A reason

My friend Delvalina commented on my brutal honesty post that gave me pause.  "Everything happens   For a reason, even if we happen to know not the reason". Would I like to know the reason?  Sure I would.  It would be a lie if I answered any differently.  For somebody who wants concrete answers, right now is very difficult, because I don't have what I want.  Right now, if feels like God wants me to be married to him, before I can marry the man of my illustrious dreams.  God wants me to know it's not about me and my dreams.  The Trevor Morgan song:  "Fall Down" I am listening to right now as I type is speaking to this sentiment right now.  Philippians 2:1-11, my Bible verse of the day speaks to this as well.  Starting in verse 5 where it starts to detail how Jesus came as a man who would be obedient to death on a cross!"  I will not lie, when I saw the exclamation point, I thought at once, what's the big deal, why the need for the !.  Then I thought about the crown of thorns, his nailed hands, and I got it!  As it says "He did not consider his equality with God to be used to His advantage." What a Savior we have.  I may be selfless with others, but I have missed the point.  He wants me to practice and perfect being selfless with Him.  Love you Lord.  I have to practice selflessness with God so I can perfect selflessness with my future mate.
R

What's on your mind?

Any questions for me?  Any prayer requests or praises?  Share with me
God Bless,
r

Brutal honesty

This may be one of the most painful posts, I have ever written.  I have been struggling with taking life as it comes.  I want instant gratification.  I want everything on a silver platter or so it seems.  I want the guy to want me like I want him.  I want Paris on the private plane.  I read on Jessica's blog about contentment, and all I can think is that I don't have it.  Or it comes in spurts.  I am riddled with anxiety about finding the male of my dreams, and fulfilling all the desires of my heart.  I wonder about my faith, and how it waves like the ocean until Jesus calmed the seas.  I am trying to not delete every word.  The perfectionist in me is alive and well.  I am trying to reclaim the me I knew three months ago.  They say God doesn't give us anymore than we can handle.  I am starting to doubt that.  That statement might be sacrilege.  Right now, i am trying to follow the advice in "Finding Forrester" which goes something like this:  Don't think, punch the f---ing keys.
so right now i am punching the keys pardon the pun...i don't think i will proofread for fear i might just scrap this entire post...i have deleted entire posts at least twice because i didn't like them...then hated myself....if they say you are close to your destiny when the devil works overtime...then maybe i am close...i don't want to jinx it...you can't jinx God though.  I am scared...to think i might be scared of success more than failure...is a concept hard to grasp....my ISFP self is in overdrive....i wish i had a switch to turn this damn brain off....sorry for the language...another thing i do to much....the doormat I am...the first part of the problem is admitting you have one....my problem and I admit it:  if there could be a fear for anything i could find a rational explanation to find it.  I am anxious pure and simple.  My stepdad really my dad told me I could write a bestseller with all this anxiety I am having.  If that's so the private plane to Paris may be a reality.  Maybe the groom too...who knows...
Praying i have the courage to press publish...
here we go
r

Happy Veteran's Day

Thankful to all those who have served, are serving or will serve.  God bless you and keep you.
Love and blessings to all.
God Bless,
R

Friday Five

Vinegar or mustard BBQ
Vogue or Bazaar
Spanish or French
Style or substance
You give me one and I will answer in the comments

God Bless,
R

Thursday

What's on your mind today?  My mind is jumbled and I have become what I don't like:  an anxious worry wort.  Please tell me I'm not alone!
Any relaxing techniques you can share?
It would be very much appreciated.
God Bless,
R

The Container Store or BBY
Google or Yahoo
Hermes or Lucky Brand
Thanksgiving or Christmas
November or December