Humbling

 I’m contemplating what to share. I probably will in due course, but right now, I’m sitting with it. Every day I accept even more parts of the story that God is showing me. I have to remember this:  It’s not for my glory, but for His. If I share now, my pride and pain will show. Each day is like shedding a layer of skin. A layer of that soft exterior that leads to a hard interior. I know what I fear, I’m just trying to extract it delicately. An event happened this weekend that only He could use for others, but for me too. There isn’t a manual for how deep rooted emotions can occur from something good happening. God didn’t bless me to be a multi-tasking human. Walking and chewing gum at the same time is as much as I can handle. A euphemism yes. A lie, no. I often wonder how many layers we humans have. It’s honestly exhausting.  There is work to do on my soul, mind and body. More than I can say. More than I want to admit. I’ve been a perpetual work in progress for years with no signs of abating. Learning how to be independent physically is mentally draining. It’s a task that needs to be done. It’s not linear. It has more zigs and zags than a maze. Please treasure your independence. It’s a pain to gain. When people can’t see your disability and you have to spell it out and prove it, it is humbling. All this to say, I’m healing, but there is still more to be done. I pray you all are well. 

Courage

 Equip me

Lord to 

Do uncomfortable 

Things

If it

Brings

Courage 

Sunday

 Sunday morning

Smile sunshine

It’s a blessing 

To be alive

Flowers

 Dreaming of dancing

In a field of flowers

My heart is set

On spring

In the middle

Of winter

Happy Friday

Stay warm

And safe

My friends

Questions

 What are you reading?

What are you baking?

What are you ordering?

What are you dreaming of?

What are you grateful for?

Are you playing Wordle?

Attitude

 Back to basics

What am I grateful for

Break it

All down

And start again

Because when

You wake up sour

You need to

Try again

What are you grateful for?

This blanket that is keeping me cozy and warm

Coffee

Good books

Raisin Bran

And Jesus

Who is always there

Reminding me

That bearing fruit

Starts with my attitude

Me

 The magic

Is within me

When I put

My pride

Away

And let 

The world

Be my oyster

Please pray for someone special to me. Thank you all. 

Pride

 Life is 

A journey 

In finding

Belonging

In community

I will say 

As I shared

The truth

Of Cerebral Palsy

Freedom is coming

The truth 

Does set you free

No matter

How much

It hurts your pride

Football

 Ball game baby

Pretzels and poupon

Drinking in

The warm glow

Of a win

On a cold

Sunday night

Snow angels

 Waiting on snow

Hopefully I can

Make snow angels

Tell me something good that happened to you this week. 

Any prayer requests?

Feet

 Rainy and wet

By cozy inside

With a warm heart

Beside the fire

To heat 

My cold feet

True

 Mirror mirrors

Back at me

Today

I smile

Really and fully

Knowing that 

Living is a privilege

Being grateful 

In truth

Not just

Something to say

Questions

 What are you reading?

What are you cooking/baking?

What are you ordering?

What are you watching?

What are you drinking?

Winter

 Wild 

Winter

Weekend

Slow day

Here to recover

Share something good.

Trust You

 I come to you today with tears. Tears of gratitude. That you delight in my joy, and comfort me in my pain. I’m having to be still and rest. I’m having to sit. Just rejoice in the blessings that come. They will come. I have to trust. Thank you for being constants in this journey. Every time I feel alone, I come here and read the words of encouragement you leave me. And I wonder what I’ve done to deserve such love. God is here. I know that. Thank you. Happy Friday. 

Questions

 What is making you smile?

What are you reading?

What are you ordering?

What’s for breakfast?

Favorite sweet or salty treat?

Doctor

 Achievements:  Going to the doctor. 

Went this morning to the doctor. Very nervous. Did I get the results I desired?  No. Is it something I can live with later on. Yes. I’m learning that growth is hard. It can hurt. Your pride will get demolished. Mine just did. It doesn’t feel good. Honestly, in the past few years, my fear has skyrocketed. My faith. I’m still searching. Mentally tired, but doing hard things. 

Tell me something good. 

Tight

 Hold on tight

Dear girl

Life is 

A wild ride

You ready

To lace 

Them up

And go

Pride

 Dancing to 

The song

In my head

That says

Don’t be afraid

It’ll be alright

You’ll survive

Despite your pride

Request

 Monday

We meet again

I greet you

With a smile

And a wave

Anticipating 

A great day. 

Any prayer requests?

Friday

 Friday

You’re here again

You’re here again

And I’m saying

Good morning

How are you all?

Caminar

 Each day

I’m returning 

To a person 

I recognize 

Covid

The blessing 

That still

Gives perspective 

I actually savored

God’s creation

Today

A walk

With Jesus

The dog

And so much

More

As I anticipate 

Mail

From penpals

Questions

 What are you ordering?

What are you reading?

What are you snacking on?

Shine and refine

 Fire 

Burn in me

Refine me

Into pure gold

That shines

For You

Winter

 Enjoying the sunshine

Before the cold

Snaps me back

To reality

Tonight 

Winter truly arrives 

In all her 

Glory and Splendor

Questions

 Last thing you read?

Favorite Christmas gift?

New Year’s goals?

Good morning

 Leave your favorite Bible verses or favorite words of encouragement. This year, I’m making a choice to think positive. Change my mindset. I hope you have a wonderful Sunday

Day one

 Lord

I come today

To declare 

I am Yours

In every way