Wednesday, November 3, 2021

Truth

 I have debated writing this, but the time has come. I’m on day two of rest.  Monday I had my baclofen pump refilled. I love and dread it all in one breath. It’s the day I affectionately call meeting with the needle. It’s where precision and patience must meet. The needle must locate the pump and fill.   I have stopped looking at the needle because I know when it meets. It’s not exact and precise all the time. It can take time. In that time I search for kind eyes and small talk. Once done, I leave and carb load so I can have a few hours of energy to walk, shop and enjoy. Once the window closes, exhaustion sets in. The next few days are peaks and valleys of energy. I get bursts. One minute, I feel wonderful, the next I struggle to now doze off. The most mundane tasks become acts of courage. After about a week, I return to the person, I often take for granted. I’m a child of grace, blessed by a benevolent God who gives me access to healthcare many the world over could only pray for friends. I give you this brief looks into what it takes to maintain mental and physical health. Science and Jesus work in tandem in my life. Let me tell you every race, every creed, every religion has treated me. The immigrant has loved me. The treatment rooms are the melting pot. When the needle goes in, what or who you are matters not. I’m American born and bred, but my first word was not uttered in English. The Ukrainian and Cuban grandmother who I swore I was nothing like, is the one I miss most. The one who deepened my faith in Christ was a college professor I had who was a hardened atheist. You can be proud of your heritage and be a patriot in the same breath. My only desire is that you love people truly, deeply and without reservation. I don’t tell you how or what to believe. What you do, I don’t answer for. The Maker of Heaven and Earth knows your heart. He judges accordingly. We are all His children whether we profess His Omnipotence or not. Blessings my friends

50 comments:

  1. Beautiful post! Thanks for sharing, hugs and prayers, Valerie

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  2. Thanks for the peek behind the curtain into your life.

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  3. Um texto diferente do habitual que muito gostei de ler.
    Qua a sua harmonia mental e física sejam sempre uma realidade.
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    Deixando cumprimentos
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    Pensamentos e Devaneios Poéticos
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  4. I can't even imagine what you have to go through. It such a blessing to have God the Father. Jesus the Son and the Holy Spirit,our Comforter to guide us. And thank you for speaking truth. I'm so glad to call you friend and sister in Christ!❤

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  5. I'm honored that you have let us peek behind that curtain into the things you endure. Medical science and the treatments we are able to have are such blessings from God. Without His giving people the intellect to develop treatments, we would be left with no hope of relief. Without His grace and love, we would be left without hope of life. Without Him, we would be without ALL hope.
    I'm always blessed when I read your posts.
    Blessings and hugs,
    Betsy

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  6. I always see the miraculous when a hardened atheist accepts Jesus as their savior. My hubby comes from an atheist family - that's why I know how big the jump is! Hope you know that it was the stripes on the back Jesus received that healing is our portion, for any disease if we ask him, and pray you will once receive that:) Be blessed!

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  7. So sorry for all you go through, I am thankful God refreshes you, gives you strength for each new day, and guides you as you share with all of us. I am thankful you are able to get the medical care you receive.

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  8. Dearest Regine,
    Indeed, we all have to be more aware of the privilege of living here with medical treatment being available!
    Your baclofen pump refill certainly is nothing to look forward to, but what is the alternative and still what about all those that never will have access to it?!
    It gives us courage during our low stages; which is understandable and permissible.
    Without God, we never would make it through...
    Big hugs, hoping you pull soon into your 'better' stage.
    Mariette

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  9. You have a baclofen pump? I take the medication (and am grateful for it) but have so far resisted suggestions to have the pump installed. Thank you for this window into your world.

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  10. I hope you get well!! ❤

    https://www.heyimwiththeband.com.br/

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  11. I agree - Thank you for this window into your world.
    You are a strong lady, you are the zodiac sign Leo!
    Blessings, Dearest Regine!❤

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  12. So beautiful and true! Hope this window goes by fast, and you feel like yourself again <3

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  13. I am so sorry to hear of your health issues but thankful that you are able to get the treatment that is needed to help you cope with them. I hope you are able to return to that person you take for granted sooner rather than later.

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  14. I love your thankful attitude with all you have to go through. God bless you.

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  15. Such wise words, Regine. We need to quit judging each other. We all need to love each other more.

    Have a blessed day, Regine. ♥

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  16. Thank you for sharing your deepest feelings and thoughts, my friend.

    I hope you have a blessed week.

    ~Sheri

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  17. Thank you for sharing this post.
    Thinking of you.

    All the best Jan

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  18. It's probably well worth the discomfort to feel better. Hugs from all of us!

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  19. I wish I had your courage and perseverance...

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  20. I believe we are all put here to learn to love one another in spite of our differences. Everyone is dealing with a struggle of one kind or another, and kindness matters always! Sending comforting hugs your way for a better tomorrow.

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  21. You have such a way with words Regine. It is so wonderful that you share. Part of what you said reminds me how we can be a work in progress yet a masterpiece at the same time.
    XOOX
    Jodie
    www.jtouchofstyle.com
    Sending love and prayers,

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  22. God has given you a lion's share of courage and determination, Regine. What you say here cuts through all the lies the cancel culture would like us to believe. We are all beloved by God, no matter what our backgrounds, and we need to love our neighbors as Jesus loves us. Blessings, my friend!

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  23. Such wise words, I hope you gain all the strength!

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  24. So profound and moving my friend! Thank you for sharing your truth. It will change lives.

    https://www.kathrineeldridge.com

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  25. Love your words <3

    Federica
    www.federicadinardo.com

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  26. I love this post so much. It helps me know you better as a person, to understand a bit more what you must experience every day, the very real effects of the benefits of medicine, both good and bad, and of faith. I admire your writing and your courage and strength, especially during these most challenging times.

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  27. Your strength and faith is something we should all aspire to. Thanks.

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  28. Wonderful words, sending you hugs and prayers.
    Tammy x

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  29. It's often those who are going through the most who are most open and caring of others. Do take care and stay strong dear Regine. Sending you <3

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  30. Be kind to yourself and get the rest your body and soul need. Glad you shared. Hugs and prayers. Donna

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  31. I had to look up what a Baclofen pump was because I had no idea. Sorry to hear you need one. I do hope it helps though.

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  32. Sending love and prayers xx. Lovely thoughts and very wise and true. Hugs x K

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  34. Thank you for sharing with us and do take care
    Carol x

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  35. Thank you for sharing this with us. May you be well and happy.

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  36. Thanks for sharing this intimate look. I hope your refill day went well.

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  37. That pump refill sounds what I would call a necessary evil - necessary to maintain a quality of life for you, but evil as there are the discomfort and after effects to deal with. It is amazing how God brings us to places of strength through the most unlikely of people... thinking of your professor!
    Stay safe
    Blessings
    Maxine

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  38. Very inspiring post. You are very brave. I love what you said about being able to be patriotic and proud of your diverse heritage.

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  39. I had to wipe the tears from my eyes before I could write a comment to this post. I feel for you...and I agree with everything you said here. One thing that I also realize is that living where I do... I some health care that is not available to everyone on this earth. I do Not take that forgranted. Many Blessings to you, and I hope you are feeling strong today.

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  40. I'm happy you've been touched by so many lovely people in life and in your experiences having to deal with a chronic situation. As you said, we are all God's children and are blessed by him. For that I am grateful. I need to be grateful more often. Thank you for sharing your journey! :)

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  41. Sounds like you have found many people in your life directing you to your faith. That's a great thing to acknowledge.
    Despite your words regarding communication, I think you said, quite nicely, what your world can be like after a procedure that helps you (and many others) to function and live their lives the best they can.
    Thank you,
    Cara

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