Hi

Recovering from surgery. Tell me something good. Love you all. 

Faith

 In my doubt

Faith rise up

And show

That fear

Doesn’t reside

In this location

Love

 Love you all

You are blessed

And beyond 

Questions

What are your wins for the week?

What is bringing you joy?

What is one purchase you made last week?

One random act of kindness?

Favorite quote?

Surrender

 Surrender 

Is starting 

To taste sweeter

Because I’ve let

The tears fall

And acceptance

Become my reality

What have you learned ?

Fear

 I’m finally 

Confronting

What I’ve put off

For decades

To know

Normal

Is not your destiny

But extraordinary 

Is available

When you simply

Face fears

That haunt 

Your dreams

In some way

Every night

Lead the way

 Comfortable

Haven’t known

The feeling

In so long

The growth spurt

Of spiritual maturity

God is tired

Of me 

Stuck in

The same place

Day after day

I can’t pretend

I don’t see it

Because my feet

Are no longer 

Stagnant

But moving

Because laziness

And doubt

Are no longer

Viable excuses

To evade truth

Like the plague 

That ravages minds

With impunity

The exhaustion

On inaction

Is overwhelming

So tackling

The roots

Of malaise

Is underway

Queen

 Some thoughts today

I’m watching the funeral of the Queen, and something is striking. The meaning of life. To love God, country, and family. And yes the family you didn’t know you had. 

To serve dutifully. What a concept. 

As I ponder.  How well do I serve, how well do I love?

I don’t feel l’ve done it well lately. Praying I can be the servant God wants to see. 

Can anyone guess why I love my name today?

Thought

 Stretching 

Always 

What I’ve detested most

Because it takes

Patience

Not to slap

The floor 

In disgust

Waiting for the signal

For the all clear

Until then

I wait

With baited breath

Peace

 Peace

Wash over

Like a waterfall

Cleansing all

Impurities

Could you pray for me?  It’s painful to disclose right now. Maybe in time, I will be at peace discussing it. The right thing is the hard thing. I know that. My heart knows it. My mind knows it. Doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt. Coming to terms with reality, it’s time. I love you all. You give me strength and purpose to keep sharing. The depth is crushing. Having to trust when I don’t understand. 

Whiskey sour

 A cocktail of courage

Whiskey sour

Garnish the heart

With style and substance

That doesn’t fade 

As it ages

Flesh

 The violin

And piano

Go together

In perfect harmony

Fear and worry

Are much the same

It is my desire

That I find strength

To let anxiety

Find the door

And stay away

But I know

He uses everything

He can

To break loose

The chains

That enslave

Holding me hostage

To sinful flesh

Questions

 What is making you joyful?

Last book you read?

Last thing you bought?

What did you make for dinner?

Last program you watched?

Cool

 Cooler days

And new ways

To find peace

Within the storms of life

Praying

 Day break

A new way

To see 

The world

 

Any prayer requests?

Learned

 This weekend I went away, and I learned a few things

Being still will teach more than being in motion. I love feeling small amongst God’s creation. 

Community can bring you alive

Being with children brings joy

What have you learned?

Believe and receive

 The giver

Will receive more

Than ever thought 

Possible

Give 

Love

Receive

Believe

Hope

 I’m unhinged

And I know

It’s because

I’m fearing

Something I 

Can’t control

I’m having

To remember

The Father

Has me

When I 

Can’t see myself 

What are your wins this week?

I’m grateful for the mustard seed. It’s there because progress is being made

The tears fall, and I let them

Renewal is new every morning

Work

 Fall apart

Broken

Cracked

Let it all

Out

The only way

To freedom

Lies in truth

Get used to 

Uncomfortable

It’s the only

Answer

With any proof

I write

But am rarely ever

Happy with the product

That is produced

That will have

To suffice

Wednesday

 Jamming out

In pj’s 

Listening to music

Hoping the coffee 

Kicks in soon

Have a beautiful day

Love yourself

And each other

Friends like you

 Reality

The backwoods of Carolina

Looking out the frame

Of dew and green

Knowing life is sweet 

Because of another’s sacrifice

And yet my mind

Woke up in Positano

Dreaming of limoncello 

And ocean breezes 

Wherever I am

La Dolce Vita reigns

Because God is within me

And I’m surrounded

By friends like you

Wet

The rain falls

And I grin

Because 

Water is precious

And the Lord

Is providing rest

With every drop

What are you grateful for today?

Love you

 Today is a new day. Lord, I have the words, but nothing feels right. Your children need you, whether I’m willing to admit it. Surrender is all you wanted, and I’m obliging. Readers, lift up each other. Love you all. 

Think

 Didn’t get news I wanted at the doctor, but growth is taking in stride. I’m realizing what want is not always best. You don’t get to choose. You just trust. It’s the first time, I didn’t have high blood pressure due to anxiety. Making the choice for peace. I didn’t realize, I consciously surrendered for the first time in my life. It feels good. I will grieve later, but right now, I accept. The psychiatrist was right. The Serenity Prayer. The answer that is true when all else may not be.