Thanks

 Sending a little love 

A lot of thanks 

For all of you

Who give me

Love so abundantly 

Only One

 As I let

My surroundings 

Envelop me

I’m taking 

The time 

To observe 

What peace

Can be

As I simply 

Become one

With the One

Who formed me

Rest

 Spending the next few days resetting my mind. I’m enjoying long walks and leisurely eating. I’m savoring food. Savoring life. The sights and sounds. I’m finding nature is the elixir for my soul. I’m finding that life away from the many screens of life is good. Life doesn’t have to be glamorous to be great. I’m enjoying anonymity for a bit. This week I want no answers. No questions. Being still in my skin. I’ve walked more in these past few days, and my body has never been more tired, yet more fulfilled. The braces have held my body up.  And God is giving me peace as I rest. I’m not saying every day that life won’t throw punches, but for me tonight, I’m just grateful for a brain quietly granting me with a genuine sense of serenity. 

Love yourself and one another. 

Regine 

Yes

 God,

It’s me here. Nervous and excited. You know the reason. Please be with me. Guard me. Armor me with your peace, your hope, your joy and your strength. Stay with me. Remain with me. With you, I’m safe. I’m equipped to be still and know

Love me

With all

That you are

So I able

To do 

The same

Yes

 Release me

From every fear

Every smear

Every little lie 

I believe 

And grace me

With the will 

To do Yours

Medicine

 Today I go to a doctor I’ve never seen before. Yes, I’m nervous, but it is necessary I go. Letting go is one of the hardest things I do on a daily basis. Letting God be in control, and giving up what I’ve thought my life should look like is the hardest things I’ve done. Honestly, my brain is a jumble of thoughts I have yet to unpack. I’ve never wanted to really. I’m too scared of what I may find. Will the answer give me peace or why did I spend years asking. This statement is the place I find myself. Will the answer serve to propel me or drive me in reverse. I shouldn’t apologize, but this post is a summation of my thoughts for awhile. If you can follow, God Bless you.  

Love yourself and one another. 

Regine

Commercial

 I saw a commercial this morning and its tagline said “Control means everything to me”. I understood the context in relation to the message conveyed by the commercial, but I still had to laugh. My pursuit of control has left me miserable and angry. My therapist is always reminding me to be careful what you wish for. I’ve sought control for as long as my brain could grasp the concept. Control does not give me answers, it robs me of peace. It has been suggested I pray for peace for myself. It’s a work in progress. I usually think to pray as I am under the warm spray. Perfect I am not, but it is a miracle I’m actually starting to listen. 

A lot of you are older than me. Share your wisdom. Please. And if you feel led please pray that I find peace, however God decides it looks for me. 

Thank you.

Love yourself and one another

Regine