
For teaching
Me truth
Fighting battles
Seeking justice
Never stop
Doing what's right
Even when wrong
Is celebrated
And appreciated
God
Bitterness
Must cease
So I can
Let my soul
Rejoice

Chocolat

The smell of
Rich chocolate
Wafting from
The oven
The comfy cozy
Sends me in
Gratitude
To appreciate
What my mouth
Will soon sample

Blue

Blue skies
Means
Pink Cheeks
Soaking up
Vitamin D