Having a little dance party tonight. Letting it all go. Letting my body move and groove is doing some wonders for my psyche. Reality is still reality. But, ever so slowly I’m learning to rest. Rest is not giving up. It’s pausing the noise. Just for a little bit. I’ve been on autopilot for awhile. And I need a careful disembarkation. I’m leaning into this joy initiative. If I wait for all I want to happen to be happy, I’ll be waiting a while. And, folks, to not embrace goodness however it comes, is not smart for me. So I will sing off key, read books over and over again, and dance in the darkness. Party for one right here.
I’m learning to enjoy my own company. Took me long enough. That’s a story for another day. When you think you don’t want to learn another darn thing is exactly when you learn something new. I’m glad God never gets tired of the same prayers I pray. I think He needs a reminder. Cough cough. If you’re older than me and chuckling, I get it. I really do. These young whippersnappers have so much they don’t know. And, I’m painfully aware of that. Very aware. I can’t believe I’m admitting a lot of this. Yet to heal, truth must be told. If the adage is true, that the truth truly sets you free. It’s when you realize, you need to be free more than being stuck in your own brain.
So I feel like I’ve been writing the same posts in some familiar iteration for years, but apparently you humor my redundancy. And for that, I don’t know whether to thank you or just be grateful that you love me enough to humor me. So thank you.
Hugs.
Regine
It's wonderful to enjoy our own company. I think society stresses you need a crowd around you to be happy. Nothing wrong with solitude!
ReplyDeleteWe have dance parties at my house. I hung a disco ball in my kitchen window. It was easier to find participants when I had a house of preschool grandchildren eager to dance. Now it is mostly me.
Learning to enjoy your own company is a massive 'level up' in life.
ReplyDeleteWell, in portuguese we have a saying : " Mais vale só do que mal acompanhado!"
ReplyDeleteKeep well and have a ball!
Keep on dancing, freely and spontaneously, knowing that your own company and God's is all you need!
ReplyDeleteYou have a lot of fantastic words of wisdom here! I love my own company. Maybe it's because I was an only child so I've been used to it from a very early age. But it's a good thing, because we aren't always with people. And yes, rest is NOT giving up. Instead, it makes us more ready for what is to come! Happy dancing!
ReplyDeleteRegine, it's so special that you're learning to enjoy your own company. Some have to be around people all the time, and our minds get boggled down with that. We need to love and gift ourselves too. I love that you're listening to music, singing, and dancing!
ReplyDeleteEnjoying your own company is soooo important. I love being myself and enjoy my own company. Hard when you have a kid lol but I get free time when she's at school! :-D
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