Questions

 What are you watching?

What are you eating?

Where are you going?

Pray

 How may I pray for you today?

Thank you for your feedback on yesterday’s post. I love you all so much. 

Church

 This topic may not be a fun one, but I should want to return to church, but my heart isn’t there. I find the church now resembles politics and a hierarchy. Church used to fill a void, but now I’m sour. I have faith. I don’t know if Christ resides in the church. If you go, please help dispel what I now think. 

Will

 God

It’s me

You teach

Even when

I’m not

In a mood

To listen

Soften my heart

To your Will

Thoughts

 You’re here

With me

And that’s enough

Lord for me

Pt chronicles

 PT chronicles. 

6 more weeks 

Ankle is taped

Slight swelling 

I’ve lived in a static state. I’ve been scared for years. Anxiety doesn’t leave. You fight the fear. Every day. Love you all. 

Today

 Send some motivation

And discipline 

My way

Tell me something good. 

Hopeful prayer

 I’m learning. I’m growing. It’s a most painful process. My pride is going. Lord, I’m battling. The body is listening. Now if I could get the heart to follow. This is a challenge. I need discipline and prayer. Show me what you want. Lead me. You know I want control and right now it’s not what I need. Acceptance. Is this what this is. Hope is real. Love you all. 

❤️

 Muscles 

Burn and sore

Mean 

Soaring 

Is next

Stay

 I saw something on Instagram about discipline is more important than motivation. It’s true for me. PT is all about discipline. Some days I’ve lacked motivation to keep the new way of life going, but discipline keeps me going. For the first time, I’ve loving my body enough to fight for it. Do I look better?  Yes. More importantly, I’m feeling better. I never trusted that my body could work for me, if I worked for it. Let me honest.  This is the first time, I’ve truly worked for it. I just expected my body to hold up. Sustaining means working. I still don’t like working. I’m doing it nonetheless. My body deserves it. I’m finding when I take care of my body, my mind follows. My problems don’t cease, but I no longer let the problems stop me. Love you all. 

Soulful

 Sunday 

Your day

Where my heart 

Is hopeful 

For Your Word

To feed

My soul

Contentment my friend

 Lord

It’s me

Body aches

Soul rejoices

What a concept

A little pain

Leads to contentment

Friday

 What are you grateful for?

PT is reviving me. I hate doing it, but I can’t argue with the results. Thank you for your support. I love you all. 

Love

 I’m proud of my body. Never thought I’d write that. It feels good. PT has stretched my body and strengthened it, but it has done wonders for my mind. And that is the blessing I feel most for. Who knew a physical injury would start to heal my fractured soul. I’m facing the pain, and it’s been the best thing to happen in a long time. Love you all

Sustain me

 PT lesson

Rest and perfection

I’m learning what it is to rest. Fully rest. I enjoy peaceful sleep. I haven’t in a long time. As my body heals, my mind does too. I needed this. I needed what I despise. I’m learning in PT, that my body may not achieve perfection. It doesn’t need to. I just need to sustain and improve. It’s a concept so foreign to me. To sustain. God, sustain me. Love you all. 

The PT thought

 PT lessons

You will face your fear

You will be too tired to think

You will discover muscles you never use

All of these are great, but the second is the most important. I don’t have energy to wallow. I complain about PT, but it lifts my soul.  I realize I am capable, and that is what I need daily reminders of. I need to be reminded to love the body I have. I have two arms and legs. And that is a blessing. I needed PT to remind me of God’s goodness. Who knew when I hurt my ankle weeks ago, it would be a gift. When you think God is through teaching or using you, He makes Himself known. Love you all

Questions

 Last thing you made?

Last book you read?

Last vacation you took?

Last snack you ate?

Last thing you bought?

Pt

 PT lessons

The past will reappear. It’s worked a number on my psyche. It’s brought out the mental blocks. If you don't address your past, it will come back. And mentally my brain and I are doing battle. This has been exhausting. I’m learning that strength training is not for the weak. My body experienced fully puddled sweat. I’ve never taken cold showers. I did this morning. My ankles and feet are weak. My PT almost heard me shout expletives today. I almost shouting them now. Epsom salt baths are my friend now. Love you all

Thoughts

 Thoughts

Trying to get gratitude back at the center

I’m sore

I’m cranky

But I’m alive

Renew my heart

And change my

Attitude

Friday

 Friday evening

How was 

Your week

My friends

Grateful

 What are you grateful for today?

What is making you smile?

I’m grateful for the simple pleasures. A good chat. A smile. A good meal. 

Love you all

 Thank you for your comments yesterday. You all gave me an attitude adjustment. One I needed. It’s a privilege that someone is able to whip me into shape. I woke up sour. And now after reading your comments I realize my mistake. I’m blessed that lovely human beings are invested in my success. Thank you dears for giving me what I needed even if you didn’t know I needed it. Love you all. 

PT thoughts

 PT thoughts

It will take time. 

I will get frustrated

I will continue

This isn’t a race

If I thought I would hold a plank for 10 seconds. I did

This isn’t a search for perfection

I will have PT thoughts for awhile

PT

 PT this morning. Physically I’m okay. Mentally, it’s taking time. Everything is a process. I’m realizing this will now be a part of daily life. My body has never felt better. Why is it we fight things that are good for us. I’m fighting what I know I need. I’m not fighting it outwardly. I’m warring on the inside. I’m fighting what I can’t have. 

These are my daily thoughts. 

Are

 Love me

As you have

And remind me

Of Who 

I am

Within the

Arms

Of who

You are

Letting

 God

Your child here

Transform me

Remind me

Of your Will

Your timing

And letting go

And letting

You in

Rest

 PT lessons

I’m learning to rest

I’m learning my body

I’m loving my body

I’m not cursing what my body can’t do, but amazed at what it can do

In almost forty years, I’m learning and cherishing. What a gift. 

heart

Thank you for your prayers. I covet them. Pray I continue without complaint. Thank you. 

What’s on your heart?

PT

 After a few days of PT, here are my thoughts

The body can do amazing things. Even mine. I am being taught. My ego has been emptied. 

Let people help you. I will say it again. Let people help you. 

Pride will leave you as soreness replaces it

I’m exhausted but content knowing hope isn’t lost. 

I’ve never slept better

Depression and anxiety are still present. Lessening daily. 

I’m having to take on less. I can’t multitask. I shouldn’t be ashamed of this. 

Mind and body have become my sole focus

God sees me even when I don’t see Him. He is present. 

I hate being selfish, but again I can’t multitask. It takes almost all my energy to tend to my body right now. 

Love you all.